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Midwest Attorney trying to navigate the waters of life
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It Felt Wrong to Remain Quiet in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
I imagine that the majority of what I write in here today could easily and with no loss to anyone be ignored or skipped. But my silence (or lack of excessive words, I guess) as to the historical...
An Irony of Words in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
I feel like what I want to say is some kind of revealing self-exposing confession that will profoundly out me as an irredeemable hypocrite. I mean, I know better. Intellectually, I know that th...
Meditative in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
I am feeling a sense of anxiousness. Not anxiety, not as I usually feel anxiety, anyway. Just a sense that I’d like to fast forward through the next bits. The legal filings, the push for Martha...
Thoughts In Space in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
As I write this, I still haven’t decided whether I’ll respond to notes in my last entry individually or in a large clump here in this entry. Thus the joy of who I write my entries sometimes. Som...
A Self Indulgent Entry in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Sometimes, I come here and think I should stop writing in here. It provides the illusion of friendship and social interaction; but that is all it is. An illusion. Ultimately, all this is, thi...
Bad Starts and Language in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
(1) Martha is taking Nala to the vet this morning. I hope the puppy is okay. She seems like she’s doing better but it would be awful to ignore this, feed her, and have her vomit 10 or more time...
Sunday in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Well… suck. Internet is largely buggy throwing out Netflix, YouTube, and Cable TV. And Nala is either having a REALLY bad reaction to the new food or is sick because she has vomited 7 times toda...
Survey in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
HERE is a survey that is going around. Because the work I was hoping to get done today? (1) Person gave me the wrong phone number so I can’t call them to tell them not to fly here next week (2) ...
Interesting State Statistics in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Just as a thing that came up as I was looking up state statistics and comparing things between Minnesota, Wisconsin, Nebraska, and Iowa: Iowa is the 4th most obese state in the nation. Nebraska i...
Accordingly in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
So.... Today is a little busier. Not “running around crazy” busy but at least my morning is entirely spoken for. Afternoon? Not as much, but both morning and afternoon involve me attempting to...
Let's Call it a Throwback in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Yup. Have about an hour of work left and… I’m going to spend it looking for amusing pictures to share in this space. It is a lot better than letting my mind go to anxious places about relationsh...
Mildly Upsetting in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Sometimes the law is a slow and painful beast. Sometimes the law is a slow and painful beast because nobody is committing crimes. THAT is a good slow and painful beast. THAT is the kind of thin...
Response: A Cross Post in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Recently I wrote something here that I felt would be sexually exhilarating. The comments I received, however, felt… judgmental. Running the gamut between “Looks like some has been watching too ...
Survey to Cope in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Anxiety is playing with my head. I’m tackling it with logic. I am going forward with the separation because I want to be in a relationship that involves intimacy, trust, mutual emotional affect...
Nothing New Under the Sun in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
If there is one thing that is pretty obvious about me is that I am an anxious person. Hopefully, I don’t come across like that too much in person. I’d like to seem like a fairly average guy irl...
Huh: A Desire in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
This is a bit more direct than I usually am. I am guessing this is because being “sexually active” again is allowing me to actually consider sex and sexuality in a “what do you like” perspective...
Trapped in a Nightmare in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
The title is actually literal. Not like “this life is a nightmare” but like… I had a nightmare that I couldn’t wake up from and it trapped me in the realm of Dream for a considerable amount of t...
Immediate Thoughts in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Everyone just left. “J.D” and “Julia” and Remus and Victoria and Remus and Victoria’s children just left. And how would I assess the evening? I suppose I would call it a success. It certainly ap...
Need To... Gah in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Bugger! Yeah, I know I bitched about this earlier. But I had forgotten that Thanksgiving was just LAST WEEK. Like… ONLY 1 WEEK AGO! WHAT?! Don’t you mean like ONE MONTH AGO?! But… oy. I supp...
Effing Hell in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Spank my ass and set me on fire. This week has been… interminably busy!! Monday? FULL Court Day then three hours of depositions; stayed at work late. Tuesday? Court Morning then Naked Guy Phone ...
Fun Public Entry in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Our state got a grant to help with our immense backlog of untested DNA Kits. So the State paid a French-Canadian Internet Company to build a website to track DNA kits throughout the state. I am ...
Not Feeling Like an Entry in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
So yesterday was extremely fucking busy. Today looks to be extremely fucking busy. Tomorrow is going to be extremely fucking busy. Thursday is going to be extremely fucking busy. So… there yo...
Briefly in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
I haven’t much time today as it is a Juvenile Court Day. I’ll read when I can. Martha came home last night and we had a fairly productive discussion. She says that she actually did know this w...
Fetlife Introduction in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
As I am unsure of exactly the best way to navigate this website and my new life; I felt a small introduction would be in order. An ice breaker, if you will. This may be out of order, but I find p...
