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so. um............the day my now-ex threatened me. ok this was like. 6 yrs. ago or so. we did not. have an argument about sex. contrary to what at least my sister thinks. they think. that we had ...

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is keep being who i am. yeah actually the last time i saw marty he told me “keep being you.”. er i can’t really change that but thanks? no i’m not over. what my sister did. i’m just fukin tired. ...

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Trust has to be earned. not given. and i think almost anybody would agree w/ me on that. like my sister doesn’t get to waltz into my life again and and...........and fukin apologise and like oh o...

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so. i’ve been reading up on revenge recently. i think i read an article on menshealth. com [yes sometimes i’ve read a few articles on their site. even though i’m a woman] i think that was the sou...

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well. i mean not me personally. no uh on sat. my sister said that. and she wants to get to know me...........right yeah ok. so. at one point during the 2 hr. or so conversation on sat. amongst he...

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so earlier today. i don’t quite remember how, or want to. but the subject was brought up. by my sister. the subject of evan having, as she put it, ‘lived’, w/ me. er ‘moving in’/having ‘moved in’...

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sorry rather. on the 4th of may 2013. yes there we go. well right. the day after the OD. evan made me bacon & eggs. i was up between 7 a.m. and 9 a.m. that day. i got ready and well i. went t...

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he told me that once. evan when we were talking about the night i OD’ed. [or as he calls it ‘the milk night’.]. yeah cause i told him something. about me owing him. apparently it was one of the b...

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actually. it was a composition book of a few letters i’d written evan back in spring of 2017. the last one i wrote was in may. may 7th actually. it was his suggestion to do so. he’s never read th...

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so. i had an entire entry typed up about. my wk. the past wk. but then. when i went to save it...........pb went to the log in pg. so. and i don’t like repeating myself. um. i’ve calmed down a bi...

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so evidently. what happened back in may 2013 was drug poisoning. which makes sense why i was crying. i’m not someone who cries a lot, if i’m in pain so...........also i think i was just. really c...

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not quite. tom. it’ll be since here it’s the 2nd. um. it’s been almost 7 yrs. since i overdosed. od’d on wine and pills. benadryl. and lately..........i’ve been thinking about evan a lot mainly c...

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so on the 12th. i did my laundry. mon. - wed. i. didn’t do anything. thurs. i went to my mom’s. via my mom oh yeah i went to starbucks that day. fri. i was at my mom’s. we had panera. no not went...

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i somewhat forgot where i left off. right. so. i asked my mom. and. she also thinks my paternal grandmother was an alcoholic. i might’ve mentioned this prior sometime during my time on here. like...

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which is a weird expression. but i actually kindof like it and am getting used to it. um. this. has to do w/ the stupid virus thingy. so a little over 2 wks. ago i’d heard. from my mom that when ...

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no not me. well. now that easter’s over. ya know..........i’m not a big easter person. i’m not religious and don’t have kids so. nor do i want them or am around them a whole lot. i still think. a...

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first. some backround info: my late paternal grandmother d. 4, 5 yrs. ago come oct. for those who don’t know. [and if you didn’t then. wow. not like i’m one to talk about not paying attention cau...

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so. i didn’t blog about my wk. last wk. bc well it was a holiday. it was april fool’s day actually. i’m not a prankster. um anyway. so sun. the 29th i. did my laundry. mon. - wed. i. didn’t do an...

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so. this might be hard. for some reading this to. digest hell it’s hard for me even though. i don’t know any of the details. well i am of. british descent mom’s side. and way back when in the 160...

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so. as i’ve probably mentioned. i’m not of portugese or greek descent. sorry. to have mislead people. no that was ancestry. com’s fault. i thought i was and then. on the website that changed acc...

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actually i’ve already written about shampoo so. so. i think. that i might actually be allergic to medical tape er well standard, medical tape. which of course i bought, at the dollar store. the w...

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Patti she’s a housemate of mine i’ve mentioned her before. she is low functioning. she doesn’t talk to people she talks at them cause she’s not able to actually hold a conversation. anyway so due...

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so apparently. Support the co. that Naya and the lady work for. is closed. which means. a. i don’t have to feel bad about cancelling another house meeting when. there hasn’t been another one sche...

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so this was something. that was going to happen a month or 2 ago. but then didn’t. [like i’ve said i’m behind. i’ve just not stated that recently.]. well so a month or 2 ago. my sister was going....

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so at whole foods uh yesterday. they were wiping the baskets down for, the customers. i didn’t get a basket. [actually no the only reason i was there was to get chai so.]. but they’re assuming. e...

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