HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 17

I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.

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So, over the past months I would get private comments criticizing my actions. This would bother me a lot, but I tried to bury it down deep and try to push it aside. These things hurt, they hurt r...


September 04, 2020

Im gonna take a break in Journal 2020

I dont want to write anymore publicly, everyone probably thinks I’m dirty. I don’t like sex I never have. But everyone probably thinks reading this I’m some whore, so does Kelly probably. I don...


Is that what it looks like? I never thought that…everyone must find me so disgusting....


September 04, 2020

Scary in Journal 2020

My chest hurts really bad. I don’t want to have sex with Kelly. Or anyone. But then they’ll be upset, I’ve been crying nonstop and my chest hurts so much. I don’t want to lose it, the last pure p...


September 04, 2020

Blockage in Journal 2020

Day and night ut hurts. I am hurting and everyone ignores me, even Kelly. I feel worthlsss. I wish....idk…I’m just full of rage, sadness and rage. It hurts to breathe I’m so upset


September 01, 2020

Talking about mines in Journal 2020

They are my friends and I love them very much. Bunny is my bff, she’s smart and cute and I love to imagine myself holding her close. Boolie is very nice too! He’s in college and treats me well an...


August 30, 2020

Oh... in Journal 2020

I thought kelly message today…


August 29, 2020

Upset in Journal 2020

I feel bad I said something mean to Kelly, I just wanted to sound romantic and maybe idk attention. But they where scared and I felt bad…i feel bad…i started to cry a little bit a go but i covere...


August 28, 2020

The end? in Journal 2020

I have my bunny, miles with me. I feel tired…I wanted to talk to Kelly today but it’s okay, I’m not scared. I feel tired, mom’s making me sleep in her room as there’s possibly mold in mine and we...


August 25, 2020

02 in Dream Journal

Grim reaper


August 25, 2020

Dream 01 in Dream Journal

Both dreams where blurry but I had black hair and was with my dream family. Everything felt sort of nice, gonna sleep later with binary beats on.


August 24, 2020

... in Journal 2020

You think about it and it works out better than planned. When I give people the journal I hope , I think they will get it and it never happens. Sometimes I dont think they even read it or care ab...


August 24, 2020

And in Journal 2020

That high is down and I feel miserable again.


August 24, 2020

I finally did it in Journal 2020

I sent John the journals, these journals. I’ve wanted to for so long and I’ve been so angry at EVERYONE I can’t take it anymore. I sent him Journal 19, it’s honestly the worse. And this journal ...


August 24, 2020

Ugly in Journal 2020

Mom noticed the scars, I felt ugly. I…I don’t like my privates. It’s weird to describe but I just don’t like them. They are so…them. and I feel uncomfortable when yeah nvm.


August 23, 2020

Depressed in Journal 2020

I just feel depressed honestly About calin. About john. About ali. About July 16th 2019. Senior yeqr. Evrrythibg. I’m so str3ss3d


August 23, 2020

Growing up in Journal 2020

I talked to Lynxee today and I felt horrible with how I sounded. He said he would make more time for me but he shouldn’t and I feel awful. Really awful. He’s my friend and I depend on him too muc...


August 21, 2020

Lonely in Journal 2020

Lonely day of not feeling to well. Work work work. Did my first ever collab video and I am sooo happy with the results of it.


I’m upset. ANS was a kpop girl group that I love, I wasn’t in love with them or obsessed, I don’t even know all the members names. But they where talented and had some bangers and deserves better...


August 19, 2020

Bleh in Journal 2020

Another day of being ignored by friends. I don’t know why I even try, seriously I cause myself more harm then good. I just gotta continue with me i guess. I could honestly manifest more friends,...


August 18, 2020

:( in Journal 2020

Now their even sadder and it’s all my fault. I shouldnt have even said anything. I feel bad. And I feel the overwhelming feelings starting where it’s hard to talk and I just want to hide. I’m a b...


August 18, 2020

Stressed in Journal 2020

I cant sleep. I’m to wound up about my weight. I’m stressed about it. And I feel bad because my partner felt bad. But I feel ugly now and insecure. I talked to Jason and he was trying to cheer ...


August 18, 2020

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August 18, 2020

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August 18, 2020

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