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Saturday.
We’ve since done breakfast, got snacks and made a little bit of money. We’re now just at home watching TV. I’m hoping to get a text from her big sister so she can go do something with her. My bro...
New stress.
So they called and scheduled my appointment for next Thursday at 10am. I have to find a driver because at this one, they put you on an IV. I asked my brother who of course can’t and there’s no on...
Thursday.
We went to the family breakfast this morning. It was pretty fun and my daughter really likes that we go together. She has her after school program today and I plan to get her kind of early. She t...
MRI.
So I had my follow up this morning. They are wanting to do another injection type procedure and they are going to call me to schedule it. I won’t be able to drive after so I need to figure out th...
Tuesday.
I’m having a pretty good day so far. I made breakfast before I got my daughter to school and then went to my thing. I got there an hour earlier than usual so I could leave sooner. I was absolutel...
Sunday.
We had the time change and it already sucks. But we got up and did breakfast. I’m definitely glad to get some groceries and be done with that. I’ve been cleaning up the house and just trying to r...
Saturday.
I waited longer to get my kid from school yesterday. I guess she was the last kid there for about 10 minutes. I made dinner and lost track of time. She said she had a much day at school and even ...
Pros and Cons.
So, I had an interview at McDonald’s this morning before I went to my thing. The lady was super nice and just told me that they don’t have any openings for my availability but would send a messag...
Dr appointment, jobs.
So I was able to shower this morning, get my daughter to school and eat breakfast. My day started out super good!! The Dr appointment annoyed me because there was a lot more waiting today than no...
Better morning.
Last night was pretty decent. I did take her in and have her ears checked and there’s an ear infection on her right side. I am so glad I got her seen so that I wouldn’t have to worry about it. We...
Bad morning.
It’s like everything that could have gone wrong absolutely did. I woke up and just struggled to get myself going. I got my daughter dressed and ready. She woke up at 4 saying her ear hurt and I g...
Monday
I didn’t want to get up this morning. This cold weather really does something to me. Got my daughter up and to school. Once we got there, I realized we forgot her back pack. Thankfully she doesn’...
Sunday.
So daughter went with her big sister to that Trunk or Treat but didn’t get much candy so when she got back, I took her to another one. It was outdoors but she got 2 buckets full of candy! They ga...
Cold, snow.
We went to the Halloween thing last night. I did good on my feet for over an hour. I was just really hot and sick of the crowd. I just hate going to these kinds of things because it’s not enjoyab...
Jobs, MRI, life.
So I had a phone interview a couple of days ago and then I got the email yesterday saying they were going to pursue other people. I don’t really care because the pay was like $11/hr! I have anoth...
Okay.
So it was a pretty hectic morning to say the least. We got up super early. Did breakfast and got her to school and then I went to my thing. I was pretty crabby because I struggle with mornings. I...
Interviews.
So I showered very early this morning, got my kid up and ready and then went to the first interview. It’s a job where it’s not a set schedule and I’d only work here and there. I was told that the...
It's the weekend.
So my daughter didn’t have school yesterday for parent teacher conferences. We went and did breakfast, got stuff at the store and then went to the park. I got her a new bedding set that she loved...
Thursday.
I’ve really been awake since 2am. I just couldn’t get back to sleep. I really need to stop going to bed so early. I made breakfast this morning and got daughter to school. I went and sat in my th...
Wednesday.
Alright so I get my little off to school, got breakfast and then went to my thing for a couple of hours. My time went pretty fast today because I talked to a couple caseworkers about him being in...
Karma!!
So, we’ve had a pretty good weekend. We went to my brother’s house last night. We hung out until about 2am and then came home. My daughter had a good time and wanted to go back today but we got b...
Saturday.
We slept in this morning and it was glorious. We generally still get up early on weekends because we’re used to it but this morning we were still sleeping at 8am!! I made breakfast and got woke ...
Spine Doctor.
So I went and got my appointment done. They’ve prescribed muscle relaxers and something else. I gotta go pick them up today. They want me to do another MRI because it’s been 8 months and they wan...
Native American Day.
We didn’t get up quite as early this morning. I made breakfast and then my daughter wanted to get cheese puffs and a couple other snacks at the store. I got my coffee and have since done dishes, ...
