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I don’t have a date yet but that hardly matters because what I was worried about was that my insurance would deny me. I know that my insurance online says the cover this and the doc also said I w...

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So yesterday I took a half day cause me and Will finally had out last weigh in at the WLS office. They’ve always been pretty secretive about how much we should lose or not lose to get approved b...

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I knew after a night’s sleep it wouldn’t sting so much. And of course early in the morning I’m listening to my regular tarot readers and doing my own cards to get me out of this slump and the poi...

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Emma said I’m giant. Taking about my size. I know she’s an innocent child. And I completely rolled with it. Not at all letting her know anything was wrong. She didn’t mean to insult me. She ...

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mother fucking Will So WE COULD HAVE MADE TODAY’S APPOINTMENT So yes I’m the highest level of annoyed at his job but it just is what it fucking is - musta been a reason why we’re not supposed to ...

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I have got to remind myself that manifestation is not a wish being immediately granted. Manifestation is a not a magic word. People manifest for years. An overnight success is rarely an overnigh...

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So as you may know, when the holidays come Will’s work schedule gets busier. So that last weigh in date we had set up now has to be rescheduled for a later date. Disappointed doesn’t even cover...

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Just some good talks going on… First off - I think i mentioned a while ago that the admin from IL talked to us about being overwhelmed. Well finally the VP of philanthropy has found out so she ta...

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Not much going on over here. Saturday was pretty much a veg day. Sunday I did trap 2 kitties and then Will was home. We had breakfast together and then went to his parents house for a bbq. The...

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We all know my trainer doesn’t want me to get surgery. And yesterday she said that everyone who gets the surgery loses a massive amount of weight the first year when they physically can’t eat al...

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I am trying to mantra myself into loving my body. Seeing it as the light / soul / perfect body that it actually is and ignoring what it actually looks like. It’s going ok but still my period ende...

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This body that I see now is my earth body - but I am an immortal being in a temporary earth body right now. I have all the answers, my mind on earth is cloudy but that’s not the real me. I am he...

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A vlogger mentioned that anything we consider important in our lives is only important because we fear losing it. And fear of losing “it” pushes it away and then yes, you may lose it. If you’re ...

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Bear with me or skip this while I work this out. I’m doing so much research because I don’t want to resort to drugs on this but it’s a lot of what the research is about. What I think, and I cou...

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So I’ve def figured out that you can have PCOS symptoms while not having out of whack ovary cysts/follicles. But it doesn’t mean that couldn’t develop for me, it’s just not something I have now. ...

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I left out one PCOS symptom from the last entry that I’m incredibly embarrassed by but I gotta at least mention it at least in my diary. I’ve been growing chin hairs. No where near a real beard,...

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I definitely think i have it. I never really looked into it before and i don’t have all the symptoms, I have some: Im tired, I’m fat, I’m diabetic, no sex drive, mood swings (depression/ anxiety...

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I was cleaning the bathtub today and it was so freaking hard - plus I got damn doors instead of a shower curtain so that is annoying too but it’s just hard to bend and crouch and whatever else wi...

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So in a previous entry I was saying that getting praise from my job is not a good reason to work - and getting praise for a clean house is not a reason to clean your house LOL I don’t even know w...

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I’m always listening to different youtubers about all this spiritual stuff and one of them got me thinking about my self and self love and all that. Maybe me feeling that I don’t get enough outs...

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So last night I did not sleep well. I was feeling all over the place after my mom’s house. I was feeling guilty for being mad at Emma. Guilty for at all exuding any kind of annoyance at her aft...

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So me and the training had a talk yesterday about “good” carbs and “bad” carbs and yesterday was my first day eating “good carbs”. I show her my eating track sheet everyday so I sent her yesterda...

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I was watching this woman who basically says you can manifest anything you want if you believe it is possible even if you don’t believe it can happen. So for example she said she went to concert...

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I’ve actually been wanting to do a spread for a while so I’ve done the super traditional Celtic Cross. I didn’t have a specific question in mind - just inviting messages. 1 You Right Now - Knig...

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Yeap yesterday was my big doctor day. Not surgery day but this would let me and Will know if we were even healthy enough for it. The bloodwork we already had was ok besides us both having diabet...

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