HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 17

I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.

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November 05, 2020

Sadness in Journal 2020

I was on reddit and I saw a post about a article. A woman was angry about Christmas gifts she had gotten. She suffered from depression and ranted about everything she had gotten and how it had hu...

November 05, 2020

I hate everyone. in Journal 2020


October 31, 2020

I disappear in Journal 2020

I’m really tired while I right this on halloween night. It’s been boring and anxiety ridden but who cares. I just want to sleep peacefully without worry.

October 28, 2020

Hatred in Journal 2020

I have to keep hating them. I’ll never forgive them no matter how sorry they feel. I keep feeling like saying stop and forgiving them but I’m wrong. I just can’t. I hate them. I hate them so much...

October 27, 2020

Hide in Journal 2020

I just want to go away. I closed my eyes and drifted away. I felt my chest tighten and everything. I want to go away. I want to go away. I need to. I run away mentally and I just want to go.

October 26, 2020

Its been a while in Journal 2020

I just needed to vent for a bit. I randomly started crying and I don’t know why. I just feel sad, beat down, destroyed. I’ll probably do a long update soon with a summary of the past month and a ...

September 17, 2020

Explaining Myself. in Journal 2020

So, over the past months I would get private comments criticizing my actions. This would bother me a lot, but I tried to bury it down deep and try to push it aside. These things hurt, they hurt r...

September 05, 2020

Im gonna take a break in Journal 2020

I dont want to write anymore publicly, everyone probably thinks I’m dirty. I don’t like sex I never have. But everyone probably thinks reading this I’m some whore, so does Kelly probably. I don...

Is that what it looks like? I never thought that…everyone must find me so disgusting....

September 04, 2020

Scary in Journal 2020

My chest hurts really bad. I don’t want to have sex with Kelly. Or anyone. But then they’ll be upset, I’ve been crying nonstop and my chest hurts so much. I don’t want to lose it, the last pure p...

September 04, 2020

Blockage in Journal 2020

Day and night ut hurts. I am hurting and everyone ignores me, even Kelly. I feel worthlsss. I wish....idk…I’m just full of rage, sadness and rage. It hurts to breathe I’m so upset

September 02, 2020

Talking about mines in Journal 2020

They are my friends and I love them very much. Bunny is my bff, she’s smart and cute and I love to imagine myself holding her close. Boolie is very nice too! He’s in college and treats me well an...

August 30, 2020

Oh... in Journal 2020

I thought kelly message today…

August 29, 2020

Upset in Journal 2020

I feel bad I said something mean to Kelly, I just wanted to sound romantic and maybe idk attention. But they where scared and I felt bad…i feel bad…i started to cry a little bit a go but i covere...

August 28, 2020

The end? in Journal 2020

I have my bunny, miles with me. I feel tired…I wanted to talk to Kelly today but it’s okay, I’m not scared. I feel tired, mom’s making me sleep in her room as there’s possibly mold in mine and we...

August 25, 2020

02 in Dream Journal

Grim reaper

August 25, 2020

Dream 01 in Dream Journal

Both dreams where blurry but I had black hair and was with my dream family. Everything felt sort of nice, gonna sleep later with binary beats on.

August 25, 2020

... in Journal 2020

You think about it and it works out better than planned. When I give people the journal I hope , I think they will get it and it never happens. Sometimes I dont think they even read it or care ab...

August 25, 2020

And in Journal 2020

That high is down and I feel miserable again.

August 25, 2020

I finally did it in Journal 2020

I sent John the journals, these journals. I’ve wanted to for so long and I’ve been so angry at EVERYONE I can’t take it anymore. I sent him Journal 19, it’s honestly the worse. And this journal ...

August 24, 2020

Ugly in Journal 2020

Mom noticed the scars, I felt ugly. I…I don’t like my privates. It’s weird to describe but I just don’t like them. They are so…them. and I feel uncomfortable when yeah nvm.

August 23, 2020

Depressed in Journal 2020

I just feel depressed honestly About calin. About john. About ali. About July 16th 2019. Senior yeqr. Evrrythibg. I’m so str3ss3d

August 23, 2020

Growing up in Journal 2020

I talked to Lynxee today and I felt horrible with how I sounded. He said he would make more time for me but he shouldn’t and I feel awful. Really awful. He’s my friend and I depend on him too muc...

August 22, 2020

Lonely in Journal 2020

Lonely day of not feeling to well. Work work work. Did my first ever collab video and I am sooo happy with the results of it.

I’m upset. ANS was a kpop girl group that I love, I wasn’t in love with them or obsessed, I don’t even know all the members names. But they where talented and had some bangers and deserves better...

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