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so. we got a new family attorney. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
thank god. cause i did not like laura. when i first met her she was ok. but then she got involved w/ the whole evan/me running away. thing so. [oh yeah when i was uh. 26 i ran away from the place...
just. waiting. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
so last wk. my goal. was to not argue w/ her. my sister which i didn’t. i’m not going to fight or argue w/ her. that implies a relationship and getting close which. no and opening up. it’s weird....
so. last wk. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
so. last wk. on thurs. when my mom came to pick me up. my sister was also in the car. which i did not know untill. on that morning my mom told me. and i’m just like ‘oh’. like well fuk. i know. i...
is that. my sister didn’t even do it. for me. [although that would’ve also bothered me. a great deal bc. again i resent being protected.]. no it just. she. was only thinking of herself, at the ti...
well. it's her loss. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
well. it’s her loss. my sister’s. in the last 8 or so yrs. - actually a little over - she’s missed out on getting to know someone who’s. well. she’s missed out on getting to know me. and for thos...
so. the second time my sister was addicted to drugs which was in her early to mid 20’s. she. was addicted to vicodin. alrite. so growing up i just. required more attention then she did through no...
pearl ring. and pot. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
so. i’ve mentioned the pearl ring before. well. my sister left her pearl ring at my mom’s. and at first i thought ‘oh i should say something’ but then i’m like. no. after all. the reason my mom b...
it's sad. purple rain. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
it’s sad. it is really sad. that now bc i felt. my sister drove a wedge between us 8 yrs. ago. we. don’t have much of a relationship. no and i played a part too. i’m not saying it was entirely he...
and not ‘you’ personally the person reading this. anyone. my sister. i felt. violated my privacy by. mentioning the thing between me my ex. when he threatened me. regardless of how. she found out...
it's complicated. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
i like that movie. anyway. it’s more complicated then. just ‘oh this store clerk was impolite to me’ or ‘oh i had a problem w/ this. wait staff member at this establishment’ cause. in those 2 exa...
so. a wk. ago when. my sister was over at my parents’. she either said ‘no one did anything about it’ or ‘no one was there for me’.............no actually. i know she said the second one. and tha...
ya know...........just bc i love. [and i do.]. my sister. doesn’t mean i have to let her in. ever [although ‘ever’ is a long time. it is. a long time.]. like sure. we can all play physical games ...
i told them about olivia. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
well fuk. i can’t sleep. [well have you made an effort to? yes. not much but yes.]. although. it’s not that unusual for me to be up for 10, 12+ hrs. so. and it’s now been. 11 hrs. i woke up at um...
from the 3rd - the 9th in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
on sun. the 3rd i. did my laundry as usual. mon. - wed. i. didn’t do anything. thurs. i um. went to my mom’s via her. we had lunch at her place then um. i went out. my sister came by that day. oh...
so. [and this has nothing to do w/ the dream btw.]. anyway. i used to have this beautiful faded sapphire ring. that my dad gave to me. he’d found it under his mom’s my grandmother’s place. er hou...
so. is this, the right decision for me? to not trust my sister? no for me personally not anyone else. i think...........no not ‘i think’. no yeah. yeah it is. [and it’d be fine if it wasn’t but y...
threats. and ug. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
so. um............the day my now-ex threatened me. ok this was like. 6 yrs. ago or so. we did not. have an argument about sex. contrary to what at least my sister thinks. they think. that we had ...
well. the only thing i can do. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
is keep being who i am. yeah actually the last time i saw marty he told me “keep being you.”. er i can’t really change that but thanks? no i’m not over. what my sister did. i’m just fukin tired. ...
Trust has to be earned. not given. and i think almost anybody would agree w/ me on that. like my sister doesn’t get to waltz into my life again and and...........and fukin apologise and like oh o...
pressure. and revenge. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
so. i’ve been reading up on revenge recently. i think i read an article on menshealth. com [yes sometimes i’ve read a few articles on their site. even though i’m a woman] i think that was the sou...
i don't like secrets. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
well. i mean not me personally. no uh on sat. my sister said that. and she wants to get to know me...........right yeah ok. so. at one point during the 2 hr. or so conversation on sat. amongst he...
wow my sister actually apologised. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
so earlier today. i don’t quite remember how, or want to. but the subject was brought up. by my sister. the subject of evan having, as she put it, ‘lived’, w/ me. er ‘moving in’/having ‘moved in’...
sorry rather. on the 4th of may 2013. yes there we go. well right. the day after the OD. evan made me bacon & eggs. i was up between 7 a.m. and 9 a.m. that day. i got ready and well i. went t...
if anything, i owe you. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
he told me that once. evan when we were talking about the night i OD’ed. [or as he calls it ‘the milk night’.]. yeah cause i told him something. about me owing him. apparently it was one of the b...
so i found some letters. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
actually. it was a composition book of a few letters i’d written evan back in spring of 2017. the last one i wrote was in may. may 7th actually. it was his suggestion to do so. he’s never read th...
