Get Out / Right Next Door to Hell in 2017

I agree with pretty much everyone that commented on my last entry. Would pursuing things with her be a bad idea? Absolutely! Would it make things messy? Definitely. I would, if given the chance regardless. Friendships fall apart and decay even without me being greedy and selfish. If it also happens via me pursuing someone I legitimately care about, so be it.

Of course, since then nothing has happened and her and I have barely texted. LOL

I had a driving first on Saturday night. I picked this guy up, confirmed his destination, and started driving. We didn’t chat afterward since he put his headphones in. When we got to his destination, I noticed he was asleep. I tried waking him up, but this dude was OUT. I said his name loudly, shook him, took out his headphones, and he just kept snoring. After a few minutes of nonsense, I called the city’s non-emergency line. Soon afterward, a fire truck and ambulance rolled up. Kinda seemed like overkill. They pulled the dude out of the car, and he was still out. Smelling salts kinda woke him up, but it took a few minutes for him to be able to confirm his location and avoid being taken to detox. They seemed pretty lenient for how long it took him. Dude didn’t even seem drunk when I picked him up.

Things are back to normal now, but it was pretty grody here earlier in the week. Some dingus teenagers started a massive forest fire 50-ish miles east of Portland. It was smoky overhead and ash was swirling around in the air and stacking up on top lf stuff. There are actually a shitton of fires going on in different parts of Oregon right now. It was surreal driving around and seeing ash blow through the air while people walked around, bandanas and medical masks covering their mouths. Like being in a quarantine zone or something.

I forgot to mention before that I cut my hair last week, right before I went on that hangout. It went down to my chin, and now it only can reach my eyes. It looked pretty bad admittedly and was long overdue. I didn’t really put any effort into taking care of it. It made sense to give up my dream of having long, luxurious rockstar locks in favor of my dream of getting a date again someday. It’s been a while.

I’m signed up for school again. Only Japanese for now. I need to re-teach myself a year of Japanese in three weeks, certainly one of the worse ideas I’ve had. Still, I want it. I’ve been working more this week, and consistently going to the gym. Trying to get my shit together again.