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I guess I wasn’t invited after all…
I hope they are different.
I hope they are real.
I should know better.
Memories burn in my soul.
An eternal fire that never dulls.
A burrow in my heart
Like a huge scar
That I cover with a sticker
See? I’m great!
But the scar never fades
The coals neve...
I convinced myself to log on and write. Ivr been meaning too for a while I just never get to the writing part. Been having a rough time. My therapist thinks I might have ptsd.
I was going to writ...
Why do I keep holding onto hope that someday, somehow we will be together? Why does it feel like we were meant to be? That’s clearly bogus. If I could just convince myself the whole thing is craz...
Everyday is grey. It’s difficult to motivate myself to do anything. I have a million projects to work on and I finally have some time. Instead I’ve been playing games on my computer. I should tak...
Usually when I lose my job I am sad for a day. I am usually anxious about finding a new job. I worry about paying the bills because that was what my job was. It was a paycheck. But then after I’v...
I’ve all but given up on diet and exercise. I forgot my medicine today and spent the day praying I wouldn’t sunk from the anxiety and depression. Work has become very stressful with the lack of a...
But it seems like today I did everything wrong. Or maybe someone just decided it was all my fault. Maybe the truth is somewhere in between the two. They took away the only day I work with my frie...
I guess I lost my pin at the show the other night. The one with Austin on it. I shouldn’t have worn it out. :(
I love my job but on fridays the tension builds in my muscles until I feel I could explode. Currently hiding in my car for lunch, hoping the rest of the day sails by fast. How strange is it that ...
You are like a drug that I always need more of.
Did an abdominal work out. Feel like I’m doing. I might puke. I didn’t even finish the darn thing. This is much more difficult than anticipated. Owwww!
Talk to me.
I miss your voice.
The anxiety and stress is really eating at me today for some reason.
I made a mistake.
I let myself hope.
I forced myself to dream.
I saw a life with a guy like you.
In the woods, laughing having fun.
The dog, the kids, the adventure.
I let myself get comfortable ...
I need a vacation. I’m not much of a Cinderella but lately I find myself fantasizing about a mysterious man swooping me off my feet and taking me to the country or the beach or some new exotic lo...
My rain is lieing to me again. It does that. This time it is trying to convince me that everyone in the world is uncomfortable with me. People are all avoiding me it says. It surely must have bee...
A list of quests:
Teach me how to make math fun.
Give me an article to read with some good advice for my life.
Drop me a video of some local rock.
Show me a picture from your world.
Write me a ve...
Do you understand how important you are to me?
Do you get it?
Do you know that I tell you things I couldn’t tell my family?
Do you understand that your words mean the world to me?
Do you know tha...
Ever watched yourself slowly go insane?
Please pray for me. It’s just starting to be too much. I can’t shake it off when people are...
Am I okay?
Seeing double meanings behind everything. Ahhh brain… It’s sleeping time.
Please please sleep!
I felt horrible so I went to have a beer and hear you sing. I feel better now. I was glad you were nice to me even though I’m sure you didn’t really want me there.
Impressions: You want me to kee...
I didn’t go to the prayer meeting today. I got too anxious about it being a new thing. What if they expected me to pray out loud? What if they were trying to pray for only the one thing? I just c...
So what’s a guy got to do to date the Phoenix anyway?
Well… We aren’t currently accepting applications but you are welcome to leave a resume on file.
The position of potential future husband invo...