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You dont have a soul I don’t think If you did you buried it a long time ago No humanity No love No sentiment to you Just pure instinct Scratching crawling Trying to get on top Trying to stay...

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So feels like my life is on Hold when I am sick. Got a throat thing. It’s breaking today but I geared up and went to the walk in clinic today. Dr gave me anti biotics. It started breaking before...

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So my sister reached out to me after 6 months of us not talking. I confessed to her that our father molested me. She didn’t believe me. Continued to question me and bring up other men who moles...

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I cannot sleep. I am.so upset about what has happened in my city. I was out around 10 when I saw multiple police cars heading down to the danforth As well as a helicopter which I presume may be...

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Sunday’s are the worst days. So boring this week anyways. Life will get better it’s just been pretty slow lately. Trying not to give in the desperation. I applied to a job. Fingers crossed. ...

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Emma my old friend . I do miss you . But the times could not let me bring you with me. Emma my dear friend. I wish it didn’t have to end. But the second you didn’t believe what I’ve been throu...

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Fuck your expectations I am doing just fine. Are you ever really around enough to know what’s right? The fact that I care so much about doing well. Makes me believe that I am doing my best. S...

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I should care so much about what she thinks of me but I do. I compare myself to her too much. I wish I didn’t feel so scared all the time about everything. And guilty. I guess it’s because I ...

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Fuck why does life have to be so fucking hard? I don’t have anyone I can really trust around me That can help me . I feel stupid because I feel like I have to so all the work in these relationsh...

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Like Ariel you took my voice When i saw you I knew i could not sing The names piled on top of me I felt humilated and ashamed Never at the time Realizing that shame belongs to you But instead ...

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What you did. Was nothing  special. But it was special You were special I cared about you. I guess i shouldnt  have It bled me dry. I knew it. But i couldn't  stop. I dont know why. But i k...

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"I could kill  you  and make it look  like an accident" - Drew Peterson Also.my ex boyfriend who tried to kill me said the same thing. Just saw a promo just now on t.v for a story about the mur...

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So fought  with Nas. Hes just a fuck boi really. My sister triggers the fuck out of me. I want to be close to her  at times but i just  cant. So negative  and accusatory  of everyone.  Judging....

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So had a dream  about my rapist last night. Except in real life he is dead. He was shot dead a block away from where I live now. It was freaky because in the dream I KNEW he was supposed to be ...

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So today going to try to let things flow. Scratch that not try. I get so anxious. Its all because i think i NEED to do certain things.  And i dont. I need to allow myself to flow and let things...

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So here’s my cliche poem I just wrote after calling him and him being a jerk and giving me the cold shoulder. I needed to write it even though it’s not that good and pretty cliche. Need you I d...

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So not much more bad can happen to me lately that I would be c9mpletely shocked about really. People are fucked. Systems are fucked. Most people are really ugly inside and out. No shocker there...

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 You like Dancing around th3  truth I like dancing to the beat of my own drum

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Here's the thing with me I'm an emotional person But I'm not a weak person with no self esteem Or identity I know who i am and who I am not I get devastated by loss But I never ever stay th...

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Can't continue to make excuses for you Will not baby you You know what your doing So you run to your enablers People weaker than me More desperate than me More blind. I can't take it anymo...

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I have all these dreams And goals But feel so lost In all the surviving and trauma At 30 years old Just always hoping praying Just so caught up in coping I try so hard to stay away from th...

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So i dont want to be a victim of my life. But I really feel like one. Nothing seems to be really going right. Sure im greatful and of course things could be worse. But something really deep is ...

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It needs to stop. My mind. My life. People's words. Their actions or lack there of. I cant take it anymore. I fucking hate it all. I feel alone. Stuck. Lost. Confused. Scared. Angry.frustrated.an...

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