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Makes sense
I haven’t wanted to write an updates lately because they would all be about Jess and me fighting. I told her a while back that I thought if things were going to get better between us, we would h...
Always
Things haven’t quite been back to normal, and I struggle with feelings of shame and blame knowing that my own extreme moodiness is what’s causing the problem. My relationship with Jess still exi...
Gender neutral
I haven’t written about this until now, but I made a commitment back in January to only use gender-neutral or unisex restrooms when I am out in public. It’s a decision I made in solidarity with ...
Back on
Jess and I got into such an argument last night that I cried uncontrollably, then locked myself in our bedroom. After about an hour of sitting in there sobbing, I packed a bag and walked out. I...
Room mates
So a weird thing happened. Jess and I moved. But there’s more to the story than that. Kevin had been living in a hotel since he separated with his wife. Needless to say, that gets expensive, s...
Fiancee
Things have been interesting. I think we still have a whole lot to learn and explore with making this relationship work exactly the way we’d like, but it’s been going more smoothly throughout th...
Ideas
We sat at a bar this afternoon and brainstormed these ideas. This entry will be a work-in-progress. Please let me know your thoughts. 1 Permission to be with other lovers is already given to bot...
In so long
Yesterday after work I was sitting at home waiting for Jess and feeling kind of sad. It had now been more than 3 weeks since we’ve had sex, by far the longest since we’ve started sleeping togeth...
Progress I guess
So our conversation last week was I’m sure just the first of many that we’ll have about how to make our relationship work. We didn’t come to any major new agreements and things are still weird b...
Not ready
For about the last year, Jessica has been babysitting after work. It’s a weird thing for her to do at her age. But this couple we are friends with, Kim and Kevin, have two young kids. They wer...
Pride
Jess and I went to Pride this weekend. It was our second time going together. Priot to last year, I didn’t give much thought to Pride and couldn’t even have told you when it was. Last year, Je...
Tomorrow
I’ve been bad about updating lately. Mostly because I started this account to write about my sexual exploits, and now that part of my life is in my history. In some ways I feel guilty about it ...
True
Valentine’s Day was lovely. I gave Jess a Tiffany diamond necklace that I’ll be paying for for the rest of 2016, and she asked me to move in with her. We skipped going out to a nice meal and ins...
Belt
I’ve never really thought of myself as a masculine girl. But Jessica brings it out in me. And now that I’ve dabbled a little in it, I can really start to see my masculine side. I enjoy it and ...
New
On new year’s eve, we went out to a local bar together. We didn’t want to do anything too busy or crazy, just have a few drinks and be social. A favorite bar of ours, which isn’t very far from ...
Easy
This is the exact text message exchange I had with my mother the other day. She didn’t know about me and Jess and I was technically waiting to tell my family while we were there for Christmas, b...
Strap
I’m seriously considering cutting my hair very short. I’ve been thinking about it for a week or so, and I have a very strong desire to do it. I’m not talking about just taking a few inches off,...
No hotel
Things are still strained between Jess and me. It’s not getting worse, it’s just stuck in a status quo. We see each other every day at work, but sometimes several days will pass when we don’t s...
Slowly
Things are slowly improving. Jess’s birthday is today and I was worried that things would still be so awful between us that I wouldn’t be able to show her a nice birthday. We spent the night t...
First visit
I think I’m a little less upset than I was in my last entry. Things aren’t all better, not even close, but Jess is being supportive and less critical than she was last week. We’ve seen a lot le...
Currently
Jess and I have been together for a while now and I feel like I should write a little about how this relationship has changed me. I admit that at the very beginning I think I was mostly attracte...
