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7 days ago

"CHRYSALIM"

The world outside? It can be chaotic. God Does What God Likes. What we break, God May Fix or Leave Shattered, just like that. At least I’m safe, also warm within. The giant shower is on, perfect ...


March 23, 2021

"GNOSSIENNE"

It turns out a decade and more are still not enough to know you as a whole. I can still see the beauty in your soul, hear the gentleness in your voice. Somehow, I can even imagine your warm emb...


February 13, 2021

"OLD FEELINGS"

This is why Time Machine is only fiction You can only look back to search for what you’ve lacked: Words you should’ve said… Love you should’ve shared… The lost moments… No second chances… Only me...


January 24, 2021

"LIKE I'VE LOVED YOU"

I’ve decided to keep my old vow that I shall never love anyone like I’ve loved you. No, please don’t say ‘wow’. I don’t mean it as a compliment. There’s still a lot about me, oblivious to you. F...


Once upon a time, I told someone this critical line: “If romance were a god, I’d probably be agnostic. I’d like to believe in it, ‘though it seems only happening to others, while it feels like so...


December 06, 2020

"STOCKHOLM SYNDROME"

“I love him. / I love her. / I love them.” Yet this is not the first time, you come to me with the same problem(s). The endless fighting, the infidelity, the abuse, oh-so-constantly. I’m surprise...


I had the strangest, most vivid dream. I heard your voice, faintly somewhere in the distance, yet my phone was still off and charging. Was it my imagination? Was my mind playing tricks on me agai...


November 02, 2020

"MORE POETRY FOR THE LONELY"

I think I’ve run out of sedatives just to numb the pain within. I know, they can be addictive, but I can’t deal with my feelings. These days, they can be overwhelming. So, what do I do now? My id...


October 12, 2020

"TELL YOU WHAT(?)

Tell you what? They’ll suggest that accept that this has never been a perfect world. One way or another, we’re all bound to hurt, so just deal with it. Tell you what? They’ll say it’s not alwa...


October 04, 2020

"ERASED AND UNWRITTEN"

They all say the same cliché: “It’s better to have loved than none at all.” Our story had been short and not worth it, yet I’ve been cursed with this ability; this giant elephant memory. Let’s be...


September 27, 2020

"THE 3 A.M. BREAKDOWN"

The dawn isn’t close enough, yet I am jolted awake from a dream that felt like a time machine, throwing me back to the past, so mean. Who has resurrected this silly girl I once was? I thought I’d...


September 14, 2020

"FATIGUE"

Every day is basically the same. We’ve become hamsters in our own spinning wheels. It’s the familiar, boring game. We’re going round and round on our heels. The world’s become a scarier place. Le...


September 03, 2020

"CRUEL"

What did that elephant ever do to you? You’re no human, such a horrible monster, feeding her with a pineapple, filled with active firecrackers. Her fetus exploded within and so she died, found wo...


I’ve been blinded by biased simplicity, seeing things in black and white, so literally. The shame’s still within me, ‘though I know I’m not the one and only. Have your minds also been corrupted, ...


August 16, 2020

"IN AGONIZING SILENCE"

Hear nothing but your own heartbeat. Feel nothing but the cold that creeps in. See a mouth that’s clamped, eyes that tell you nothing, a mystery that lies within. You think you can enter her worl...


You’ll never know but he misses the old days when you seemed to love him so, in your arms, he’d felt safe and protected. You only see how he doesn’t meet your expectations. He only remembers you’...


July 30, 2020

"TOXIC POSITIVITY"

“Patience is a virtue.” Yeah, right. At least according to you. “There’s no point in this fight.” Nothing wrong with patience. It’s your ignorance with certain privileges. Not everyone owns the s...


July 23, 2020

"YOUR BETRAYAL"

I’ve learned a lot just from your betrayal. No wonder trust is expensive. No point in calling me paranoid. I’ve added more bricks to my wall, learning to be more selective. Maybe I’ve found comfo...


July 15, 2020

"THE OUTBREAK"

The crowd has never looked so treacherous. Nobody’s being serious when it comes to dealing with the virus. They simply group, like hopeful fans for some photoshoots, ignorant that it’s no good. H...


June 29, 2020

"STRONGER?"

I wish I had my rose-coloured glasses, so I could see the colours of your optimism. You say we can be stronger than our painful wounds. Maybe it’s true. Maybe I could play the same role again too...


June 12, 2020

"JUST NUMBERS"

I’m just a number, not a person, at least according to them. If I die as the only one, then it doesn’t matter. I’m just a dot in their statistics. If it’s me and another, it still doesn’t matter....


May 27, 2020

"OH, I DREAM OF YOU!"

We can still see each other, thanks to the webcam on our computers or hear each other on our phones. Still, some things are irreplacable. I miss having you close, those long hugs like we miss eac...


May 18, 2020

"HOLLOW"

Have I put myself on exile for too long, that solitude no longer feels wrong? Just hollow, a vacant space without a vibrant soul. I’m afraid to forget how it feels to open up, letting anyone in, ...


He bares his straight, white teeth for a smile as he greets me with his shy “Hello”, while I politely nod as I go. His dark complexion slightly glistens under the Jakarta morning sun. I nervously...


February 02, 2019

"THE BLISSFULLY, IGNORANT YOU"

It’s true, I guess Ignorance is bliss Your life is perfect How come they don’t get that? Why is it always bad? So you’ve found the love of your life Your oh-so-perfect little wife You think the w...


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This is where a lot of my poems get posted. :) Happy reading!

R.