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I’m sorry for updating like this. I have been so wound up recently, food is my only solace. I went to a grand opening with friends but I feel so gross. I ordered food and feel gross. A guy at sc...

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It’s been over a month since I’ve written. My mind has been a mess, my body feels weakened and fragile. I keep writing various fictional novels with a lot weighing on me. I don’t know how to writ...

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I haven’t been doing well. I’m working hard in school but I’m haunted by Joseph’s words. I don’t know how to act towards him now. I feel like some sort of unstable burden on him and everyone else...

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I felt immense guilt reading that. Honestly, I just felt myself lock my inner self in a box for the last time. Sharing emotions just hurts people. I’m not a good person and even the kindest of pe...

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I’m skipping school tomorrow. I read his comments about me. How I treated him like a animal, how I didn’t value him as a human being. I had no energy to cry, I have no doubts he’s correct. I kind...

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I’ve started my spring sophomore semester. It feels surreal because if everything had gone as planned I’d be graduating. But honestly I don’t mind it, I just need one more semester. I’ve liked t...

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Haven’t had much to write about. I’m still writing and my stories are doing well. But I feel, very uneasy. Just, been very stressful this month and I feel like there’s no point in talking about i...

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Hi, I apologize for disappearing so long. I’ve taken the reading manwha and manhua since Christmas eve and it really consumed me. Last night I meant to write but my mother screamed in my face for...

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I apologize for disappearing, I’ve been very sick for the past few weeks. The doctors are sending me a inhaler which is nice, my mom swears I have a lung infection. Idk. Finals are next week, I’m...

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When he said this I found it nice. Today was okay, I guess I shouldn’t refer to him as a animal anymore. Uh I guess I’ll call him JK since I’ve used J before for Joseph. JK is nice I guess. I f...

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Today was something. My brother humiliated me in public again. I don’t have any energy as I write this tonight. I feel so alone, so done with the world over school and family and struggles to get...

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I haven’t been updating or writing much due to school. I have been trying to keep my grades stable, I need to contact my professor about my family printer having no ink. My break starts soon and ...

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I passed out a few times and slammed my head into the ground the last time. My younger brother who I don’t mention alot due to his privacy and the fact when this diary started he was like 12/13, ...

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I just feel overwhelmed and I have no one else to talk to. I tried to make friends on campus, I tried to go to the movies and I’m flaked on again, I’m done trying. I just wish deep inside I just ...

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I’ve been gone for awhile. I honestly just didn’t have much to say. Classes are busy, I feel overwhelmed honestly and tired. So tired. I just hope maybe, I can have some time to make some friends...

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I got my period so my week was eh. Two of th guys I guess I talk to seem to have a thing for kidnapping. It’s very ironic to me with my brother’s parental kidnapping (I mention this in my 2018 e...

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Hey, I’ve been gone for nearly a month. I guess I should explain myself. I guess I’ve started sexting. I told myself that I needed to let go of Joseph and my pain. I needed to self destruct, I h...

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I started to feel really hopeless. So I asked the universe to send me a sign of some kind. I will play around with my tarot tomorrow to ask for guidance. Something. I don’t know if I will stop ha...

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I don’t like the military all that much. I find the whole ROTC and the way the military pushes itself onto highschoolers very brainwashy. Recently a book adaption came out and as I love books I w...

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I don’t want to be attracted to any gender anymore. I just want to be sage. I talked to my friend and he said I couldn’t think that way. I understand but I just can’t do it again. I have extreme ...

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I’m really sleepy, I just wanna lay down all week. Everything feels uninteresting, unmotivating and blurry. I feel like the days go by in a wink. I talked to a friend yesterday,he’s nice. Really...

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Hi everyone, I have to make this quick. It’s very late and I feel a migraine coming on. I get those constantly now as mentioned before. It feels awful now. I got my hair done and my friend cancel...

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In a month I have university. It feels endless, like I’m in a endless cycle and honestly I’m really scared to start school. I’m scared I’ll fail again and not be able to graduate, I hate it. I t...

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The baby shower for my cousin is going to be soon. I need to hurry and order another gift for her, maybe some baby books as I planned. Overall, I’m kinda excited for her but also worried due to h...

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I don’t like talking to people for a reason. I felt hurt seeing others on a chat I’ve never been in insult me without even knowing who I am. I just, I don’t know. There’s that tiny version in me ...

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