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Opening a Vein
I wouldn’t normally come to this space to discuss this issue but it seems that my avenues to discuss this are quickly shrinking and I don’t think I’d be doing myself any favors by not being open...
Interesting Things
Yesterday was an epic win for the dog. Some… issues… but that is to be expected with 5 kids running around for longer than normal. Like… yes, Nala did get some of the couch fluff again… but tha...
Grumble
My sinuses were bugging the living shit out of me today. Coughing, making it hard to breath, worried about a fever. Yes, I did wonder if it could be the Rona. Temperature Gage at work said 96.1 S...
Nala & More
This entry may involve some content that some would find objectionable. Fair warning. When you think about things, the following items are true. (1) Nala is almost 2 and still has a great deal o...
For Now
Victoria, Remus, and Essen volunteered to do literally whatever they could to keep Nala around. I plan to email Nala’s vet, too. And talking to the neighbor. And blasting all of the area Fac...
Damnit Nala
UF! So, I was planning to call my parents when I got home as discussed in therapy. However, when I got home… Nala (my dog) had lost her tiny mind. She has been an unholy destructive terror and...
Therapy and Surveys
I’ll summarize therapy really quickly: “So your parents… what is the protocol there, then?” We’re supposed to call them. “Is that always true?” No, they used to call me a little more. But ever s...
... and What is Taken Away
The plan for Wednesday as I knew it was as follows: Wake up. Go to Des Moines to get glasses fixed. Come back to get my car fixed. Victoria comes over, we walk Nala, have dinner, enjoy each ot...
What is Provided, What is Given
In some ways this shall be a more in-depth retelling of events than I sometimes get into but… that is the benefit of not working tomorrow. (This was written on Tuesday) During my work day, as it ...
An Expected Surprise
Iowa’s Supreme Court, recognizing the massive strain COVID is placing on the state, have once again cancelled all Jury Trials. To be renewed in February. This is… both positive and negative. ...
Just a Few Things
(1) Remus, Victoria, Essen, and all the kids came over last night. It was actually really good up until the end. Kids had kind of a massive melt down. (2) Victoria has downloaded Tik Tok and ha...
Short Follow Up
This is a short follow up to what I’ve been writing in the last two entries, apparently. I am SUPER happy that when Nancy was over yesterday, she fixed the couch. She texted me about it, I check...
I Don't Like
I don’t like emotions that confuse me. I’m pretty clear about that. I’ll obsess over something until I understand it, if I care enough. Which is odd… I lost a case this week and… not obsessing...
Hatred Based on Age
As a Sexual Assault Prosecutor… I have a small hatred against certain groups based on age. Above a certain age, I still run into far too many who believe “it isn’t rape if you’re married.” Above ...
Follow Up to a Needed Conversation
The evening was good. Better than expected while containing little of what was expected. Victoria came over and was clearly lost deep in thought. Her son is having trouble in school and it seem...
Over Dramatic
Call me over dramatic but my sense of personal justice had already been pushed to its exhausted end. After seeing my state go overwhelmingly in favor of corruption, fear, and hatred? My sense o...
Well crap
So… After writing, I finally nodded off. For approximately one hour. At which point I had a horribly graphic nightmare that involved me in a very painful car wreck. Got up, threw on some jeans,...
0357
I got my tasks done and in bed at a reasonable time. Fell asleep okay. Nala woke me at 3 a.m. I’ve been trying to get back to sleep but… my thoughts prevent it. I think about Essen and her day...
Twitter Sized Thought
Today my brother texted us about my niece. After her schooling, she went to her Dad and asked him about his day. How seminary is going… how his studies are different to hers, how he is doing. A...
Can You Imagine
Can you imagine believing that your faith is the ideal faith, that all people should follow it, that your version of God is the only correct path… and then literally attempting to force people th...
The Power of the Mind
I’ve always known I’m more of an abstract being. Mental over physical. Everything about me suggests as much. I prefer more sedentary interests. My academic life was focused on the intangible ...
Insanity
My county had 17 cases at the end of lockdown. Then in May, Governor COVID KIMMY decided that “the businesses couldn’t withstand anymore restrictions.” We went from 200 cases to over 550 cases ...
The Obvious
I hope everyone enjoyed their Full Moon Extra Hour Halloween! I spent mine with a family I was friends with in High School. Cool to catch up… see how they are, see their kids. My facebook feed ...
Well it don't break even
(1) My self-destructive tendencies are getting the better of me (2) My body is in pain, my heart is depressed, and while I can push myself to move my body… I can’t summon the strength to do any w...
Silly
HA! So… I had spoken with the judge and all the attorneys yesterday. Nobody wanted to go to the courthouse today (as early voting kicks in, additional unmasked people flood our work space, and c...
Book Description
I was 20 when I first started taking pills that let me see the world with a little less pain. A few months after that, I met a woman that I thought was beautiful and interesting. When I was 26, I proposed. We married when I was 27 and moved to Omaha. That is where our marriage ABSOLUTELY fell apart. That was 2011. For the last many years; I had been trying to salvage the marriage. At the end of 2019, I told my wife that we needed to separate. This year we file, she moves out, and I try to figure out how to get my shit sorted.
