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I feel dirty. Absolutely filthy. I called in sick today so that I can study for my exam this evening. I’ll get over it. I just hate being dishonest. I am still on the fence about taking a second ...

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Well split my d!€# and call me Caitlyn I was in such a good mood today, I didn’t even think that was possible. Why is this happening? How can I do this again? Why can’t I just feel like this all...

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I offered to take my grandmother to her church today but she wanted nothing to do with it. They have a new pastor and she just isn’t interested. She is doing fine. I called my mother yesterday to...

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I didn’t want to put the thought out into the universe that it felt like a bad omen when the picture fell off of my wall but something bad happened anyway. My grandmother had a stroke. She’s fine...

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My nerves are shot. My anxiety is hit or miss, I am noticing. At least it is just triggered by normal circumstances, like a test. It barely took me ten minutes to write the test today. This unit ...

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I don’t think I’ve experienced burnout like this before. I am no longer just tired of being tired. I am tired of being tired of being tired. I did not sleep well the last couple of nights. I keep...

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I don’t think I’ve experienced burnout like this before. I am no longer just tired of being tired. I am tired of being tired of being tired. I did not sleep well the last couple of nights. I keep...

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I am in a weird headspace. I feel lost but on track. I could be going the wrong way on this oneway track for all I know. I was consciously trying to create new habits but I relapsed a bit. Nothin...

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Frank made an appearance at work the other day. He is a customer who is there almost every day. I noticed his absence over the holidays. He has a very strong presence when he is in the store. He ...

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I have the metacognitive skills to recognize when my mindset is shifting to the one I am trying to restructure. I know that I can be weak when it comes to my vices but I’ve let go of more vices t...

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I have been restructuring my priorities this week. I have been letting go of habits that no longer serve. No more porn, no more doom scrolling, no more reporting every thought to Prosebox, etc. S...

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One of my responses to stress is to shrink my surroundings. It looks exactly how one would picture it—hiding under a blanket. In my case, I lock myself into mindless routines. I let my conscious ...

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Is Mercury in the microwave again? I know that the answer is yes. Astrology or not, things have been a little menacing all month. Today, I had a jug of cleaning chemicals spill onto my face at ...

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I’ve been bummed out all day, thus far. I made the mistake of watching The Sound of Freedom last night. I can’t unsee it.

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I feel a little guilty about calling in sick today. Everybody has done it. I wasn’t able to book it off so I used a sick day. I was up really late so I slept in today. All the way to 8:30. I had...

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I had myself a Merry Little Christmas. It was a depressing day. A depressing weekend, really. I wasn’t depressed, I just did fuck all. Nothing to do, no people to see. It’s a dream come true but ...

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I don’t know why I am laughing so hard at this. I got ChatGPT to help me get started on my entry about discernment. Me I need to get started on a blog entry called The Dumb Ages. It’s about soci...

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I feel guilty that I don’t feel guilty about wasting all of my time this weekend. Perhaps resting is not a complete waste. I just finished wrapping the Christmas gifts. I seem to think that I am...

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The week went by pretty fast. Yesterday, however, was long and full of terrors. It’s one of the shortest days of the year, technically. Class is out for winter break. I have a long weekend. I jus...

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I feel like I went through some catharsis. My problems feel small. Everything else feels far away. It’s like somebody hit the reboot button. I couldn’t tell you what happened to bring this about...

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I figured that there would be a physiotherapist or two on YouTube that would be giving away free exercises for my shoulder. That was my epiphany last night. I remembered the exercises I learned w...

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I’m feeling some type of way about something. When I have plans with Bev I always let her know whenever I’ve been around somebody sick. My roommate, for example. She usually postpones whenever I ...

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It’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me. I’m in my self-sabotage era, it would seem. I am keeping myself too busy and too radically distracted. An act of desperation to make the internal restlessne...

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Turns out that I couldn’t wait for my bed-day after all. I called in sick at work this morning. I didn’t leave my bed for most of the morning. I was up late studying for my test that is today. I...

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