roller coaster in Aftermath

so i am getting a bit of a 2nd wind or something. i should try to go to sleep soon though.



I love both my cats so much. People not so much. they can fuck right off basically.



blah. I am struggling. its up and down topsy turvy. i am pretty tired.



i dont have much energy or appetite lately. it sucks.



i am scared. unsure. hurt. lost.mad. confused.



trying to be ok. no one seems sure right now and that scares me.



every day is a new thing happening.



i cant keep up.



i am strong though. when everyone else knew their way. i came through it all alone. i can do it again. i need to listen to myself. trust myself. make decisions for me. stay strong. what will be will be in this roller coaster called life. i am strapped in sometimes for dear life. just fucking white knuckling it.



6 days till May.