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Manorexia - I have a dating disorder
A comfort zone is a beautiful place but nothing ever grows there
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Good vibes only in Current Events
I’m just not in the same place that I was before and I am not the same man I was before and quite frankly I am tired of being around bad vibes. Everybody seems to think that they are falling apar...
Dream Paralysis in Current Events
I felt that weight on my chest. I laid myself down on my sofa to rest up and I woke up on my bed. I wasn’t awake but I was conscious. If that makes sense. I started my way out of bed only to snap...
2.22 in Current Events
Lately a lot of my thoughts have been manifesting. Small things like a random craving for an Indian dish that an employee of mine made me once. She surprised me with it the next day. Other things...
Speechless in Current Events
I have been pretty speechless. I am not sure what happened but my depression undermined all the hard work I had put into myself this last few years. I didn’t exactly fall apart and lose control o...
Fading in Current Events
I had everything under control until I relapsed with my anxiety and depression. It started a couple weeks when everything blew up in my face at work. I had the business sitting pretty, we were th...
Breathe in Quick Thoughts
Ever troll somebody that you used to have a crush on to see what they’re up to? If you haven’t, don’t. Why did I do that to myself? I still feel like I am going through some heavy shit when I’m n...
I still get jealous in Current Events
I woke up feeling pretty bummed out. My mind is comparing myself to the success of others and it is making me jealous. There is a young woman in my city I follow on Instagram, she bought a beauti...
Instawhore moment in Current Events
Gains for somebody like me is hard to get. I am already naturally too thin and I just altered my diet to lower my body fat so I can look more cut instead. Basically I am trying to get my abs to c...
Question in Current Events
I’m sitting in my dark room where I have spent most of my day. At my computer desk with my scented candle and my lemon, mint water. I have instrumental music playing in the background and I’m try...
Nice Try Universe. in Current Events
I been seeing 2:22 everywhere and my superstitious side has been waiting for something to manifest in my life. I assumed that yesterday something would happen when a guy I have a small crush on w...
When I grow up in Current Events
About a month ago I think I figured out what I want to be when I grow up. I had a passion this whole time and I didn’t even realize what it was. Nutrition. I have a career counsellor that I am go...
Passenger in Current Events
Everything is going right on all fronts. I’m finally running my own store at work. I’ve bounced back from Christmas in record timing. My physical health has never been better. My relationship wit...
Skin Deep in Current Events
I got myself so flustered this morning when I woke up. Yesterday I did everything I didn’t want to do. I went out to eat, I went shopping and made purchases that I did not need, I went to the cas...
Forward in Quick Thoughts
I wrote down an action plan for 2018. It literally gives me anxiety just thinking about it. Today I started a new piece of my 2018 journey. I am hoping that tomorrow will be the start of somethin...
Dumb drama in Current Events
I don’t know what I was expecting when I got all my friends back together last night. I mean we had a blast and we were beside ourselves that we were all together again. My birthday was a good ex...
Nofap in Quick Thoughts
Not a lot of people know this but quitting masturbation is hard (no pun intended). The no fap movement is suppose to do wonders for my social anxiety and I am desperate. I deleted a terabyte wort...
Salty in Current Events
I’ll be honest, the vegan jokes get to me. We had our annual gathering for our birthdays and we always order pizza but I made my own and let everybody try some. I made good shit, way better than ...
Anger in Current Events
I was carrying so much anger yesterday. I am feeling it today also. I can barely contain it. Control it? I feel powerless in a lot of the circumstances that make me feel so trapped right now but ...
2017 Reflection in Current Events
Every time I visit my mother we end up in a debate or argument about my vegan lifestyle. Today she was extra judgmental and opinionated about a lot things and situations in my life. When did we b...
Harvey Weinstein situation in Current Events
My operations manager is allegedly fraternizing with his assistant from the store that I worked at last year. That assistant and I were pretty close during our time together. My operations manage...
My name is human in Current Events
I don’t know how to make sense of this experience but I dove deep into myself yesterday. Through all the appointments and notifications and into the thoughts that I don’t like to think about. I w...
Slay in Current Events
My social anxiety is pretty high right now for the lamest reason. Tyler is moving to a different province and tonight is his goodbye party and I just don’t know why I have been obsessing over how...
Imploded in Current Events
I don’t know what came over me yesterday. I spent a chunk of my morning laying on the floor in my room. I couldn’t catch my breath. My chest was too tight and my heart was pins and needles. I had...
Push in Current Events
Out of nowhere my anxiety has returned and I do not care that it is back. I just realized that I had let it make all my decisions this week. All the wrong ones. The easy ones. The do nothings. . ...
One Day Or Day One in Current Events
I feel so unfocused when I have my snap streaks to keep up with and when I start to fill in the voids with scrolling through Facebook and Instagram. A couple weeks ago I deactivated my Facebook a...