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Fat
I want to eat everything in sight today. Bad bad combo of hangover and period. I’m making a pretty big dent on everything we have in the house. Even the chocolates that have been sat there since ...
More questions than answers
So I had my blood test. It was for a repeat prolactin, apparently it came back ‘slightly elevated’. I didn’t get a good look at the exact numbers, although I wish I had. Raised prolactin could b...
On and on....
And so it begins. Had my blood tests on Saturday, as directed. Received a letter yesterday to say I need some repeating. Would be helpful if I could remember what she’d even ordered for me! I kno...
Pondering
We had our meeting with the fertility specialist nurse yesterday. Basically a million questions about our health, a lot of invasive questions about our sex life, and lining up a load of tests. I ...
The waiting game
So Joey did his thing on Wednesday. Said it was fine. Although he did just have to go to the men’s toilets in the reception of the hospital. I think down the line this might be something I have t...
Hot Date
Firstly, I can’t even. One of my patients looked at me today and said to me today ‘ooh are congratulations in order?’ to which I responded, ‘no, no, just the usual Christmas overindulgence’, thin...
Worries
There are many things that are worrying me right now. Joey and I decided to go ahead and ask to be referred for an appointment with a fertility specialist. Ultimately, my brother is no closer to ...
Insomnia
I’m working my last night shift for a while. I’ve been on nights for the last month, and I’m so ready for them to be done. I usually sleep a little on my break because I sleep horribly in the da...
Gotta start somewhere
Joey and I have been indecisive about when to visit our docs to be referred to our local hospital for fertility treatment. Way back last April we had said we’d give it until new year (i.e now), t...
Broken record
I feel like a broken record, going over and over the same worries in my mind. I think I had managed to put them to the back burner with thinking we might go to Australia in the summer and put of...
Nobody said it was easy
It was bound to happen, it’s come as by surprise, but I totally underestimated how it would make me feel. One of my work besties is pregnant. She went for her 12 week scan yesterday and found ou...
Survey says
Not pregnant. I figure I’ll see what happens over the next week, take another test if no period appears, then if that’s negative consult my doctor. I’ve been having some very light cramping the ...
10 days
I’m 10 days late. Off to buy a test. Feel sick at the prospect of the outcome, we both so desperately want this. Xx
Late
My period is late. By like a week. I took a test in work today, which was negative as expected. What I didn’t expect was how I would feel about it. I’ve been regular as clockwork since I had my ...
Vivid
You guys, I had the most vivid dream about being pregnant last night. Down to what I was wearing and everything, conversations I was having. And to be honest, I woke up with tears in my eyes. It...
Life
I’m in bed. Actually, we’re in bed. Joey is next to me snoring his head off. And I look at him, and I think, I couldn’t imagine spending my life without you. I don’t think I’ve ever seriously co...
As things stand
As usual, when things are going well, I never seem to find time to write about it! Following on from my last entry about joey, things have been good. He’s barely been drinking in the week, the o...
Frustrated
I don’t know if joey doesn’t know what ivf fully involves, whether he thinks it’s a walk in the park, but honest to god I am starting to get so frustrated and a little resentful that he could ask...
Control freak
I’m struggling with the whole lack of control in this baby making situation. If I could take joey’s sperm out of his body and look after it properly I’d be like a billion times happier. The drin...
Progress
Since I last wrote, things have improved dramatically. I haven’t made any comment to joey other than what I’d written about in the last entry, and have pretty much left him to his own devices dri...
Under discussion
So basically I told joey that I think he has a problem with alcohol, and it didn’t go down well. Obviously, how many people who have problems but don’t care to admit or address it thank someone f...
Heartbroken
Do you ever feel like you’re never going to get what you want? This, all this trying to conceive stuff, should be a two way Street right? The decision was ours together, and he professes to want...
Biology
So I downloaded a fertility tracker app. To be honest, I went on the pill when I was 18 and had my first serious boyfriend - always have been ridiculously responsible! Since then, I was on the p...
Number crunching
So since joey told me about his low sperm count, I’ve asked him what exactly his count is, what the implications of it are in terms of chances of conceiving etc. He’s always told me he can’t exac...
A little bit of everything so far
So joey and I decided we want to start trying for a baby. I haven’t written in so long I don’t even know what was going on last time I did. We’ve been together for a year, living together for si...
