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I’ve had a lot of conversations with people over the last week and it has really helped. I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to eventually tell Abby to back off a little bit. It is really ha...
The missing thread
I think I am able to put this into words. It has been too long. Like after a certain point my brain shuts off and I don’t understand the next steps. I shut off. I go into overdrive and convin...
I'd give you the news but nothings changed
How about we just jump right in, shall we? Friday after work I bought my last bit of stuff to get things ready before Tim got to my house. I showered and got ready and was all set by about 6. Ti...
We hang back, it's all in the timing
You know what pops the happy balloon? Habits. For some reason I decided to read some old entries from when I was dating randoms and when I was seeing Joey. Turns out I seem to write a lot of th...
We show off our different scarlet letters
Trust me mine is better. Hold the phone! You guys. Tim is coming over Friday. HERE to my house. ALONE! No Abby, no Matt, Just us. I invited him last Friday and he couldn’t and this Friday it w...
This is the last time I'm asking you why
I have to head out soon, but I felt the need to write quick. To be less vague :) I just got off the phone with my sister too which made me want to write more- I told her that I am happy. Like ha...
I'm finally clean.
Everyone seems really burnt out on Tswfit, but I am not one of them. The song “Clean” came on (again) the other day and it just hit me. I freaking love that song. It is me. Right now. I am lea...
What happens when she stops listening to Doomtree?!
As if. I know we are all on the edge of our seats waiting to hear how Friday went. But, before I get to that, I have to retrace a few feelings I have been having surrounding dating. I have spok...
Could you be any more vague?
I think I promised a vague entry, but this is the best I can do for right now! Easter was not as planned, my grandma went into the hospital, without going into the whole drama story, she is just ...
Don't leave me high
Well, it has come that time (again) where I am closing the chapter on online dating. For now. Seriously how to people do it for so long? Ex-hausting. But that doesn’t mean I am done dating. My n...
Can I get a witness, can I get a clue
There have been so many nights where I have wanted to write, but I would sit down at the keyboard and everything faded away. I don’t care if this makes sense or not, but I need to file it out of...
Oh, hey.
A little over a month, huh? Funny how much has changed… Sunday was my last day at P46. I know, right? I have been unhappy there for awhile. Making no money, working shit hours, and doing more an...
Accept me.
These couple of weeks. I don’t even know the right word to explain it. I have been thinking about him, about the pain he must have been in, about all of the people that didn’t see it. About the...
Adulthood
I have been thinking a lot about being an adult. Actually, let me rephrase that- I have been thinking about when you were younger and your parents would say something along the lines of, “time g...
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I don’t even know what to title this entry. I don’t even know how to start it or where I want it to go. I have had zero contact with Josh since May. None. Have I wanted to text? Have I wanted ...
Think love think drugs and they're the same things
we struggle or get enough I wanted to title this entry “inner circle”. But that lyric won’t stop bouncing around in my head. I am sure everyone’s work place is like this but holy hell. Sometimes...
Pour me another
So my obsession with Doomtree… Once upon a time I dated this guy for like 4 years. ha But he liked Doomtree. He would listen to it in my car all of the time. I quietly let the lyrics bounce arou...
You never can take the fight out the fish
I feel like I have been doing nothing but writing about the same shit. Last Friday when I was supposed to go out with, ‘yet another guy I was excited about’, he texted me a few hours before we w...
Because dice kept cooped up Just bring bad luck
I have been staring at this page for too long. I feel like I have some explaining to do, but I don’t want to. I feel like if I write it down in here then it is final. Then it is known. I am tire...
Getting out of relationships suck for many reasons. I, myself, think that the reason I stayed with Josh for so long was because I didn't want to lose the comfort. The feeling of losing someone wh...
And just like magic-you're all in one piece again
I know that I will come back to this entry and add to it. But. Oy. That and an over dramatic sigh. Since I should really be in bed right now, that is all I got for the moment.
It's not much but my money's on you
Slept a little better this morning, weird :). I woke up and instead of dinking around for awhile, I just went on a run right away. I got home and was just sitting on the couch and my phone rings...
And the climb begins
I think my last entry was my "low" with dating. My rock bottom. That's how frustrated I was. Then I decided to put on a better face and start being a little more active/aggressive. So on Saturday...
Ok plan B just panic
This dating stuff is starting to drag me down. It is leading my mind to wander to places that it shouldn't. To make me miss people I shouldn't. To make me think of places I shouldn't. Basically m...
Aint it fun?
Dating when you are older is different. (That makes me sound like I did a lot when I was younger) All of the sudden you have to like, schedule things. Life becomes more that just a walk up the d...
Book Description
I am going to look at OD shutting down as a positive for me. As I was going back and saving over 12 years of entries, I obviously went back and read them all. So, I have decided that starting over is the best thing. I will not be posting any of my old stuff in this new site. Trust me, you aren’t missing anything. If something is important, I will fill in as needed.
I am really happy to see a lot of OD people on here, and I look forward to reading from you all.
