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September 07, 2018

Sad day in Finding Me

Yesterday my family and I had to say goodbye to our 17 year old cat Spooky. We are hurting. Today I’m at work for 10 hours. This week has been full of obstacles. I just want to lay in bed for the...

July 31, 2018

Colliding Battles in Finding Me

Yesterday morning after I showered I noticed my body was covered in bruises. It wasn’t until then that I was able to connect the dots. Due to what I’m about to explain in this entry, I feel it’s ...

June 26, 2018

Where I’ve Been in Finding Me

I don’t even know how to start this so I’m just going to dive right in. I’ve been so busy physically and mentally. Maintenance kept having to be done to the apartment so my cat had to keep stayin...

June 18, 2018

Happy Pride Month in Finding Me

I am asexual/biromantic This is me, at 25, coming out for the first time ever. Wowzas Also I dyed my hair a cool ass black to purple ombré and I’m 5 days cigarette free! I love you guys <3

December 20, 2017

Things Are Difficult in Finding Me

I went to write this entry and a wave hit me like a ton of bricks. I knew I was feeling the beginning of it but woah it really slammed down. Feels like my head is so heavy. Those few weeks withou...

December 09, 2017

Just Another Daily Entry in Finding Me

Fell asleep at Sam’s house last night. Back at her house again tonight. We (well okay, she) just made tacos. Usually I watch while she cooks cuz she’s definitely a better cook and I always end up...

December 08, 2017

Liking These Good Days in Finding Me

Today was good with only one mishap! First half of work went by smoothly. Not too busy not too slow. Got sushi with the best friend during my lunch! Second half went the same way. Got out an hour...

December 06, 2017

Easy Day in Finding Me

Today went well. Didn’t have much prep to do when I went into work, which usually never happens. So that started off my day nicely. It was a slow day, but went by quickly. It was so slow, I got o...

December 06, 2017

Handle With Care in Finding Me

‘I was afraid of you when I first met you’ Genuinely, I’m probably one of the nicest people you’ll meet, but I put up this cold front with anyone new or when things go wrong. Like I don’t care at...

December 05, 2017

About Me in Finding Me

I have had such a hard time figuring out what I want to write about today. My day hasn’t been super eventful, but I’ve promised myself I would make an entry everyday. It’s also the only advice I’...

December 04, 2017

Therapy Sucked in Finding Me

I can’t open my goddamn mouth for the life of me. It’s pisses me off and makes me feel so stupid. I’m so scared I’ll be this way forever because it’s so hard for me to just SPEAK. Now I have to w...

December 04, 2017

:) in Finding Me

It’s almost 4 am and I’m listening to my best friend play her guitar while her cat is giving me so much lovin. Today is good :)

December 03, 2017

Today Was Okay in Finding Me

I am going to do this entry a little differently. I feel like I have a lot to say but I’ll forget it all tonight. 11:30 am- I’m sitting out back of my work smoking a cigarette trying my best to m...

December 02, 2017

Up and Down in Finding Me

Late last night I cried to the one person I probably shouldn’t have. But he listened. I cried and said way too much. It was either that or disappear. I woke up feeling a little better. However I’...

December 01, 2017

Idk in Finding Me

Today was gonna be a good entry. Today I got off work early, I was okay. Now I’m sitting here trying to eat my stupid beef taco salad and crying my eyes out in a meijer parking lot. Everything hi...

I made a similar entry earlier but I deleted it because I wanted to add more. My last therapy session answered a huge question for me. After doing my research and reading others’ stories, I’ve n...

November 29, 2017

Red in Finding Me

One double down, four more to go. Work was okay, pretty slow. It’ll be this way for a couple weeks before we get hit hard due to the holidays. Then it’ll completely die after New Years for about ...

November 28, 2017

Back To Reality in Finding Me

Tomorrow begins another work week after 3 days off. My usual weekends are monday’s and tuesday’s, but I had sunday off as well due to a wedding. I work doubles five days a week. I’ve been working...

November 27, 2017

I don’t know in Finding Me

I wish I felt like I did last night. Motivated, inspired, OKAY. I’m always so vulnerable after my therapy appointments. We talked a lot about suicide and childhood. I left feeling very self destr...

November 27, 2017

Metanoia in Finding Me

I spent way too much time figuring out a username for myself. From anonymity to truth. From me, to who I want to be. I don’t know why it matters so much, but it does. Metanoia; in short, to chang...

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