It's not much but my money's on you in A new beginnging.

Slept a little better this morning, weird :). I woke up and instead of dinking around for awhile, I just went on a run right away. I got home and was just sitting on the couch and my phone rings: Kevin. It was a nice little surprise. Who calls anyone these days?! So we talked and goofed around for a little while, and then we made some plans for lunch tomorrow.

I want to write more about this, but my brother came home for lunch and we were talking, I told him about tomorrow and he said something joking about, "joey all over again"

Joey took me by complete surprise last year. He woke me up from a non dating funk and made me feel like I could be myself with someone, and that I could have that connection again. Things moved quickly with Joey, and future plans were made but never happened. Not uncommon. Right before we met, he moved about 4 hours away, it was kind of doomed from the start, but neither of us wanted to see it, we wanted to believe it wasn't a challenge. But in the end, I think he decided to give things with his ex another shot, I am not totally sure.

So is this similar? The only reason I can see the truth in that is the excitement I am having about Kevin. The way we talk like we have known each other for a long time, that I am comfortable being my dorky self. Seriously, everyone likes to say they are, "dorky and sarcastic" but then when it comes down to it, they are not that at all, which is fine, but that is me to a T. And we kissed. I felt that jolt. After Josh, I talked a lot to my sister about being afraid that I wouldn't find anyone who I would be that comfortable with again. Obviously, this is silly. I was with Josh for a long time, and that of course will happen again. I'm not a short-term girl. But whatever happens with WHO-ever it happens with, I just need to keep my feet on the ground. Looks like I am doing a super good job given these entries..ha. ha.

But, you know me. I have never been someone who can hold in excitement.

I think my point of this entry is that it isn't 'like Joey'. It's just when I feel that spark, my heart goes right down to my sleeve. I just haven't had a lot of people make that happen, and when it does I like to record it in OD, or I guess now PB so if something DOES come out of it, I have the beginning.

When I went out on my 2nd date with Nate, it was still very much unknown and just not easy flowing. Don't get me wrong it doesn't always have to be that way between people (I don't think?), but I know that tomorrow is going to be fun. I know we are going to laugh and talk a lot and get to know each other more. I also know that we are going to kiss again, and that will be just as great.

Maybe I should just make these kind of entries private until things escalate to a certain point, that way I can avoid the "it didn't work out" entry in the future ;)