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One day just seems to bleed into the next all the time So I’m supposed to meet with Megan and Atlanta tomorrow to talk about I don’t know what I hope they don’t cancel on me to be honest with yo...
Anxiety every morning when I wake up in Aftermath
Im so hard on myself and everything right now. I feel empty sad grieving Fuck everything. No patience I don’t feel like communicating with anyone right now BC I have no patience I am more inte...
Nye bye 2020 in Aftermath
Last night was like okay I guess for me it was more a personal feat to be able to get out and be around so many people considering my anxiety with everything and how much I don’t drink anymore or...
Protection spells in Aftermath
Got alot done today. Or did alot anyeays for fun. Bought a good book of self protection spells. Bow all I gotta do is buy more sage somewhere. So tired. I am having my tea i wish I would have sav...
Just woke up early Listening to Selena I guess…yea Selena cute  I love her So just chilling. Going to have some tea soon. Maybe do fake tan. Set need a bath. Hot water was off till later today....
Mourning morning in Aftermath
Day 3 of p Today is hard. I feel sad. I’m crying I’ve been crying for hours now. Last night anyways. My period and the stupid Mark, Jason shit. It’s crazy how much individual people can effect y...
hey come stai io sono in un sacco di. So today is my second day of my period. It hurts a little bit. I was looking for a TENS machine they’re pretty expensive so looking for one used for now I th...
nmmmk
im overwhelmed with the state of my apt right now. i am outside i went to pick up some weed. talked to my mom. i read N email from my sister i cried. i am sad i dont hVe the relationship i wi...
roller coaster in Aftermath
so i am getting a bit of a 2nd wind or something. i should try to go to sleep soon though. I love both my cats so much. People not so much. they can fuck right off basically. blah. I am strug...
Well I;m not a product I will not further your productivity It's all just negativity I am a human fucking being Why does everything have to be about selling Why the fuck do I have a best by...
Surprised i am not having any nightmares about the shooting or dreams about smoking because i quit. I dont know about you but October is a crazy month for me. And on the news it seems like craz...
7 days and a shooting in Aftermath
7 days and a shooting. So its a week smoke free and i was beside a guy who got shot last night. Last night i went out and as me and a friend were waiting for the streetcar home a guy started ...
Quit Smoking Day 3 in Aftermath
So Day 3 of no smoking. Apparently this is supposed to be the worst day and it was the easiest. I had alot more energy and a better more positive attitude about everything. I waa in the elevato...
2 doink guys in Aftermath
2 doink guys So i told both of the sort of guys in my life how sick I am and all that shit. One fucking left me on read. The other one i have no fucking clue as I deleted the convo as to not ...
Smoke Free Day 2 in Aftermath
Day 2 of quitting smoking and what do you know? Im on my period as well.... Cramps like crazy. My medicine regiment as well is pretty hardcore for me for my cold and possible underlying lung d...
Quitting smoking in Aftermath
I dont completely want to quit smoking but I HAVE to me being rushed to the hospital a few nights ago not able to breathe on oxygen nebulizers for 7 hours waa torture and scary, and it could have...
Health Scare possibly smoking related. in Aftermath
So I just got back from the hospital I was there since 6 am. I have a cold but it just kept getting worse. I woke up from a fitful sleep vommiting and could breathe. Was really scary and confusi...
Shitty poem in Aftermath
Drowning Never busy Make time for you Alone At home How do I even know if im alive Am i better off alone I dont know Do i have a person Or am i my person? I dont know
My former semi famous former friends with benefits. in Aftermath
So this guy i knew i recently googled him out of the blue. And i found out from a major editorial outlet online as of last year he was charged with 2 counts of sexual assault. An article follow...
Anniversary tomm of my attempted murder in Aftermath
Tommorow is the anniversary of the day my ex finally tried to kill me once and for all. I think its been three years now. The last few years have been hard. The last year was when the peace bond ...
My Almost Death anni in Aftermath
September 29th 2017 I was almost killed by my ex of 2 years. I met him in college years before. He physically assaulted me and I left immediately. I graudated almost failed from his harassing and...
I had a dream last night about meeting another person in my building who had a bad experience too with my ex friend neighbour. It was a cathartic dream in some ways. She told me about another pla...
Close neighbours to cold war in Aftermath
When I first moved I became friends with a woman who I now suspect is a narcassist. It became very whirlwind with her very fast. Several times she would start fights with me to the point where I...
So I am 32 years old and I feel like such a child Still. My father was molesting me as well as my bro sis and Mom growing up. As well as physical mental and emotional abuse. As a result I have ...
