Park Row Fallout ⋅ 35

Midwest Married Man; Attempting to find answers, traverse the waters of life, and figure things out.

Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.

Haruki Murakami

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Time is running out. After a hell of a week last week and a hell of a week in front of me, on Friday morning I woke up and decided “Nope.” Not going to be “awake.” So I slept through most of Fr...


Here’s something. So as you know I’ve been spending a lot of time neck-deep in the kind of truly awful shit that can destroy people. I am of course talking about Child Abuse, Child Neglect, Chil...


Well, sometimes things can go from Zero to One Hundred. My day got super busy. Phone calls, investigations, plea deals, trial dates, filing charges… very busy. And so there were some things I n...


I just read, don’t ask why, the BBC coverage of the Minnesota Trump Rally. The pressing question the BBC was investigating is how do Trump supporters feel about the impeachment issue? In a move...


October 14, 2019

Story Bah in Trying to Hold On

Bah. I can’t promise anything because whenever I have a genuine intent to express myself creatively, something happens and I’m prohibited from the very expression I was attempting. That being sa...


October 14, 2019

A Kettle of Fish in Trying to Hold On

Here’s a kettle of fish: Today is a rare, strange, and bizarre Monday for work. Typically, I would have Juvenile Court as last week there was no Juvenile Court and going more than two weeks betw...


October 11, 2019

Meme-splosion in Trying to Hold On

Because of how my day is right now… with positives but negatives; with good news to celebrate but the rapidly freezing weather causing my body pain… I figure it is time for a meme-splosion. Obvs...


October 11, 2019

Nice, Not, News in Trying to Hold On

SO: Some nice things? EDITED AT NOON Extra good thing? Wife just got back her first Chemistry test. Chemistry being the class she often spends hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and ...


October 09, 2019

Feeling Odd in Trying to Hold On

I feel odd. In need of connection, but not wanting to work toward it. For example, there are now weeks of unread bookmarks I have here in Prosebox and yet… I can’t concentrate to read any. I h...


This morning/last night… I had many dreams, all of which stayed with me, all of which were very vivid. Allow me to attempt to describe them: The dream started as one of my recurring dreams often...


When you’re both of these people


Nala Last Night: So it must be said that with my current schedule, it has been incredibly difficult to give Nala a walk. I leave the house at 7:30 and arrive home between 5 and 6. Play practice...


October 07, 2019

Political Meme in Trying to Hold On

So… Trump has just screamed (YET AGAIN) that he is too invested in his own businesses to care about America. Trump Tower Istanbul is more important than supporting the Kurds who have been instru...


October 07, 2019

In Brief in Trying to Hold On

Can’t go over everything that’s been going on; but I’ve been super busy. October is a big Jury Trial Month for me. I also have Couple’s Counseling monthly and Individual Therapy weekly. I have pl...


October 04, 2019

Just bitching in Trying to Hold On

Ugh. I have two days off from play practice every week. Friday and Saturday. I have two days off from work every week. Saturday and Sunday. But I have couple’s counseling tomorrow. And home-ca...



October 03, 2019

A Meme in Trying to Hold On

Yes, I’ve had this conversation. Multiple times. Honestly. I still don’t understand why a woman shorter than I would go to such great lengths to explain why she would “never date a man shorter...


Item One: I am a little worried that my boss and I are currently facing our first considerable approach differences. I know it won’t explode into a big argument but I do worry that it may cause ...


October 02, 2019

Painful Eye Roll in Trying to Hold On

New Iowa Law Issue: Apparently, the courts have now ruled Disorderly Conduct to be unconstitutional. Seriously. The court said “creating a distressing nuisance or annoyance is far too focused o...


October 01, 2019

Two Things in Trying to Hold On

There are really only two things that matter today. One of them won’t be part of my story until after the lunch hour. FIRST THING: I did get the part in the play that I expected to. The star ro...


September 30, 2019

Things in Trying to Hold On

(1) Life isn’t awesome. (2) This weekend’s professional communications make my week murky at best (3) The world is… messed up. (4) But I’m excited to meet the cast of the play tonight and see whi...


September 30, 2019

9/30/2019 in Trying to Hold On

I know I’m an adult now with adult responsibilities and adult concerns… but I miss the days when everyone would have their AIM or MSN Messenger open. I miss talking with people. I especially m...


September 27, 2019

Hypocrisy but Open in Trying to Hold On

Now, I’ll admit… I view pornography. If I did not… I think I would be a much different person. I can’t say exactly what kind of person. I might still be with my wife but be angrier, meaner, mo...


I was really depressed on Monday. I was really depressed on Wednesday. I wasn’t as depressed on Tuesday because I didn’t have TIME to be depressed as I had 8 hearings. But last night, I went to i...


September 25, 2019

My Dream Last Night in Trying to Hold On

No idea what this means but… I was sitting at a desk in a Des Moines Office Building. I was wearing a blue blanket over my business suit absolutely fucked up with the flu. I was shivering, fre...