HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 18

I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.

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I don’t get why I always get such awful comments about how I want to treat my own body. It’s so random at times, it makes me feel sad and doubt myself but I remind myself that this is me and this...


I am mentally unstable but stably responsible. I guess sometimes I feel worried how ill be perceived through this diary. But sometimes I feel like it won’t matter. For now, I’m just focused on w...


4 days ago

Cold hearted in Journal 2022

Today was quiet. A page I’ve interacted with alot thanked me for being so nice to them. I felt, happy but also sad. Because am I really a nice person? Or just a pretender. Sometimes you find your...


I thought about something depressing, it’s sad and a bit fucked up. If I had a son I think I’d be scared and abort them. I would feel like I’d be a failure of a mother being scared of men and h...


It was nice to have one normal year in this chronicle of diaries. Today was calm, I watched some reactions to Euphoria. That was hard with headphones on and a phone nearby…note I never EVER put ...


I haven’t cut in years, that’s fucking crazy. It was 2021 I think I posted about it here and now I’m here missing it. I was gonna go out like a nutcase I suppose, with hundreds watching. It just ...


Lying my ass off in therapy, don’t know why she brought up a political issue during it. I’m so annoyed with that. My head is banging. I cried alot today, emotionally spent. Quite literally just g...


My friend “died” a few months ago. I felt bad but I never bothered to say anything on the post made about it. Death is only relative, it’s only temporary. We are in a world that’s temporary. But ...


January 17, 2022

Age Gap relationship? in Journal 2022

So. Joseph is into me. He knew I had a crush and I don’t know what our relationship is anymore. I felt sick but thrilled? And mistreated to the idea and then felt sicker and that I was going to p...


January 15, 2022

A world folding inward in Journal 2022

I feel like I’m dying. I keep seeing things, feeling things. I’m growing worried but I have to stay strong. In a dying world one must be reborn. Is this what rebirth is meant to feel like? Who kn...


January 14, 2022

damn DO i have BPD? in Journal 2022

This is something I’ve debated for awhile. I truly wish I had started started my diary earlier at age 15 so we could see if my theory is correct. I have pondered for awhile if I have BPD or some...


so…a lot has happened. wanted to write sooner but I’m rushing this computer will die soon! my college sent an email dismissing me, but I appealed. it was more so a threat but my advisor said I’m ...


At 21, the decision if I live or if I die will be made. this kinda hit me like a train at 16, 17 saying this felt like I had a century to choose. a century before college ended and I was basical...


December 28, 2021

Dec 28 2021 in Journal 2021

I’m gonna turn on Spotify pretty soon and listen to some of woo!ah!’s album but I was restless today, I needed to get an entry out. That fire to write has returned and honestly, I kind of have a ...


I found more from December of 2019 and others. It hurts and burns but I feel like it’s good to see this right now. I made progress since then but I’m still clearly I’m a broken person. Dear Rua Y...


December 27, 2021

Dear Me, From Past Me in Journal 2021

I wrote this December, 18th, 2019 and I felt so sad seeing all these old letters and notes I wrote to myself in pain, suffering, crying, dying inside due to abuse. Dear Will Your words showed me ...


December 25, 2021

kep1er in Journal 2021

Oh my goodness Kep1er my babies are about to dominate the kpop scene! Anyway, Merry Christmas or happy holidays to everyone. Guests are over so I can’t really leave my room so I’m bored typing aw...


December 24, 2021

exhuasted in Journal 2021

Almost time to start a new journal for 2022. It’s crazy how fast time has gone by and how much my life has changed. The collab on youtube for the secret Santa event was so much fun, it felt nice ...


December 23, 2021

Making mom a huge gift in Journal 2021

So I went to the store and bought more things for my moms huge gift. A small mini eyeshadow palette, a huge box of turdles, etc for mom. The biggest gift I’ve ever made and I got my brother some ...


December 23, 2021

Spiderman and Cheddars in Journal 2021

My friends and I went to see Spiderman no way home Monday. My best friend slept in so we went a few hours late and I was pissed because she’s been late alot recently, even to a our graduation pra...


Bruh water and Jamaican detangler spray with a detangler brush really is a lifesaver. My thick ponytail holders finally came along with my large blowdryer brush and my container to hold it all. I...


December 17, 2021

Struggling With MH in Journal 2021

Today was okay i guess. My mom screamed in my face but besides that it was okay. My old house (great grandparents) is a hoarders den. Bugs, mice, etc probably reside. It made me so uncomfortable…...


December 14, 2021

Oh my goodness in Journal 2021

I thought I wrote in November! Anyway, I’ve been meaning to update but school and just forgetfulness got me. Plus all I have to talk about is really just college, job hunting, therapy and writin...


October 16, 2021

Wonder in Journal 2021

It’s been a odd few weeks. College is like a blur. I feel tranfixed, overwhelmed and happy all at once. Exhauston is normal.


October 08, 2021

Freeze in Journal 2021

So, I’m erping with that friend I talked about and I’m enjoying it and I just froze. Idk how to respond to him and I feel embarrassed to say anything 😕


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