Medisinn ⋅ 30

I started out on TOD way back in 2001 and then was on OD for quite a few years, often neglecting it. I often neglect this too. I might do something noteworthy someday, until then I'm just some dude.

Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one.

Bruce Lee

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I appreciate the notes. I really do. Thank you. I know you guys are right, too. I can’t even think of anything to say in response, and I have been trying to. Even just thinking about making an en...


October 27, 2017

But Where's Your Heart? in 2017

Things have not been awesome lately. I have admittedly been spiraling pretty bad when it comes to depression and anxiety. A lot more than I’d like to admit. I just can’t fucking sleep when I try ...


October 04, 2017

Gifted Spectator in Lyrics

Everybody is wanting your time I am another standing in line Sometimes our hands are intertwined Often your heart overshadows mine Your life is packed to the brim I get no attention and feel grim...


September 27, 2017

Untitled (for now) in Lyrics

I was sick so You kissed me on the cheek And left me wanting Later on in the week Haven’t heard from you I’m still wanting Come from out of nowhere Turn me upside down And leave without a word W...


September 24, 2017

Residential Evil in 2017

Well, things have gotten worse. My old roomie was in town Wednesday for a concert. We went to get sushi beforehand, and when I tried to pay, it didn’t work. Odd. She covered it thankfully. I then...


September 11, 2017

Al Dente in 2017

There’s a dent in my trunk. I’m not sure when it got there. Whoever did it, be it by car or something else, didn’t leave a note or anything. Motherfucks. Not sure if my extended warranty covers s...


September 09, 2017

Get Out / Right Next Door to Hell in 2017

I agree with pretty much everyone that commented on my last entry. Would pursuing things with her be a bad idea? Absolutely! Would it make things messy? Definitely. I would, if given the chance r...


August 29, 2017

What About Bob? in 2017

I had quite the adventure the other day. I picked up a passenger from the airport who needed to go to Enterprise and then back to the airport quickly for a flight. He had forgotten the keys for h...


August 26, 2017

Empty Serenity in 2017

Apparently there are rumors that Open Diary is coming back. Where are these rumors coming from? I have searched and found nothing about it. Seems I’m not in the know. Even if it did come back, wh...


I am floating upon a sea of nothingness. A sea colored pea soup green, though the world appears in greyscale. Bits of color occasionally punctuate the sky before fading away. It all blends togeth...


July 23, 2017

And All Things Will End in 2017

Fuck. I JUST got in a very small accident in a parking lot. We were both backing up out of our spots and backed into each other. It was very slow, no one was hurt, but there is a little bit of pa...


July 05, 2017

Gust in 2017

I got a new car on Tuesday. I’ll have to take a picture and post it, since that’s a thing that people do I guess. It was necessary. My Aveo soldiered through last week well, but by the end it was...


June 29, 2017

As Green As the Sky in 2017

My roommate got laid off from her job a couple weekends ago. She’s moving back to Medford whenever we are done with our lease. It makes complete sense for her. She can get her old job at the thea...


June 02, 2017

Malaise in 2017

Today was the most productive day I’ve had in a while. I went and got some groceries, made spam musubi for the first time in a while, and dyed my hair. Not that that’s a lot of activity, but more...


May 17, 2017

Hell Jammin' in 2017

There’s literally nothing different since my last entry a week ago, except I got a haircut. That was the highlight of my Saturday. Got a haircut, went to Uwajimaya to get food before doing drivin...


May 10, 2017

Ramshackled in 2017

I feel like I’m going insane. I tried to pull an all-nighter a couple nights ago to reset my sorry-ass sleep schedule, but fell victim to a nap that ended up being several naps hidden in one. I a...


May 09, 2017

Obfuscation in 2017

Well, thinking back to the last entry, I was right. I couldn’t sleep until about 9AM. Even after waking up later, I still didn’t feel good. And through most of the week. It seems likely that I’ve...


April 30, 2017

Nullification in 2017

I can feel it’ll be one of those sleepless nights. Just a feeling. We had the “Mozzarella and Margaritas” party that some friends hosted earlier, that was super fun. I could just tell on the driv...


April 14, 2017

Apoplexy in 2017

Well. I’ve been out for about three hours tonight, and I’ve made 8 bucks. It was also dead as fuck last night. Like, what happened? Were the majority of people in downtown Portland abducted by al...


March 18, 2017

Despairanoia in 2017

It’s another night sitting in my car downtown, waiting for my phone to ping with a ride. Seems like it’s these times that nudge me to come back here. I’ll forget for a while, and then want to wa...


November 10, 2016

Rainmaker in Lyrics

Is this over? Keep your eyes closed Until I have gone Pushing men away All of these years Do they seem so long? There’s no consequence For cowardice Apart from loneliness There’s no vengeance The...


November 10, 2016

From Under Castle Keep in 2016

Barf. Just had to spend 400 bucks to get something fixed on my car. That definitely puts me in the hole a bit. As long as I work my ass off the rest of the month, I’ll be fine. In fact, I have no...


October 02, 2016

Something Hurts In Time in 2016

I felt so frustrated earlier. Somehow, I ended up going to where I was supposed to drop off a passenger for an Uber ride, only I never picked them up in the first place. I was convinced I was goi...


August 04, 2016

The Hell We Share in 2016

I’m out and about, doing Lyft driving. Quiet night so far. Nevermind. It picked up just as I was starting this. And now it’s quiet again. I wouldn’t bother on a Thursday, but rent is due and my r...


May 29, 2016

It's About Time in 2016

I fail to keep a presence here because I don’t have enough time. Time. It’s such a precious commodity. When I was younger, I would have given it away in spades. Boredom was the biggest enemy, a r...


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