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Midwest Attorney trying to navigate the waters of life

Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.

Haruki Murakami

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My day began at 5:30 this morning, when I set my alarm. My Wife doesn’t understand why I set my alarm to wake me an hour before I have to leave the house. It is an important part of pain manage...


Have I mentioned that I really hope I get that job I interviewed for? Have I mentioned that, just because we are in the age of Cell Phones, that doesn’t make it cool for employers to bother you w...


Two roads diverged in a tortured metaphor and neither could be chosen. The roads, you see were fractured possibilities of a future yet to be created. Being the traveler, I could not select which...


December 16, 2017

Insights in Book Four: Ichi-no-Tani 2017

(1) It is… difficult being in a position where there is nothing you can do about something you want. It is interesting. So many people scoff at the idea of fate or chance or luck. My brother, ...


(1) I picked up 7.9 billable hours yesterday. That is entirely due to Chinese Boss agreeing to pay me 4 hours for any Legal Aid Day… provided I do something with those 4 hours that would work to...


Around this time last year, I was feeling pretty depressed. I had really wanted a job with the Polk County Attorney Juvenile Division. I had gotten an interview. But as I left that interview, I...


I am going to explode with technological rage and fury but first… The interview went well. No way to know for sure if I nailed it but I have experience, I was relaxed, I made jokes, and I demons...


So, I got up early today to do my work. Checked E-Mails at 8. Went to Ames and Back to grab some much needed discovery. Started researching Divorce and International Law. Read some terrible thing...


So, I am doing that one thing I didn’t want to do. I’m getting excited. I’m getting my hopes up. I’m actively contemplating a move, a job change, house hunting, all of it. I am hoping. I am g...


So, yesterday was a long day. But I enjoyed it (after the first several hours). 2 am Sunday Morning, my wife was like a woman possessed. Shrieking, screaming, crying, injuring herself, insulti...


So… after a ridiculous and exhausting night with Drunk Shouty Sobby Wife, she is sleeping in the bedroom while my guest and I watch K-On. Then my phone explodes into text messages from work, a ph...


My wife drank WAY too much last night. Ruined the evening. Then I woke up at 2 am with her shouting and sobbing at the top of her lungs. Mind you, we still have a guest in our fucking house. And ...


Today is a three entry day. Maybe more. And for that I apologize. But… it comes with what is going on right now. Seriously… I have four things listed on my TO DO list. (1) Finish Asylum Petiti...


December 08, 2017

Memory in Book Four: Ichi-no-Tani 2017

I have a song stuck in my head. Just the very last bit of it, in fact. You can ne’er return again Which… is so eerily appropriate. Because that is from the song “Toyland” and the only time I eve...


I woke up today in a foul mood. I’ve been living in this body long enough to know what that means but I don’t know how to fix it. What it means is that my Rage Defense is active. My body is in...


Col’ blimey this morning was a bit of a jolt. 5 am wake up to get dressed and race to the car. 3 hour drive straight east with a few stop offs for gas, breakfast, and stretching the legs. 45 mi...


So… I try to be a tactful person. I would rarely, if ever, tell someone to their face “I HATE YOU, YOU SCUM SUCKING LABIAL FART!” I mean… I would say that… but I have to get pushed a lot to get...


December 06, 2017

Yeah in Book Four: Ichi-no-Tani 2017

Harumph, Gr, and Poopy. (1) My big, expensive, making the firm money case… took a plea offer. NOW… in pursuit of justice, this is a good thing. The guy definitely hit his wife and choked her. ...


So… an Ames Day… with no clients… and Chinese Boss told me that, on Legal Aid time, I was not to do any other work. So… Legal Aid time… I’m not to read/respond to e-mails about other cases. I’m...


Today is an Ames Day. And my work calendar is mostly empty… despite asking my bosses for extra work. And my body is stiff and sore and hurts all over. And I am super tired.... especially consi...


Good morning, Good Afternoon, Good Evening, welcome welcome welcome. “The time has come,” the Walrus said, “to speak of many things. Of shoes and ships and sealing wax. Of cabbages and kings. An...


“Making the simple complicated is commonplace; making the complicated simple, awesomely simple, that’s creativity.” - Charles Mingus Charles Mingus was an American jazz double bassist, pianist, c...


November 30, 2017

Random in Book Four: Ichi-no-Tani 2017

One thing that excites me in a dark way about the possibility of leaving this position? Perhaps I can flee my rising racism. Part of me would argue that it isn’t racism, it is understanding and...


“And as a personal favor… I want you to go rape a turtle.” The weird things that pop into my head when I just let my mind wander!! I don’t know how best to format this entry. I have a story, an ...


(1) White boss seemed… jovial. Though, Chinese Boss is out of town today so that may be why. :shakes head: See… they can be all over the state without communicating any of that to me. But I...