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Mental Health Day in Self-Improvement, 2018
Yesterday was a day. I had plans in the early morning to let the owners/my fellow teammates know I was leaving the team. I was having the same digestive ish over this that I was having before/a...
I am done. in Self-Improvement, 2018
I am done with the football team this season. Its the next piece of negativity in my life that needs to go. I just can’t stay on after what happened Saturday. So we lost our game. No big deal....
Last Night in Self-Improvement, 2018
So as stated in my last entry, last night I went to house to have the hubby sign the final divorce papers and it was my first time seeing him & being back at the house since I left (Feb 17th)...
Nervous. So nervous in Self-Improvement, 2018
Tonight I have to go back to the house for the first time since I left. This will also be the first time I’ve seen my ex since I left. Side note: I have used “meeting with the ex to discuss div...
Locate the sunshine, go to the sunshine in Self-Improvement, 2018
So the first football game of the season is done. You know how I’ve been fighting with the motivation to attend practices this season? I’m finding its not any easier with the games. Like I lit...
Work ish in Self-Improvement, 2018
Writing this on my phone, so I can’t guarantee the proofreading will be there. Not that I usually proofread anyway. It’s been a crazy week at work. I’m covering for our payroll chick who left on ...
Appointment Recap in Self-Improvement, 2018
I told my therapist all about my recent entertainment from dating apps. Told her about meeting guy #1 and the original Sunday night drive-in movie plan but I bailed because my spidey senses said...
Situations in Self-Improvement, 2018
Thank goodness I have a therapy appointment tonight! Because I have a dude who has found himself attached to me, which was not the agreement. The agreement was summertime fuck buddies as soon a...
I understand the need for the sex talk now in Self-Improvement, 2018
I think it was two appointments ago, my therapist told me I’d be entering the rebound stage soon and more or less told me to behave myself for 6 months. That is how long she estimates my rebound...
Dating Apps in Self-Improvement, 2018
I had to check my last entry to see where I left off. Things at the courthouse went smoothly. I have a hearing June 12th for the finalization of the divorce. Before then, I have to meet with a...
Phone Anxiety in Self-Improvement, 2018
Does anyone else have severe phone anxiety? I’ve been holding off calling the courthouse regarding my case status because of my phone anxiety. But I called this morning and I was literally shak...
Sunshine is everything in Self-Improvement, 2018
Does anyone else’s hope meter rise a few notches with the sight of sunshine? Spring is coming. I can feel it. I did two things yesterday that I’ve been meaning to do since we moved here in 2012...
Indeed in Self-Improvement, 2018
So I’m at work browsing job postings on indeed.com. It is very eye-opening. There are, in fact, many jobs I am qualified for with only my two-year (accounting focused) AA that pay more than I’m...
Current yammerings in Self-Improvement, 2018
Guys I am trying REALLY hard to change my thought processes. Like I’m now really good at catching them when they start, but its the whole putting a halt to them that is the hardest part. While ...
A real-ish entry in Self-Improvement, 2018
I saw my therapist on Monday. I might not agree with her super religious background (which she didn’t even bring up on Monday - I think she got the hint) but she is really good at one thing: P...
Nope. in Self-Improvement, 2018
Me: “I did not drink too much wine.” Also me: “ Yes I did, but I won’t tell anyone if you don’t.” Also, also me: “Shut Up, self. You’re drunk.” So I texted the owners of the football team to let ...
No show in Self-Improvement, 2018
I don’t know. Maybe I do need to go back on meds. But I’m not exactly thrilled about the idea of having pills in the apartment either. Yesterday was a hardcore struggle day. Mentally. My le...
Life update in Self-Improvement, 2018
Things have calmed down since I last wrote. I’ve been spending 100% of my energy (although its still not much) on self-care. Moving/filing for divorce/having my friend serve him the papers comp...
Then it hit me in Self-Improvement, 2018
The fact that I filed for divorce yesterday didn’t actually hit me until the papers were served to him last night. And then it hit me hard. I couldn’t stop thinking about how he was going to ta...
Filed in Self-Improvement, 2018
The move this weekend went great. My mom flew in Friday night. I told my football team that she was flying in Thursday night because even though I was hobbling around on crutches, they still wo...
What an insane week is right in Self-Improvement, 2018
So at my last appointment with my therapist I told her I was waiting for a bomb to drop which would prevent me from moving this weekend. I told her whenever something starts going in the right d...
aaaaaand practice never happened last night in Self-Improvement, 2018
so i wrote my previous entry, and then my boss laid a big project on me in the late afternoon and I actually ended up having to work late and i did miss practice. I mean I could have went and ju...
whiney entry in Self-Improvement, 2018
Confession: There hasn’t been a football practice since in-season practices began the first week of January that I’ve actually been looking forward to. That said, I always feel better AFTER its ...
When you’re a solid 45 mins into you’re therapy appt... in Self-Improvement, 2018
And you notice the huge “Happy Birthday” balloon floating above the table right behind your therapist for the first time. And you’re mid-sentence and you stop what you’re saying and say “is it yo...
No Gas Left in Self-Improvement, 2018
Y’all. I feel like I’m running on empty. But hopefully the end result is worth this battle. The letter to the husband actually went really well. He took it to heart and seems to accept the fa...