Park Row Fallout ⋅ 35

Midwest Married Man; Attempting to find answers, traverse the waters of life, and figure things out.

Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.

Haruki Murakami

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I’ve nowhere else to put this so I’ll just put this here… consider it vague-booking. I honestly wish I had someone that I could talk to, in person, and really sort through some things. It is one...


This entry may be more appropriate in my “Explicit” Book but I feel that this is more of a “daily journal” issue so I’ll simply say in advance… this entry will contain discussion of sexual concep...


So… I did get a mutual right swipe on Tinder last night. From a girl whose message was “My band and I are touring and our van keeps breaking down. I can send you pics for money!” So… again… not t...


5 days ago

What?! in Reconstruction

I don’t know what is wrong with my rhythms or what, but I need to be getting more sleep. This waking up and being instantly tired shit has got to go. I acknowledge (fully) that weather has a lo...


Whoo. Boy howdy did yesterday go long! Typically… my days would be 8:00 to 4:30. Yes, I’m a government employee. Yesterday? I got to work at 6:30 a.m. and didn’t leave court until 5:00 p.m. ...


A Faint Whisper These are the moments where I wish for a more peaceful soul. A more restful mind. A more steady heart. The moments of waiting with nothing to fill the space. I have an hour be...


7 days ago

Early Days in Reconstruction

Last night, I tried my best to get to bed early because I wanted to wake up early. But it was difficult. However, I did absolutely get up early… but earlier than expected. Nala was whining to ...


January 11, 2020

U48 in Reconstruction

So what I predicted is pretty much exactly what has happened. I have been using dating apps for two months and have had ZERO responses from anyone. Martha has been on dating apps for five days ...


January 10, 2020

On Work in Reconstruction

Yes, sue me. I’m doing a second entry today. Why? Well, in part because I have the time and opportunity to do so. You see, as busy as next week promises to be… I’m somewhat counting on a bit ...


January 10, 2020

Worked in stages in Reconstruction

Stage One: As I was flipping through Tinder, as always pointlessly swiping left or right with the certainty that I’ll never actually figure out how these sites work, Martha appeared as a “suggest...


January 09, 2020

Nothing New in Reconstruction

I know this is nothing new. I’m back to repeating myself and looping again. I hate that. Life shouldn’t be about passively having things happen to you. Life should be something you actively p...


January 08, 2020

Well... in Reconstruction

Well… things happened. Therapist had to cancel on me last night because she was sick. I’m not upset… everyone gets sick. But I’m disappointed because I really needed to talk to her about rippin...


I predicted last night fairly well all things being equal! I drove home and parked the car in the garage. Opened the door, walked down the hallway, opened the door into the kitchen. Nala was hap...


Good morning/good day to all. Weekend happened. It was… not one of my finer weekends. But at least I maintain my spotless record of lawfulness which cannot be said for a larger number of peopl...


In the 1990s, we were desperate to keep music and arts in schools. There were some successes but almost ALL of them have been erased since. Our teachers went on strike across the nation in the 10...


January 03, 2020

Fifteen Seconds in Reconstruction

Just a quick nothing entry for the day. Turns out, I’ll likely have a jury trial in approximately 11 days. But maybe I won’t. I don’t know yet. This is… the thing about The Law on my side of t...


December 31, 2019

The Jan 1 Entry in Reconstruction

Every year (or every year I remember to do it) I like to take one of the first days of the new year to recap my goals for last year and develop some goals for the coming year. Last Year: (1) I wa...


So, on Friday, I called in sick because I was in extreme pain. Monday, I called in sick because my head was quite literally overflowing with bloody mucus and that isn’t a great thing to fight th...


Today my depression and inner short comings won. Everyone I try to help at work? They were outweighed. I get attacked by the government I represent. I get attacked by the Defendants who refus...


This weekend has been mostly nothing. Sleeping, walking the dog, not much else. Saw the latest Star Wars. So long as I separate everything out into the appropriate Multi-Verse Theory, I didn’t...


(Written from my phone) Today, I am being a little bitch. But I would argue that it is justified! You see, I am using a sick day today. I don’t feel too bad about that since my boss and one of...


I hope everyone had an enjoyable December 25th! After Christmas Morning, Brunch, loads of eggnog, a nap, and dinner… Nala and I returned home. Nala was exhausted as she hadn’t slept all day and...


So far it has been… meh. Woke up at 7, saw that Martha had wrapped my gift to my niece in the middle of the night. I packed up the car, drove to my parents house. Went to do errands for two hou...


DISCLAIMER: What I am going to talk about is emotionally close to me. That being said, I may be defensive about it. I say that not to discourage notes but to alert you to the fact that when dis...


I imagine that the majority of what I write in here today could easily and with no loss to anyone be ignored or skipped. But my silence (or lack of excessive words, I guess) as to the historical...