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Defying Calamity in Current Events

  • Jan. 1, 2025, 5:08 p.m.
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I love that New Year New Me energy. Most people in my age group have given up and think the hype is stupid. It’s still my favorite time of year. It’s when a lot of people stop feeling fine and I live for it.

I’m 60lbs overweight but I’m fine. My health is in decline but I’m fine. I’ve hated this job for years but I’m fine. My spouse feels like a roommate but I’m fine. I don’t agree to believe that everybody is doing their best. I had to make a strong boundary with these people. Not everybody failing at life is a victim. They have weak characters and make bad choices. Do better and prove me wrong.

I am disinclined to sum up 2024. There were a lot of powerful changes and a lot of growth. My biggest takeaway is learning that I have ADHD. I didn’t take it well. It is like being told that there is something wrong with your legs. You will never run, you will never climb, and you will never swim but you can learn how to get the best out of walking. You will learn to fly though. I wish I knew. [Insert Defying Gravity Song Here]

ADHD is not that deep. The brain has a metabolism. It is just a dopamine deficiency. We don’t have the chemical for motivation. If something gets too tasky, your brain isn’t wired to do it. The brain is a problem solver and that is where the battle starts. ADHD can’t touch the routine part of the brain. This is where the problems and solutions are. I digress.

I am pretty high-functioning. I think I figured out my workaround. Service. I can do things for others without hesitating. A lot of what I do for myself I do in service to others. Like keeping my space clean for company. Staying on top of my health because I want to keep up with my nieces and nephews. I don’t have ADHD on the clock because I am working for the man. I’m not self-centered and inconsiderate, that’s the gist.

Last night, I had that epiphany. I can turn my tasks into a service. My love language is sharing. I give people my time. I always offer to help. I will make myself present no matter how I feel. I can do it for them. It is hard to do it for myself because it gets too tasky. There is an opportunity here. I want to lean into this.

Krishna told Arjuna to do everything in service to him. I am going to explore this. Make everything an act of service to something higher than myself. I am going to have to try and make a connection there. I am learning the ways of my people. Trying to help clean that cultural karma. This will be my spiritual path to creator. I want to do everything in service of him.


Wellness Check
I haven’t posted publicly in a while. We missed a lot but who cares. I’m really trying to look forward right now.

I decided to extend my break from school. I really need to find myself. I am going to donate that time to feed the houseless in my city. There is a nonprofit that does community walks and brings food to the houseless in the tent communities along the river. They need volunteers and I need to go out and face humanity. I need to be humbled. Learn humility. My rhetoric is harsh. I don’t know what I don’t know. No more lateral violence. Those are your people, Tom.


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