bitter vegetable
i hate myself and now you can hate me too welcome to the show folks
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disappointment in urges
“plays with paints” “at least you passed” “fast and i’ll pay you” “thats for guys” “why is your hair like that” “those clothes make you look bigger” “dont worry” maybe you meant it in the best w...
do you ever have those moments when you realize nothing matters and we all exist in a universe that couldnt care less what happens? a human life is a tiny blip on the grand scale. i know that, it...
i know it stupid to feel like this, i know its a self-centered way of thinking, i know it wont change anything and yet here i fucking am, 11:08 pm wanting to hurt myself i dont trust that my mom ...
haha i really hate doctor’s appointments you go in thinking ‘oh its just gonna be a regular checkup probably wont even need to wear that stupid gown and let some creepy old man get near me’ and ...
life update/happy new years in random
first things first happy new years and such i mean time is a human construct so really there is no new year but whatever lol anyways on to the main event so i’m disgusting i’ve been purging a c...
welcome back (life update TW) in urges
i havent written in a while i forgot this site even existed honestly, but then shit happened and i remembered that this site was a thing that i could use to vent i’m so tired and overwhelmed my ...
birthday vent in random
so today was my birthday my family insisted that we go out to eat so we went to a little thai place nearby chicken pad thai and thai iced tea and cupcakes and key lime pie i overate today and i...
i’m sorry i’m so tired of trying i’m just done i cant pretend to be okay anymore i have suicidal thoughts every single day i see a train pass by and all i can think is how easy it would be i s...
life n stuff in random
do you ever get those days where it feels like theres literal tons of weight on your chest and no matter how hard you try you cant move or breathe or do anything that seems to be my everyday livi...
thoughts, so many thoughts in random
my thoughts recently have been random. my moods have been drastic and changing from minute to minute. i’ll feel fine and motivated and laughing and it seems like not even two minutes later i’m pl...
recent events in random
i was gonna write a lot but once i opened prosebox and selected new entry my brain blanked. i guess i’ll just give an update on life. my sister flew in from college a couple weeks ago. her girlf...
today’s been alright. its currently 1am i woke up at 4pm lol that seems to be my sleep schedule recently. i dont feel tired until like 5am and dont wake up until after 3pm i dont mind tho since ...
i’m sorry i’m exhausting i’m sorry i’m annoying i’m sorry i’m negative i’m sorry i’m useless i’m sorry i’m clumsy i’m sorry i’m lazy i’m sorry i’m fat i’m sorry i’m sad i’m sorry i’m an idiot ...
i’m such a needy piece of shit anyone who bothers to interact and be nice to me probably just pities me the thoughts got loud today i took a shower and brought a blade its not very sharp, i real...
i’m bad at replying to individual things cause actual conversations kinda freak me out no offense to anyone in particular but uh thanks to everyone whos been supportive n stuff idk its nice to kn...
so i texted 741-741 yesterday the urge to hurt myself or worse was overwhelming the person on the other end said i was brave and a fighter for texting in i disagreed i felt weak like i needed to...
i’ve talked to a therapist and psychiatrist about my issues. they seem to disagree a bit in that the psychiatrist is hesitant to say the little episodes of not being able to breathe n shit are pa...
my day’s been stressful. idk if its the new meds i’m on or just me being stupid but i’ve nearly cried over the stupidest things. i didnt have a bus ticket and i almost had a mental breakdown. my ...
1-800-273-8255 in surrender
I’ve felt like this for years. I can’t remember the first time the thought of being dead crossed my mind, but it’s been quite a while. Tonight, I’m contacting the National Suicide Hotline via onl...
why is everything always so loud my own heartbeat is too loud my family is too loud my head is too loud always reminding me of my own worthlessness i wish i could just stop existing that would b...
attention whore no one cares waste of space cant do anything right no please stop make it stop i need it to stop please just stop trying theres no point others have it worse whiny pathetic garba...
they are the voices telling me how to feel better how to forget about everything they dont care what the future affects may be or what will happen they only care about them and how they willbe i...
i want to scream i want to cry i want to yell i want to cuss someone out i want to hit things i want to punch someone’s face in i want to smash a window i want to kick a door down i want to brea...
blood and bleeding and pressure and why why why wont they stop why wont they shut up how do i make them stop please stop make it stop i need everything to stop theyre so loud everything its so l...
