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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.
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People are Stupid in Journal
People are mean. People are defensive, agressive, ignorant and idiotic. I feel ashamed. I feel greif. I feel that it should not be so. But the evidence is overwhelming. It seems that anything ...
Just Curious in Journal
For anyone who actually reads this stuff, what do you think when you hear that someone consciously, intentionally doesn’t speak to their parents anymore? I’m genuinely curious, please answer :)
We have it. Lots of it. Gotta shovel it. Snooooooo
We’ve been TTC for what seems like most of last year. In reality, we’ve only really been able to catch 2 solid months. It seems like a married couple should be able to plan these things, but it w...
For a Man of Genuine in Journal
Self-esteem, upon meeting someone entirely new, he is not concerned with what they think of him but rather with finding out what he thinks of them. His social need for psychological visibility ca...
I Feel Alarmed whenever in Journal
I read or hear something like this “Herman’s work is valuable to everyone who has been the victim of such incest because it offers help; it is valuable to those whose families are shattered by i...
Forgiveness is in Journal
(imo) the involuntary, spontaneous dissipation of rightful anger after having been harmed maliciously or unintentionally. Ie, forgiveness is not a virtue. There can be virtue in earning forgiven...
Is a pretty contentious topic. I mean. It’s contentious because a) average people cannot conceptualize the experience of the high IQ 2) the Kruger-Dunning effect d) High IQ people are not just a ...
We've all had the Covids in Journal
and it wasn’t bad. I might’ve even had it twice, but it’s hard to say since I wasn’t tested the first time. Been thinking a lot about respect, recently. It was something that came up very early ...
I am with my same age-mates from grade school. I am really enjoying myself. I am confident. Attractive. Satisfied. Admired. I was with another woman from my class who is classically attractive, f...
The cruelty of in A Childhood Lost
My dad continues to haunt me. It is one thing to observe, interpret and judge events and the environment which transpires around you. It is another to impose your choices upon those around you, ...
The Pain is Gone in A Childhood Lost
I’m sure exactly when it left, but it did. It’s sort of surreal, you know, to realize that at some point the ache in your soul you’ve felt your entire life has evaporated. Was it slow? Was it spo...
is really cute, and so am I. Every time we go out- which is usually to the jump park these days since it’s 4F outside rn- the adults fawn over my son. Don’t get me wrong- he’s stinkin’ adorable....
I feel a bit in Journal
weird, today. IF what I had last month was the ‘Rona, the past 2 days was just a little after-blip or something. Same symptoms, but shorter and milder. Today I have a bit of that feeling you get...
are trauma survivors. Idk when I began to feel an annoyance at the self-proclamation that one is a “trauma survivor”. It speaks to me like someone wearing a wound on their forehead. It speaks of ...
Fog in A Childhood Lost
I’ve had trouble tracking names, faces, behaviors, identities, over time. It’s been like walking through a mass of thick fog. It does not lift, and it does not differentiate. It is endless and it...
MIL funeral in Journal
Went well, mostly. My parents did show even though I asked them not to. They sat in the middle of the small church even though they said they’d sit or stand in the back. They went to the burial e...
The quiet desperation in Journal
Of middle age… I would consider middle age to be mid 40s to perhaps mid 60s. MIL died at just turned 61. I remember 3 years ago now, we were on vacation together. FIL said to MIL as they were re...
Happy Thanksgivging in Journal
and, it is. The holidays have always and forever, been a colossal let down for me. For some reason, I would be infected with the joy/love/noel spirit and have high hopes for the season. I would ...
Lol, I'm Blocked in Journal
and I think that’s great. There is no success unless you piss off evil people. Much like Hillary Clinton sowing FUD about Crypto… yes. The very best endorsement that I could ever have hoped for....
In Your Experience, in Journal
Have you EVER been able to turn an aggressive, defensive, personally attacking and projecting person around in conversation? What worked? Is it entirely hopeless? As always, I ask myself, why am ...
Rittenhouse Acquitted in Journal
As I scroll, I find that some people are celebrating joyously and some people are wishing death and destruction upon others. Idk. I’d rather hang out with people who are celebrating than angry a...
Jesus, mom. in Journal
So mom emailed me and told me about a dream. “Back in April I dreamt that you were pregnant. You were very pregnant in my dream. It was a windy day and you came over and we talked. The dream was...
is being her normal weird self. She sent several very aloof texts; “hey, how are you?” and “send pics when you can”, and then went full pathetic all of a sudden, “Please come for Thanksgiving din...
I feel Invigorated in Journal
Like. Really good. Really really good. It’s so odd to think that the very same thing which gave me so much anxiety and fear is now exhilarating- that which I felt a profound shame, I feel free e...
