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Here's To Starting Over...
~So my boyfriend broke up with me last week… I’m finally recovering ok. It was for the best, well for me anyways… He’s an idiot… Honestly I treated him so good that he should have held on to me f...
Moving On...
~I’m definitely having one of those days… Where nothing seems to go right for you… Where no matter what you do everything just gets so f***ed up and then there is nothing you can do because the d...
It's Lonely Where You Are...
~I think I know what my biggest flaw is… I care too much. I always get hurt from caring too much. The people who are really close to me in my life, I really care for, love if that’s what you wa...
Last Christmas
~So last year at this time, by then best friend was getting married. Well we weren’t even friends at this time, but we were for quite a few years. About a couple months before her wedding we “br...
I Can't Beleive I Let Myself Break Down...
~So I have a problem. Actually its a pretty big problem. So G and I have been dating for a few months. Early on I just knew that G would be someone that I would be willing to spend the rest of...
I've Never Felt So Hopeless...
~Wow I can’t believe that summer is just about over. Summer is by far my favorite time of the year. I live in Wisconsin so summer is the only time when its actually warm enough to do things out...
How Can I Forget the Past?
~So here is my problem... G and I have been dating for about 2.5 months which is closing in on being my longest relationship ever... I just haven't dated much in the past and the few guys I have ...
Somebody Make Me Feel Alive...
~Wow time does fly sometimes. Life here has been pretty good. In my last entry I mentioned that I met someone, and we have officially started dating and I couldn't be happier. When I'm with hi...
All I Ever Wanted...
~So I think I've met someone... Maybe the one? I don't know. But all I know is that I have not felt anything for anyone romantically in a really long time and I'm starting to feel again. Its su...
What If I Wanted To Break?
~Wow where to begin... ~M and I are really no longer friends. I haven't spoken to him in over a week and to be honest I haven't really minded... In the end we are on different paths in life and...
Am I Worthless?
~That's how I feel. Worthless... ~So recently M wanted me to do something with him that I would never be ok with doing. He just assumed that I would be ok with it and I'm not and now even thou...
You'll Never Take Me Down...
~Have you ever wished that you could change something about your past? An event, a situation, a decision? Its been hitting me lately that if I would have done XYZ differently where would I be tod...
It's Just About To Break...
~So question of the day... Why do guys say these things that make them seem like such jerks?? I seriously don't understand. If you want to be with me don't act like a jerk. I promise your chance...
Don't Want To Hear About It...
~Hey all I know I've been away for a while... I was in Las Vegas for vacation and I've been house sitting this week for some family friends. Its been alright but its just a big empty house and t...
Would You Still Be There?
~So M and I started talking again well, we talked once and that's better than nothing but things aren't the same. I'm not sure if they ever will be again. I'm not sure I want them to be the sam...
Without you...
~Have you ever wondered how your life would be different if you never met certain people? I have. I have been hurt and damaged by so many different people over the years. And these said people ...
In These Moments...
~Moments. That is all my life seems to be made up of. Happy moments, sad moments, stressful moments... all blending together to make of these random images of what my life should be. I don't u...
Book Description
~So I know I’m not the only person to come over from OpenDiary but it has taken me a little longer to join. For me OpenDiary meant a lot. It was there for me when no one else was and documented my life through some really hard times. And when OpenDiary closed I felt like a part of me dies with it. I didn’t want to write again for some time, but then I realized that writing is what saved my life and what helps me make it through these days… Well writing and music. I’ve been listing to a lot lately. I’ve needed it. I’ve been feeling really alone which is what led me here. Writing on an open forum like this has always made me feel like people care. That somewhere out there someone would be able to read about my life and actually care about my struggles, my hardships. Its not that people in my actual life don’t care, I know that they do, its just not the same. I often feel alone when I’m with the people that are supposed to care about me the most. Now that may or may not make that much sense but to me, that’s my life and has always been my life.
~So I hope that everyone will enjoy my writings… For me this will be part showing my work part diary, but in the end I hope that we are able to connect on a different level and be here for each other. I’m not perfect nor an intelligent writer, but this is who am I am I’m not afraid of being me.
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