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Since moving in with Isa, I’ve been taking my general hygiene and self care more seriously. As someone diagnosed with severe depression for almost half their life, taking care of myself has alwa...
This week I started a new hobby with Isa, model making! Well, I guess more specifically for him gundam building but I am more so making a model. I am someone who can have many hobbies or things ...
Since I have nothing better to do recently I do want to update my “blog” more frequently. After my father died in 2021, I appreciated what little he had written about his thoughts and life. I ev...
On my second week of living with a partner for the first time. I’ve been in many long term relationships but never committed fully to the living together part of it. I mean, I’ve visited long ...
i worry i say im worried then i worry that being worried is ruining my relationship and then the cycle repeats there’s always something to mull over always something something
Since 2020 the only people I have dated I wasn’t super attracted to physically (or mentally) so my like for them stayed pretty steady. I feel like it didn’t go over a certain threshold which all...
I’ve been wanting to write an update but I always feel like I don’t have much to say. Tomorrow will be one month since breaking up with K. How do I feel? Not much at all. They say women leav...
Living for the weekend. I spend many days imagining if things were different. When I was younger and filled with more hope about the mysteriousness of life I genuinely believed in manifestati...
What can I say, my mood is on the up-and-up. Work still sucks dick (even worse than before) but my mental fortitude has grown it seems. I am practicing free will more frequently at work. I’m ...
Monday comes around and all I can think about is the weekend. Saturday hits and my thoughts are only “I don’t wanna work on Monday.” My job isn’t horrible, I’m just lazy. I don’t really lik...
My head is pounding from stress. Today I caught a 9-year-old… jerkin’ his gerkin’ if you know what I mean. I won’t go into detail but the tl;dr is that another teacher and I witnessed it, I r...
My update is that I’m tired, as usual. I realized that 6 out of the 8 months I’ve worked with this company I’ve had to work two weekends a month. I guess the compromise is I get to instead sta...
“Comparison is the thief of happiness,” is a quote I’ve been hearing all week. From people online, people in person, and even in movies or TV shows I watch. I guess around this time of year it’...
My Steamdeck came in today so I spent the day playing games. I only really have a few hobbies, my main one is playing games. When I moved to Japan, I left behind my desktop in a storage unit. S...
Although this is an anonymous site, I wonder if I write all of my feelings will my s/o find this site one day. Will they snoop in my history, or catch me writing a post deep in the night and pr...
Tired and stressed. Tomorrow I have a “big” day at work. I have to be a sales woman. My job is to entertain kids, get pictured and videoed, and then sell the fantasy to their parents. This is ...
I cry so easily at the thought of my dad. Sometimes I wonder if my sister is similar to me or if she’s more numb to the feeling now. When the idea of having to see someone you love in their fin...
I want to start reading again, even if it’s just little by little. Last night I started with, Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke by Eric Larocca Rating: ★★★☆☆ The book was interest...
Doctor said I have been sick with a fever 6 times since May. Which is a lot even when working with kids. Because I have Japanese health insurance, they tested me for everything they could think ...
Since moving to Japan, my ferret has enjoyed sleeping with me in my bed almost every night. In the U.S. she preferred sleeping alone. Occasionally in my bed but never next to me, I wasn’t allowe...
I complain about being bad cop and the next day my coworker asks me to be her enforcer. One kid was particularly bad on Wednesday, so, she created a plan where the child would sit out the enti...
I’m tired. I’m always tired. I’m trying to think of things to say, but my life is just work. I guess if I were to update about work, my update would be that I find myself having to be the ir...
They give you crucial steps before moving in, call the: 1. Electricity Company 2. Water Company 3. Gas Company I was able to get all three done, well, I thought. Despite waking up at 7am on a...
It’s been a hot minute since I’ve wrote anything about my life in any shape or form. I lived in a share house between May - early December. I finally moved to my own apartment over the weekend....
Drunk and alone, walking home. I stop at the nearby shrine, divulging in the truths I’m afraid to admit. I reach the park. The grass is so green and full of life. unlike me. I take off my socks...
