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The Moses of DE. I come from a site called Digital Expression, a site that was shut down. So I brought our people here, to stay connected and keep on our individual journeys of writing, expressing and healing.

Even if I'm in last place, I'm still doing better than those that never try.

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September 01, 2020

A post from Facebook. in Life

I’m not sure how I’m going to go about this but for the past week or so I’ve been quietly observing my use of Social Media and really wondering what, exactly, it’s adding to my life. Or more acc...


August 10, 2020

A New Day in Life

It’s been a while, which means there’s been a lot of growth. I find I tend to go silent when I’m in moments of development. I’m not sure if that’s a common trait but I suppose everyone interact...


June 12, 2020

Yesterdayyy in Life

Seems so very farrr away. So yesterday wasn’t a great day, obviously. I spent most of it in silent brooding while I played with Elly and gave Pam little more than one word answers. She knew som...


June 11, 2020

How to Proceed in Life

Now I’m gonna preface this with saying that I’m prone to paranoia and this is a broken record entry about Pam and her Cellphone. Yesterday Elly got her vaccinations and they went as well as they ...


June 10, 2020

Phase 2 in Life

Ey! Here we go! Pam and our family have been selected to be part of Phase 2 re-opening. Patio’s are starting to re-open. Daycare is waiting on an inspection from the govt and they’re re-openin...


June 08, 2020

Another Day in Quarantine in Life

So another weekend has passed, allergies kicked the heck outta me this weekend, or a summer cold. Who knows!? I feel better today but still that groggyness that comes with recovery. Pam and I...


June 05, 2020

I Don't Even Know in Life

What to write today! Hopefully nothing so dramatic as I feel like that’s all I’ve been writing about for the past little while. I’ve been having very vivid dreams again lately (I wasn’t for a whi...


June 03, 2020

I'ma Subscriber in Life

I’m not gonna give up (Beyonce anyone?) As we continue to watch American society crumble and head toward Civil War 2 I’ve found my anxiety peaking (Something I imagine a lot of you can relate to)...


June 02, 2020

Sick & Tired in Life

Of Pam’s Shit! Nah, just playin’ It’s not going to be one of those entrires. Pam and I have really been working on communication lately and I think we’ve adjusted to the ‘new normal’ of the si...


I think this is probably the first time that I’m writing without a clear goal in mind on something I want to get off my mind so it may be a bit rambly and distracted. I’ve been in more of a cre...


Unreleated to previous entries, Written while listening to Dobrinka Tabakova - Alma Redemptoris Mater (Thanks to Mecurial Muse) The sounds of choir and chorus began while people were ushered int...


I think one of the biggest problems that Pam and I encounter in our relationship is that we have very different ways of dealing with problems. And when that’s the biggest thing that’s creating a...


May 22, 2020

The Worry Seeps In in Life

You can tell I’ve been thinking a lot again, probably a little too much as I’m starting to worry again. While it’s been great the past week while I focus on beginning and maintaining an active r...


May 21, 2020

Living Lessons in Life

This will probably be a light entry but as my mood is on a significant up-take I’m doing a quick look back on things that have helped me improve and get over a spike. Recognition is great in th...


May 20, 2020

Distilled Enjoyment in Life

I don’t… what does that even mean?! Well lucky for you I’m here to tell you. Or at least here to tell you what I think it means… or what it means to me… ANYway… One thing I’ve been thinking abou...


May 19, 2020

Shotgun Motivation in Life

Is that a term? I feel like that should be a term we use widely. Let me google this real quick… It’s not a thing apparently but it brought up a lot of Articles on shotguns so I’m probably on som...


May 18, 2020

Unfriended in Life

Another chapter in the identity crisis series. Gawd I’m so fucking dramatic sometimes. Really, only here. But I suppose that’s an outlet that I need. Probably not helping the whole “who am I”...


May 17, 2020

Identity Crisis in Life

That’s my middle name. Adam ‘Identity Crisis’ Daniel (Yes, that is my real-boring-ass-name, Google away. Well. If around the time of the last entry you’d had told me that I’d be locked indoo...


March 11, 2020

On Cooking - A Review in Life

So this is something that I’ve been wanting to break down for quite a while. I’ve spent 12 years in the Culinary, or, “In the Industry” (Which is a term I hate because so many people stupidly ab...


March 09, 2020

Pam-Drama in Life

It’s really not that bad, I just think that title rolls off the tongue. I think it’s all the A’s. Pam is stuck. In a matter of sayings and I’m not sure if I’m right about this but this is what ...


March 04, 2020

Unpacking Emotions in Life

So month since we moved and there hasn’t been any physical unpacking since the first week which has left me in a position of looking back. There’s a lot less “Okay I gotta do A, B, and C” and a ...


Well we survived! Week one is now complete and despite the move itself being stressful in the sense of a climax of events and the ever looming idea in the back of my head that “I don’t deserve th...


January 11, 2020

One of those (good) days in Life

Ahh it’s one of those days, where the rain outside is coming down lightly casting a light mist over the horizon, cars are whizzing by splashing water about as they fade into the obscurity of thei...


September 27, 2019

The Desire to Achieve. in Life

I’m not sure if it’s because of Paternity leave or my growing agoraphobic tendencies but the days where I’m left wandering around lost and confused trying to identify this feeling of emptiness in...


September 23, 2019

Don't wanna say goodbye. in Life

My goodness my titles are dramatic, I should take up a part time job writing headlines for clickbait. This is going to be an awkward entry, I’m not in the greatest mood for no real reason and m...


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