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My house was daddy’s house and it was back in Texas. It was Father’s Day, imand I wasn’t taking it very well, lots of tears, his passing was hitting me particularly hard. I was just kinda wander...

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A bit more literally than usual. It's been uncommonly hot here the last few days, and given my work truck doesn't have aircon, I've been royally roasted. Got back to the office yesterday and H t...

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More so in myself. I’ve stayed here too long. I know I’ve been saying that for… well… years, at this point. I’ve been saying I want to move away and always had a plan, but have yet to act on i...

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Well… It is tomorrow. I’m feeling significantly better than a week ago, but I still don’t wanna go back to work. Depression is just having a good ole time kicking my ass. It’s to the point I’m...

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Been working on long hair for too long. I just felt strongly compelled to shave it all off, no idea why I shaved it all off. No idea why. Now I wanna be sick. No idea why. What the hell is ...

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So I woke up Saturday with my head feeling like a bowling ball and having intermittent coughing fits. Fan effing tastic. Did the normal “kill it with fire” for the weekend - lots of water/Gatora...

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Woke up this morning to find out one of my long time friends has passed away. It’s just completely knocked me for a loop. He was a great guy, and a great friend. He will most definitely be misse...

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It’s been a while. I know. But I’m back to needing a place to shout into the void, that no one around me can hear. I dunno what’s worse, my mind, or my damn heart. So where to pick up? Cat is f...

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Feel like I gave Rosie O’Donnell a piggy back ride, then she sat on my lap for 3 hours. It’s not good, I tell ya! So this has been going on for 2 weeks, and in that time I’ve been switched to Abi...

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So I was with BL, and we were at some sort of small aircraft storage facility, but it wasn’t hangars. These were like big warehouses. We weren’t talking much, I just knew we were looking for her ...

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Weeelllllll shit. That didn’t last long. So the girl I was talking to on a dating site went from being all enthusiastic about meeting me and all into me just suddenly decided I wasn’t what she wa...

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Well, here’s to the last day of being 40. So I’m on Abilify now. I’m not sure what to make of it yet. It’s gotten me a little more up and around, but like everything else, it’s affecting my slee...

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I have no idea where we were, or who she really was, but I was with my ex-fiancee, and she was being very weird. I don’t recognize the girl I saw, but in the dream, I knew she was XF. There were ...

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So as I’ve said before, I want to change my name. At first, it was simple, and common. My family name was going to be something Irish. But I dragged my ass and dragged my ass and it never happene...

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I was back home, although it didn’t look like home, and I was working (when am I not) at various houses I remember, but don’t know why. It was my business, and on this day, I was doing a lot of m...

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I was out in a rural area by G’s house, when I started having car trouble. I’m not sure what it was, as I just remember getting a check engine light, saying “well shit”, then just being in G’s li...

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I’ve been having a good time of it. Not really. And the heat isn’t helping my mood. I’ve had no motivation to do much of anything. Oh, I’ve had the desire to do things. Just, no motivation. I wa...

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Well.. I really did it to myself this week. Monday, I bit off a little more than I could chew, when I picked up an emergency call with an already tight schedule. It took me longer than I expected...

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Well, I survived the 4-Jul. Thank god for my Bose QC35 headphones. Which I need new ear pads for. I forgot how long ago I bought those, but I remember them being expensive, but they are totally w...

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We’re in the middle of a massive heatwave in Seattle. It crossed 100F in town today, and got to high 90’s out where I am. Tomorrow, it’s expected to cross 110F in Seattle, and 106F out here. It’s...

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Well, we’re still slow at work. But, we’re starting to get more in from the factory, so that’s a plus. Over the weekend, I did have a couple dreams about BL, but they were oddly bland. Lots of ve...

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That’s how I feel here. Now it’s just getting worse. Language warning. Part of my moving plan requires the purchase of an enclosed trailer that I can put my car, motorcycle, and a few other thing...

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Well, with the yard work, at least. I spent the majority of my waking hours of my 3-day weekend on yard work. I have a bad habit of not doing crap in the yard over the winter, then when the weat...

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The factory is really screwing us up, and it’s making us run low on work. Last week, our semi came in, and literally had nothing for us on it. It was also the last week our normal driver was driv...

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I would have typed some of this yesterday, but my cable was out when I got home yesterday, and I ended up having to have a technician out to fix it. I’ll get to this. Tuesday didn’t go too bad, b...

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