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The Moses of DE. I come from a site called Digital Expression, a site that was shut down. So I brought our people here, to stay connected and keep on our individual journeys of writing, expressing and healing.

Even if I'm in last place, I'm still doing better than those that never try.

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Unreleated to previous entries, Written while listening to Dobrinka Tabakova - Alma Redemptoris Mater (Thanks to Mecurial Muse) The sounds of choir and chorus began while people were ushered int...


I think one of the biggest problems that Pam and I encounter in our relationship is that we have very different ways of dealing with problems. And when that’s the biggest thing that’s creating a...


2 days ago

The Worry Seeps In in Life

You can tell I’ve been thinking a lot again, probably a little too much as I’m starting to worry again. While it’s been great the past week while I focus on beginning and maintaining an active r...


3 days ago

Living Lessons in Life

This will probably be a light entry but as my mood is on a significant up-take I’m doing a quick look back on things that have helped me improve and get over a spike. Recognition is great in th...


4 days ago

Distilled Enjoyment in Life

I don’t… what does that even mean?! Well lucky for you I’m here to tell you. Or at least here to tell you what I think it means… or what it means to me… ANYway… One thing I’ve been thinking abou...


6 days ago

Shotgun Motivation in Life

Is that a term? I feel like that should be a term we use widely. Let me google this real quick… It’s not a thing apparently but it brought up a lot of Articles on shotguns so I’m probably on som...


6 days ago

Unfriended in Life

Another chapter in the identity crisis series. Gawd I’m so fucking dramatic sometimes. Really, only here. But I suppose that’s an outlet that I need. Probably not helping the whole “who am I”...


7 days ago

Identity Crisis in Life

That’s my middle name. Adam ‘Identity Crisis’ Daniel (Yes, that is my real-boring-ass-name, Google away. Well. If around the time of the last entry you’d had told me that I’d be locked indoo...


March 11, 2020

On Cooking - A Review in Life

So this is something that I’ve been wanting to break down for quite a while. I’ve spent 12 years in the Culinary, or, “In the Industry” (Which is a term I hate because so many people stupidly ab...


March 09, 2020

Pam-Drama in Life

It’s really not that bad, I just think that title rolls off the tongue. I think it’s all the A’s. Pam is stuck. In a matter of sayings and I’m not sure if I’m right about this but this is what ...


March 04, 2020

Unpacking Emotions in Life

So month since we moved and there hasn’t been any physical unpacking since the first week which has left me in a position of looking back. There’s a lot less “Okay I gotta do A, B, and C” and a ...


Well we survived! Week one is now complete and despite the move itself being stressful in the sense of a climax of events and the ever looming idea in the back of my head that “I don’t deserve th...


January 11, 2020

One of those (good) days in Life

Ahh it’s one of those days, where the rain outside is coming down lightly casting a light mist over the horizon, cars are whizzing by splashing water about as they fade into the obscurity of thei...


September 27, 2019

The Desire to Achieve. in Life

I’m not sure if it’s because of Paternity leave or my growing agoraphobic tendencies but the days where I’m left wandering around lost and confused trying to identify this feeling of emptiness in...


September 23, 2019

Don't wanna say goodbye. in Life

My goodness my titles are dramatic, I should take up a part time job writing headlines for clickbait. This is going to be an awkward entry, I’m not in the greatest mood for no real reason and m...


September 12, 2019

Self Care, Self Care, Self Care in Life

The title of this entry is somewhat ironic but the other day I put up a post on Fbook about a reminder for Self-care to all those who need it and the very next day I’m sick as a dog (What does th...


September 07, 2019

Obligatory "Not Dead" Entry in Life

I’m back! Or at least for now. The cycle has come full circle, starting with a fresh face and a new start and then falling back into the routine of “priorities” and distractions, I imagine a lot...


July 10, 2019

Operation Parliament Hill in Life

It’s no real secret that as of late Pam and I have been wanting to get out of London (Ontario, for those keeping track) I have another post on a different site and I may repost here but in that p...


July 05, 2019

The Week from Hell in Life

Okay so that’s being a little dramatic and while I do tend to air (is that the right use?) on the side of dramatic flare, that’s not what I want this to be all about. I swear! I have good times ...


June 28, 2019

Too Bored to Sleep in Life

I’m having one of those moments where I stare at the screen, unsure of what to write but sure that I /need/ to write. It’s like a building pressure mixed with angst and anxiety like surely doom ...


June 21, 2019

No Love Before Bedtime in Life

Is what my wife said to me after I kissed my daughter on her head and she looked very confused with me. As that’s normally her bedtime routine. When Mom has her and I give her a peck. ANYway. ...


I’m all stuffy and sneezy again, I’m not sure if it’s the weather, the lack of sleep or the lack of water or poor eating habits. Really that should be a to-do list on how to get my health back o...


Alright, 3 rooms pre-cleaned, now break time for the body, work time for the mind. So the team has captured a Derro Savant who is described in the Tome of Foes as such: “Derro slink through the s...


It really sounds more dramatic than it actually is. You know how you get those moments where you’re just in the zone? Where you’re so fed up with no one else doing it that you just pound your co...


June 14, 2019

Unpacking Emotions in Life

Y’know, there’s a lot to talk about when it comes to the migration but I feel like it’s been talked to death so there’s only one last thing that I really wanna break down here. While I listen to...


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