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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”

Philip K. Dick

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February 16, 2024

Sugah! in Hello

3:15 AM Still getting insane sugar cravings late at night. I’m ashamed at just how many sweets I ate the other night. Again, did my drinking at night so the sugar fairy comes at night. Today I ...


Actually it’s 1:48 AM. I just have 311 stuck in my head. I slept well and woke up with my back feeling better. Yet my left elbow started hurting yesterday, too. It hurts worse now and the br...


February 14, 2024

If I'm Not Back In Ten Minutes in Hello

Just wait longer… I pulled a muscle in my back that makes it hurt to breathe. Screw this noise. Still having gut issues after I eat. Dunno what’s going on. Rosie Butt is doing great! She was...


I have felt queasy all day. Like there is something nasty on spin cycle in my gut. I’ve taken Pepto and have drank a lot of water. I feel somewhat better but not fully. And Rosie was flopped o...


February 11, 2024

My Tummy Aches in Hello

12:24 AM Had to get up and take mom to work again. Except this time I crashed shortly after getting home and slept on and off till 1 . I wanted to get out of the house and do something but the ...


It’s hard to explain. Like the logo and front page top line will multiply itself down the front of my screen and I can’t see anything else unless I turn my phone sideways to landscape. It’s weir...


February 09, 2024

Vet in Hello

Finally got Rose out from under the bed for her vet check up. X-ray shows she’s doing well so the doc instructed us to finish out the meds we have and see how she is next week. Right now I’m s...


February 07, 2024

Melissa Joan Hawt (Rose Update) in Hello

I’ve been watching reruns of Sabrina The Teenage Witch. I remember the days of Clarissa Explains It All. My childhood crush. We were supposed to take Rose to the vet for a checkup on Monday but...


February 04, 2024

Interlude (Rose Update, Too) in Hello

(100 Days Sober) Am I not good enough? Am I not what you want? Well take this fuckin’ gun And blow my head off Cancerslug - The Beyond I had a dream about someone the other day and since then my ...


Normally I don’t watch Turner Classic Movies except on very rare occasions. I like classic films, don’t get me wrong, just not high on the priority list. Well, I got to see Rebel Without A Caus...


February 02, 2024

It's Been A Day in Hello

My Maine Coon cat Rose has had a slight limp in her left front leg. Last night I noticed she couldn’t stand on it at all. At the vet they did some tests on her. Neurological issues. Her pupil...


This book was AWESOME! A doctor discovers not only the way to stop aging, but to reverse it. But at what cost? Okay, end of the month book count. Laura Resnick novels 5 Unsympathetic Magic Vampa...


This is by far the weirdest book I’ve ever read. However this excerpt rings so true. The fact is, what I hated in the church was what I hated in society. Namely, authoritarians. Power freaks....


When I finally fell asleep I crashed hard. Got up around ten and mom made breakfast as she took the day off. We both fell back asleep and I went into a nice, deep slumber. Next thing I know I ...


January 28, 2024

Pikachu! I Blame You! in Hello

The usual nurse didn’t administer my shot. It was an older lady and for some reason it’s hurting more than usual. I’m blaming her. I’ve felt awful since yesterday (Friday.) Nausea, aching joint...


January 27, 2024

Cat Dreams in Hello

Last night got better, sorta. Thanks to all who noted The drink craving passed but my body ached in certain spots. Spent the rest of the night with the heating pad, PlayStation and cats. At ...


I! WANT! BOOZE! Craving hardcore right now…


January 26, 2024

Ow My Ass! in Hello

Actually my hip. Injection area, yeah yeah. I FINALLY found a pack of Al Capone’s at Walgreens. Hm, they’ll sell you meds to make you better and yet sell tobacco… Today I’m cleaning. Ugh. On t...


January 25, 2024

Alvin, Simon, Theodore! in Hello

Do Do Do do do do Do do Do do do do I’ve had that freakin’ theme song stuck in my head for over an hour now. Today I had my monthly shot. Surprisingly the injection site isn’t hurting. Yet. Speak...


January 22, 2024

STOP ITCHING GOD DAMNIT!!! in Hello

I’m going to switch laundry detergents. That’s the last thing I can think of that makes me itch so much. Today I had my exit interview with the outpatient counselor Bene. Got my certificate t...


But I was dreamin’ of you… Stephanie, I miss her. Eric, I miss my best friend. In my dream they cut contact with me so they could date and not hurt my feelings. In reality Steph became a bartend...


Yup, been up over 24 hours again. Insomnia sucks. Phone says it’s 18F out. I really wanted to drink the loneliness away last night. After I wrote yesterday’s entry I got lost in thought, yet aga...


January 21, 2024

Body And Soul, I'm A Freak in Hello

The Silverchair song Freak got stuck in my head earlier. There was an ex who was obsessed with that band. If all went, “according to plan,” we would have probably ended up married. Instead I r...


Between sweet tea and water I have consumed a lot of liquid tonight. Seems like every ten minutes I have to pee. The salad and steak was awesome tonight. I’ve gotten in the habit of putting a s...


January 18, 2024

Sleep, Plz? in Hello

I’m beat. Been up off and on since about six this morning. It finally happened, I went to the liquor store twice. In search of a freakin’ pack of Al Capone’s that is! I’m craving a cigarillo. ...


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