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I try not to experience your loss and sadness as everyone moved on, or away, not staying long. Too many statements that begin with: “Once upon a time…” “This used to be…” “Do you remember when…?”...


I returned home one weekend to celebrate my niece Gira’s birthday. It was fun, with lots of good food and cakes. I’d played with her and her brothers too. Because of my teaching schedules on Satu...


The world outside? It can be chaotic. God Does What God Likes. What we break, God May Fix or Leave Shattered, just like that. At least I’m safe, also warm within. The giant shower is on, perfect ...


(*This was written on January 2021): I must say, I used to travel alone at night, out on the road. I’ve had jobs with odd or unusual working hours. For example, your 9-to-5 is actually my 12-to-8...


It turns out a decade and more are still not enough to know you as a whole. I can still see the beauty in your soul, hear the gentleness in your voice. Somehow, I can even imagine your warm emb...


From the moment The Ex-Guardian saw The Mighty Queen sitting on the front porch, she’d known that she’d been dreaming. She was back in The Isolated Castle, instead of the rented room she was in. ...


This is why Time Machine is only fiction You can only look back to search for what you’ve lacked: Words you should’ve said… Love you should’ve shared… The lost moments… No second chances… Only me...


As predicted, it’s not over yet. We’ve heard the new #Covid strain in the UK. Should we call that #Covid20, then? Nope, I’m not making a joke. That’s a serious question. You don’t need to answer ...


I’ve decided to keep my old vow that I shall never love anyone like I’ve loved you. No, please don’t say ‘wow’. I don’t mean it as a compliment. There’s still a lot about me, oblivious to you. F...


That’s right. There’s your bad news. You may not believe me, which is fine. After all, I’m still single and childless. What the hell do I know, right? Right?? You’re going to lose that kid. I’m n...


I dare say that nobody likes injections,  not even for their own good. The tough may claim that they can take any shots. However, that doesn’t mean they like them. There’s a difference. I remembe...


Once upon a time, I told someone this critical line: “If romance were a god, I’d probably be agnostic. I’d like to believe in it, ‘though it seems only happening to others, while it feels like so...


I’ve got the privilege to get to know another talented poet from my own country. I met Indah P. at Malam Puisi Jakarta (Jakarta’s Poetry Night). She was there to promote her poetry anthology – “B...


“I love him. / I love her. / I love them.” Yet this is not the first time, you come to me with the same problem(s). The endless fighting, the infidelity, the abuse, oh-so-constantly. I’m surprise...


They have loved you. Once upon a time, they truly did. The stories could turn out differently, depending on how you (have chosen to) respond to their feelings for you. Perhaps you’ve loved them t...


I had the strangest, most vivid dream. I heard your voice, faintly somewhere in the distance, yet my phone was still off and charging. Was it my imagination? Was my mind playing tricks on me agai...


First of all, this is not always ghosting. Believe me, it’s not always what you may think. Either way, it’s up to you how to react to this. This Covid-19 pandemic has left many of us feeling more...


There is no such thing as ‘forever’. Call me a cynic, but you know it’s true. We’re mortals and bound to change. What you may enjoy now, you may not be keen on later. You may also say you love th...


I think I’ve run out of sedatives just to numb the pain within. I know, they can be addictive, but I can’t deal with my feelings. These days, they can be overwhelming. So, what do I do now? My id...


It was love at first sight. I know it sounds shallow, but that was what it had been. I didn’t even care that the neighbors had already warned me about him. When I first walked past that old, cree...


Tell you what? They’ll suggest that accept that this has never been a perfect world. One way or another, we’re all bound to hurt, so just deal with it. Tell you what? They’ll say it’s not alwa...


Alright, I admit it. I don’t always stay home during this pandemic era. Once in a while, when I have to, I still go out too. Okay, fine. Sometimes I do go out because I just want to, okay? Grocer...


They all say the same cliché: “It’s better to have loved than none at all.” Our story had been short and not worth it, yet I’ve been cursed with this ability; this giant elephant memory. Let’s be...


“Life is short. Why hold grudges?” I’ve heard that from a lot of people, quite often already. My best friend Hazel Eyes is one of them who thinks so too. Don’t get me wrong, okay? I know what tha...


The dawn isn’t close enough, yet I am jolted awake from a dream that felt like a time machine, throwing me back to the past, so mean. Who has resurrected this silly girl I once was? I thought I’d...