HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 16

I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.

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1 day ago

K-12 in Personal Journal

That movie, that album is iconic and I shall forever cherish Melanie Martinez. I never really liked her music to the point of worship, only knowing/liking her songs Carousel and Dollhouse. Over t...

I can’t find any answers and I’m in tears at this point. Genophobia. It makes sense but it also doesn’t. Every article I found says it’s rape or culture pressure that causes it. I just don’t have...

He’s actively ignoring me now and I feel like crap. Every time, i get my hopes uo and I now I feel stupid I haven’t been able to write in here since I feel so.dumb about my entries I don’t even t...

Dear Alex, I regret agreeing to ever date you last spring. You seemed so strong, so defiant and so cute I couldn’t help but like you. I should have listened to all of our friends who told me it w...

So we talked and he revealed he’s been super stressed lately and needs time alone to clear his head. I started to cry a bit, because I just feel useless kinda if I can’t be someone he can to when...


7 days ago

The end. in Personal Journal

Goodnight, hopefully.

I don’t know what to do with all the pills. I think your supposed to flush them down the toilet when you don’t take them but have to hide the fact. I’ll do that I think. John said I didn’t have t...

It feels like he doesn’t. Like he doesn’t even love me anymore, they’re empty words to me. I can’t even feel anything in my heart anymore. It feels empty and dead now. He won’t text me for nearly...

September 09, 2019

Not special in Personal Journal

I feel so dumb, I just left the writing group as soon as I could. I found a review on one of my old works online and got super excited to see i was invited to a online writing group! I haven’t wr...

September 09, 2019

Disgust in Personal Journal

I feel like a horrible person. I want to die so badly I’m even fantasizing about it. I’m terrified of anyone find where I live on here and contacting my family. I’ll be punished and I can’t take ...

September 08, 2019

Dying in Personal Journal

I’m confused…but I’m okay. I had a dream that felt so real, a dream where I was about to try and overdoes again. I felt so happy in that dream, with two other people. It was like at that moment I...

September 08, 2019

Tired in Personal Journal

Another day of being tired.

September 07, 2019

Again I guess in Personal Journal

The world is kicking me in the gut again, to the point I’m getting anxious and nervous. My boyfriend seems so distant it’s weird. When we went about before I was never this anxious about our rela...

September 07, 2019

Sick Boyfriend in Personal Journal

Guess whose boyfriend is going to the doctor because he thinks he has a blood clot in his leg. .-. besides, that I’m doing midly better than before. I watched the Steven universe movie which was ...

September 06, 2019

Worried in Personal Journal

I’m kinda no I’m definitely worried about my waist. One of the bones in my hip I think is like wierd. I don’t know if I’m losing weight or what but it’s really visible to the point I thought it w...

September 05, 2019

Thank You in Personal Journal

Thank you all for your kind comments around these entries, especially the last one. I’m scared to tell anyone that I’m scared of having those urges. Because … It’s just scary, everything is terr...

September 05, 2019

Blehgg in Personal Journal

I’m better I guess, my boyfriend and i talked about how sexual things made me uncomfortable and he was fine with it. It felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders … But then it didn’t. B...

September 02, 2019

Boyfriend in Personal Journal

I think, he wants us to have sex when we meet up. And idk…I don’t want to, I hide my desired under lots of shame and disgust and hurt and hatred. Over my time gone i tried to…you know but that di...

August 22, 2019

Hi in Personal Journal

I’m okay

August 11, 2019

Thanks! in Personal Journal

I write a blog now for the online community/support group I run. It’s very cutesy and speaks really well to the person I am deep inside. If anyone knows any cute gifs that relate to comfort and m...

August 10, 2019

Return of the ex in Personal Journal

So my ex returned, after their ex cheated on them. They where heartbroken, turning my best friend for a relationship which enraged me. They confessed to my best friend, J after apologizing to me ...

August 10, 2019

Return in Personal Journal

So much has happened in the past week, no two weeks. One of those things is my ex who broke up with me right before I became active on here, came back right after being broken up with/being rejec...

August 07, 2019

Back in Personal Journal

I’m back and I feel kinda okay. I almost had a good entry and update but then I had to go and make myself upset, get self conscious, cry, get my friends worried about me and run off to hide in my...

August 04, 2019

Solved in Personal Journal

I feel kinda stupid. I got mad at him and basically told him to piss off. But who was I kidding myself, to think id be the first choice for a guy like him. I felt embarrassed and ashamed, I wante...

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