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I went back to the entries from when I had the hand foot and mouth issue. I still look at my hands now and am amazed that they look normal. My hands and feet got swollen and full of itchy red b...

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I haven’t seen that movie since it first came out in theaters but I was up way too late last night and it came to be that I’m the “happy” emotion in the movie. And you might think that’s great b...

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I lied and told my sister that my job wanted some pastries from her and that they would pay. In reality I would pay - I’m not sure how I’m gonna make it look like they did it. I dunno it just c...

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I forgot to mention that I did find a peaceful place yesterday. I FINALLY remembered a park with a track and fountains to looks at - as well as ducks. I actually got lost finding it first and e...

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My sister and my fight with her - Will has also been a royal pain. It’s all to do with his damn medical stuff. But I always get chewed out for it. I feel so dumb. Like those dogs that always ru...

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So of course I’m sitting here not knowing what to do after my bad behavior in the previous entry so I go to my cards. Strength in Reverse. First impression to me is that I’m forcing something. ...

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Cause iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii don’t wanna work i just wanna bang on de drum all daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. It’s all rainy and gloomy. I was supposed to trap this weekend but the lady hasn’t confirmed with ...

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I was 277lbs? Well I gained 5 lbs since I ate all that rice over the weekend. I checked my weight today and I was 282. 3 days after I even had the rice overload so maybe I was even higher Monday...

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Yea, some how I passed that test LOL. I forget if I told anyone that or not. I snore like a freight train and Will was SO SURE I had it that I thought yea, I prob do. I even slept on my back ha...

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Part of me still feel guilty about going the surgery route for weight loss because it feels like “giving up” on myself. On a FB page a woman (who I think was 400 lbs) said that she wasn’t “givin...

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Sunday me and Will just lazed around. I really can’t remember what we did. I might of cleaned up a but and did some laundry but nothing big. Sunday he wanted to order out and I can proudly say I’...

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I was watching this weight loss doctor - duc vong md is his name - I remember now lol. He’s on FB and youtube. He’s the one I mentioned he said my name once in a video which made me sit up and co...

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Remember that dream i had a month ago right before I was told the balloons wouldn’t work and I needed to get the sleeve. ”… spiritual direction, awakening and discovery. The directions of the Com...

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nothing much going on. This week is a 4 day week cause I took Friday (tomorrow) off for my birthday weekend. Really I don’t care about doing anything for my birthday. I don’t hate it, I just ha...

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Turns out I get to throw the seafood out too. He said he and his sister requested that his mom basically just steam the seafood and they’ll eat it with butter. That’s how they like it. They req...

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So sad the weekend is over, but it was fun like always. I feel all mixed up about it though, like what came first? Um so Friday was a fun day. We celebrated father’s day with my father this past...

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I finally did my blood test today, but I won’t know the results until maybe Tuesday. I’m not super worried because I really don’t feel like I have it but it would make sense if I did. And if I ...

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He has diabetes. Not even kinda sorta pre diabetic. Full on diabetes. He’s got a script for pills and blood tester strips. He’s so down. And im kinda proud of myself. I really talked him thr...

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since I’ve written in here - but it’s only been a few days. I haven’t pulled cards in a few days either. Nothing against it all I just don’t have any questions right now. I feel like everything ...

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had your significant other call to bitch you out over shit you can do nothing about… yeap that was me at 7am this morning. So when Will got his yearly check up - earlier in spring - they said he...

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So I got the page of pentacles reversed. Usually a page means messaged but reversed could mean delays in messages. The books does say that and it also mentions resentment - which is right where ...

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The last time I slept with Will. I’ve hated my body and the effort for a long while. Not like i don’t like having sex with him it’s almost like exercise. I feel good after it’s over but most t...

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So my advice for today is the 6 of Pentacles. This one kinda came out on it’s side - not truly urpright or reverse so I’m not sure how to read it. It shows a person giving coins to what I presum...

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It shows a person walking away from a 8 cups stacked in two rows. It is a nighttime scene and the moon is watching him. 8 is mastery, like when I got the 8 of pentacles meaning mastery in crafts...

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Yes we are having a lunar eclipse in Sagittarius but also the Moon is today’s card. It looks like a wolf and a dog howling at the moon. Leaves blowing? A building or tower on each side of the mo...

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