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Tonight, I feel more alone than I have in a while and I know it’s mostly my fault. To get to where I am today, I had to become a whole new person. I continue to build these relationships with p...

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Yesterday my family and I had to say goodbye to our 17 year old cat Spooky. We are hurting. Today I’m at work for 10 hours. This week has been full of obstacles. I just want to lay in bed for the...

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Yesterday morning after I showered I noticed my body was covered in bruises. It wasn’t until then that I was able to connect the dots. Due to what I’m about to explain in this entry, I feel it’s ...

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I don’t even know how to start this so I’m just going to dive right in. I’ve been so busy physically and mentally. Maintenance kept having to be done to the apartment so my cat had to keep stayin...

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I am asexual/biromantic This is me, at 25, coming out for the first time ever. Wowzas Also I dyed my hair a cool ass black to purple ombré and I’m 5 days cigarette free! I love you guys <3

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I went to write this entry and a wave hit me like a ton of bricks. I knew I was feeling the beginning of it but woah it really slammed down. Feels like my head is so heavy. Those few weeks withou...

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Fell asleep at Sam’s house last night. Back at her house again tonight. We (well okay, she) just made tacos. Usually I watch while she cooks cuz she’s definitely a better cook and I always end up...

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Today was good with only one mishap! First half of work went by smoothly. Not too busy not too slow. Got sushi with the best friend during my lunch! Second half went the same way. Got out an hour...

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Today went well. Didn’t have much prep to do when I went into work, which usually never happens. So that started off my day nicely. It was a slow day, but went by quickly. It was so slow, I got o...

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‘I was afraid of you when I first met you’ Genuinely, I’m probably one of the nicest people you’ll meet, but I put up this cold front with anyone new or when things go wrong. Like I don’t care at...

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I have had such a hard time figuring out what I want to write about today. My day hasn’t been super eventful, but I’ve promised myself I would make an entry everyday. It’s also the only advice I’...

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I can’t open my goddamn mouth for the life of me. It’s pisses me off and makes me feel so stupid. I’m so scared I’ll be this way forever because it’s so hard for me to just SPEAK. Now I have to w...

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It’s almost 4 am and I’m listening to my best friend play her guitar while her cat is giving me so much lovin. Today is good :)

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I am going to do this entry a little differently. I feel like I have a lot to say but I’ll forget it all tonight. 11:30 am- I’m sitting out back of my work smoking a cigarette trying my best to m...

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Late last night I cried to the one person I probably shouldn’t have. But he listened. I cried and said way too much. It was either that or disappear. I woke up feeling a little better. However I’...

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Today was gonna be a good entry. Today I got off work early, I was okay. Now I’m sitting here trying to eat my stupid beef taco salad and crying my eyes out in a meijer parking lot. Everything hi...

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I made a similar entry earlier but I deleted it because I wanted to add more. My last therapy session answered a huge question for me. After doing my research and reading others’ stories, I’ve n...

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One double down, four more to go. Work was okay, pretty slow. It’ll be this way for a couple weeks before we get hit hard due to the holidays. Then it’ll completely die after New Years for about ...

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Tomorrow begins another work week after 3 days off. My usual weekends are monday’s and tuesday’s, but I had sunday off as well due to a wedding. I work doubles five days a week. I’ve been working...

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I wish I felt like I did last night. Motivated, inspired, OKAY. I’m always so vulnerable after my therapy appointments. We talked a lot about suicide and childhood. I left feeling very self destr...

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I spent way too much time figuring out a username for myself. From anonymity to truth. From me, to who I want to be. I don’t know why it matters so much, but it does. Metanoia; in short, to chang...

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