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Dad died on Sunday. We buried him on Thursday. Today on Saturday i went from moms house. I started crying from her house listening to Christmas music i realized this first Christmas without dad i...


Before my dads death on the 9th of December I visited dad and we had a conversation. He told me he made several mistakes he grew to regret in his life. He regret kicking me and my brother out. 10...


Tomorrow i bury my dad i been regretting tomorrow. Dad told me if anything happens find a way to live on the property take care of mom. I answered a facebook ad for a guy giving a mobile home awa...


Dads funeral is Thursday. Years before his death we has a falling out and he kicked me out of my house. We barely talked a few months. I walked in one day when he told me to leave he had no child...


I stayed up all night. While mom was sleeping i text the suicide and crisis hotline. I talked to them about dad dying yesterday. I talked to them about how much i miss dad how lost i feel. How mu...


My dad died today. He died of a heart attack. Mom called me to tell me i needed to come see him. The roads were so bad took me an hour to get to the hospital. I stood there while the family visit...


Some days my mental health is better other days worse. On my suicidal days i remind myself of all the things i need to do instead commit suicide. If i do not accomplish all my goals i keep adding...


You know if i just kicked out the people who been saying all the negative things in my head and used that energy to better my life i think i would be close to invincible. All these years i have b...


I have laryngitis. Everyone teasing me my boss has been calling me squeaky. While i was helping him and new girl Brittany in pets section he following me around squeaking a dog toy. My throat hur...


So Ross is Tella’s friend i never met him till tonight but i still protected him from Krista’s lies. Krista told my best friend Mandy she is pregnant with Ross baby. I called Tella asked her if R...


I went to my friend Sonnets house after work with chicken nuggets the movie I Feel Pretty. I bought her a pair of sweatpants and a tank top that say flawless on them and got her a mermaid bag. Sh...


After months Talan ignoring me he started bringing my breakfast in bed.Cuddling with me, start taking me on dates. I sat confused when he ask if there is anything i like him to buy for me. Most o...


When i was 20 my cousin David with an incest fantasy tried to take my virginity. He found out with a butcher knife from his kitchen that if he touched me he would die! He backed down after i thre...


I went shopping with my mom today. She said she wanted me to help her pick Talan some presents for Christmas. I in exchange help her pick presents for Dad at Harbor Freight. I hope they like thei...


Only think i like about pms is i get a vacation from my husband pressuring me to have sex. I like being able lay around in comfy bed munching on chocolate and snacks. I love wearing fuzzy warm pa...


I hate Christmas shopping. Every year i buy presents no one is ever happy. I spend money. I need for bills on these people. Today after working 7 to 4:15 i was asked for a favor by Kuhn. I needed...


Happy Thanksgiving. Hope everyone has fun for me. I will be running register at Dollar General 7 am-3 pm. I was hoping to spend time with friends and family but i was called in. It isnt like i ne...


My mom and mother in law Dee are both on keto diet. They have lost a lot of weight. For Christmas i think i am going to buy keto snacks and put them in their stockings. I hope they appreciate sna...


My boss Josh as of tomorrow is giving my keys to be key holder to inform me if i learn the register better he intends to promote me to manager in 2 months. I feel overwhelmed but he says he has f...


I layed down went to sleep to hear a tapping noise in the house. I was afraid someone broke in the house Talan was at work. I got brave walked around the corner to discover Coal tapping the water...


Those of you who are placing Christmas lights/decorations in your yards, can you please avoid anything that has Red or Blue flashing lights together? Every time I come around the corner, I think ...


I have been depressed and sleeping a lot. After arguing with mom and Talan i decided it is time to have me time! I went to the mall at Hot Topic i bought a Harry Potter always ring set. Black rin...


I got called in on my day off to cover a girls shift. Casey couldnt make it in because she was in Charleston stuck in traffic due to a tractor trailer wrecking into a toll booth. I worked 9-6. T...


Last night when i brought my brother home from the hospital i tried to escape early but as always they delayed me. I stayed until frozen rain covered everything. I tried to go get into my house b...


I bought a high waisted bikini thinking i was beautiful. It is black beige polka dot high waisted bikini with a very supportive bra that is a push up. I thought with some weight loss i could wea...


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