Sunday.
We went to the parade yesterday and my daughter got a crap load of candy. The weather was warm and it was sunny. Normally we go and the weather is super cold so it was nice that this time around ...
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I’m really not into switching to another site but it looks like OD is going offline in the next few days. I downloaded my diary but it looks way different and doesn’t seem like all my entries are in it and that makes me very sad. I’ve gone through so much in the past 3 years and everything is documented on OD.
Anyway, I’m just exhausted from work and school. I love that I have so much going on and I am creating a better future for myself but getting enough sleep is always a task. I still have to take TYlenol PM every night or else I will be wide awake until I do. I am just so sick of it. I miss being able to go to sleep on my own. There’s just so much going on nowadays and I don’t want to spend all my free time at home sleeping.
I got most of my homework done and I feel pretty good about that. I’m glad that i’m in an easy math class this semester because that is my toughest subject. I love my computer class because it’s stuff that I already know how to do, I’ll just get better at it and learn a few things along the way.
So it looks like I’ll be going to court on the 21st for my small claim lawsuit against the place that fucked me over on my car. I talked to the mechanic today that worked on it and he said that he would go to court with me but I never believe they’ll actually do what they say until the time comes. I really hope he does because his statement is really important and I just don’t know who else is going to come with me.
I still don’t have much to do with my family. My Mom is probably the biggest bitch I’ve ever known and I just can’t stand trying to talk to her one the phone. I called her yesterday to let her know when the court date will be because I couldn’t hear her because they were in the car with the windows down because they were smoking and I tried to tell her I couldn’t hear her and she got all defensive so I hung up. I was just too fucking tired to deal with her attitude and how rude she is to me so I hung up and went about my day.
I decided that if they don’t give me any money when they get their taxes that I will be completely cutting them out of my life. I helped them with $1,300 in the month that I borrowed her car and gave it back with a full tank of gas so I do expect even $40 when they get their taxes. Her and my Dad both told me that they would give me some but I really doubt they actually will because they NEVER pay anyone back and that’s why no one helps them anymore but I almost lost my car and got my cable shut off from helping them and I just feel like if they don’t even attempt to pay me back then they didn’t appreciate me helping. I know that I need to cross them off regardless if they pay me back or not but if I don’t hear from them when they get their taxes, that will be the last fucking straw for me. My family has done nothing but use me and shit on me my entire life so I don’t expect much but it’s just sad how much they have fucked me over and the negative affect they’ve had on my life.
It’s been nice to be off today and yesterday, it’s been much needed. I just feel like I never get enough sleep and being sleep deprived all the time is really not good. I’m glad to have just been at home to hang out, sleep, take a hot bath and get most of my homework done. I hate feeling like I never get enough sleep and I feel like I walk around like a zombie most of the time. What made it worse was having to get up 3 days in a row and 2 of those days was dropping my car off to get some shit fixed. It’s nice to take my car to the mechanic and not have to deal with a bunch of drama to get it back. I don’t have to worry about anything and that alone makes me grateful to have a different car.
My ex is still on my mind quite a bit, more than what i want him to be. I just can’t understand why I can’t just forget about him and move on. I’m still stuck on why he treated me so badly and how he did everything he could to convince me that it was completely acceptable for us to never see each other and that if was fine for him to never include me in his life at all. I was just fighting a losing battle and wouldn’t let go of it. I know that it’s because I had no one else and loneliness was a huge factor but I will NEVER again let someone talk to me like he did. Just because he didn’t call me names like my ex John did, doesn’t mean he was any less abusive. He said some of the most awful things about not only me but people I loved and cared about. He got sick pleasure from knowing how much he brought me down. My friend at work said that I need to find happiness within myself and she’s right. I need to work on myself and figure out my feelings towards my past before I try to find another relationship because it wouldn’t be fair if I met someone now because they would suffer from how others have treated me and I’m not ready to be with someone. Yeah it would be nice to have someone to do shit with in my free time and I would love the company but I need to figure out myself first. My ex left behind a very confused, hurt, shattered person and I need to fix what he did to me, not by finding someone new but learning how to be comfortable within myself and focus on school and work and just doing me before trying to bring someone into my life.
