It Hurts Again in Phoenix Rises Again

I wonder how she would react if she found out you asked for my hand in marriage while you were dating her?
Just a tease.
Get a girl’s hopes up.
Then I had to watch you propose to her. With the ring I wanted. The way I dreamed it might happen. Perfect and every way.
She hated it.
Selfish snob.

All I want is for you to not be gone.
My heart breaks.
Everyday.
My head hurts.
Everyday.
I miss you.
Everyday.
I hope you are still happy.

Maybe next time I see you I’ll be in a better place.
Or maybe I won’t make it to that place, because I’m stuck missing you.
Everyday.
Goodnight Jay.
Wish you were here.