Park Row Fallout ⋅ 36

Midwest Attorney trying to navigate the waters of life

Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.

Haruki Murakami

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I just realized… when I’m feeling anxious… especially socially… I tend to go to a particular show… read the lines from the main character until I’m comfortable enough that I can actually pull off...


Some days, you wake up and a feeling comes over you. It can be difficult to really put your finger on… but there’s just this feeling and you have a sense for what to expect from the day. Or is ...


Yesterday, I was feeling sad about the divorce. But I couldn’t put my finger on it. It was a lonely feeling, a feeling that called a tear to my eye and a hollow feeling to my heart. But it was...


2 days ago

Short in Reconstruction

Had a pretty decent weekend. Friday: Roll20 Saturday: DDO w/Remus Sunday: Hung out with Victoria and her kids at their house and went swimming. Overall, pretty good… and very social (all things c...


5 days ago

Okay so in Reconstruction

Okay so… I didn’t create this… but I’m telling you right now… I would very much like to find myself at some point in a place where I can present this to someone!


I’ve not been dreaming the way I normally do. Apparently, this is fairly common in the Time of COVID. But whereas my dreams are normally deeply narrative or, as has been the case during the Pan...


I’d say last night was a very successful Nala night! Though, concerns abound. I followed the vet’s advice and gave two shorter walks as opposed to 1 big walk. This was better for Nala certainl...


To everyone who has recommended freezing Nala’s puzzle toys (EverLast Wheel, Kong w/Treats, etc) THANK YOU! Brilliant advice. Today in my failed attempt to get my games to work on my new PC, I ...


7 days ago

Emotions in Reconstruction

I think days like yesterday are about, largely, how emotionally crippling this year has been without almost any support or fix to it. That isn’t to downplay friends and readers who’ve reached ou...


Oh. Shit. Seriously. This is worry and questioning approaching the level of making me sick. As you may be aware, Nala has taken to destructive chewing again. She has destroyed many a bed linen a...


July 27, 2020

Tragic in Reconstruction

So, I was honestly hoping my Sunday would be restorative. After a shitty Friday, a shitty Saturday… I was hoping… Sunday, be relaxing. Started it out by updating my new PC with my old games. On...


What has been truly horrifying for me this year is how many people are aghast at my perspective on Law and Order. And that is horrifying because my stance is in support of Law For All. I find it...


July 24, 2020

For vs To in Reconstruction

So… not unexpected but… damn I wish I could find someone to help walk Nala! Wednesday I was in too much pain to function; so Nala didn’t get a walk. Yesterday, I walked Nala as much as I could. ...


I have totally stolen this from one of the various people who did this survey on my list. I just got convictions on all of my trials today so I’m doing this as a semi-victory lap of sorts. Plus...


July 23, 2020

Silly Rabbit in Reconstruction

I am back in the office today. Have to be. 9 hearings and 4 trials; so… have to be. I’m still feeling… wonky. My legs aren’t in as much excruciating pain but my back is still very fucked up. ...


July 22, 2020

Pain in Reconstruction

Today, I have stayed in bed for most of the day due to the overwhelming pain in my legs, back, shoulders, and neck. That sucks. And on days like this… I feel particularly bad for Nala. Because I...


I decided after everything today, I was going to be kind to myself. Just… turn off the outside world… play with my dog, do laundry. The other stuff on my to do list can be taken care of tomorro...


July 21, 2020

Classic Chris in Reconstruction

The same day I write an entry about how tired I am? I give Nala an hour walk. Play with her for 20 minutes. Cook 7 different dinners. (Meal Prep, don’t ya know) Play with Nala for another 20 min...


July 20, 2020

Additional in Reconstruction

I just put this on Twitter: The Law can be very Drought/Flood. Just strange when it is in the same week. Slow, unbusy start. Hectic, chaotic finish! And it is true. My next three days on my W...


July 20, 2020

Break in Reconstruction

I know everybody is feeling this way these days. But I need a break. Not just a break from work. A break from everything. A Life Vacation. 1 week where I don’t have to clean or take care of the...


July 19, 2020

Repeated Reality in Reconstruction

You know, I truly hate to say it. The divorce was necessary and unavoidable and… in truth? Nobody’s fault… which, more accurately, is to say both of our fault in that my ex should have been mor...


First, there are elements that must be accepted as FACT and not up for debate. (1) Any form of Solitary Confinement has the potential to be psychologically damaging. (2) Many violent offenders al...


I think it is quite telling about the state of our country how far Left people think I’ve gotten. In truth, the differences between who I am now and who I was in 2005 (politically) aren’t that l...


As I have been cataloging… too many in my profession and my office vehemently object to BLM and DefundPolice. Which, as I keep repeating, is ridiculous because here’s the bloody truth: My office...


Title Chosen by Random Word Generator. Apparently… I have a lot to say today. Let’s get to it....... Yesterday actually worked pretty well. I spoke with Nancy about possessions and we’re both pr...