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ya know to be perfectly honest. on the fire drill.
I kept waking up hrly. this a.m. so when it went off I knew it was. going off but I let them think i’d been asleep and not heard it since that way it’s more understandable and they’ll go easy [ie...
um so. stuff.
I just want more than 2 days where nothing new happens. yeah so on Mon. which was the............uhm.........oh the 22nd [wow really? it’s been a long wk.] Christopher spiked out. he’s usually fu...
so. i told. *SA*
um. so like..........uh...........fri. a.m. I think it was my fave bartender [not that I know a whole lot esp. not since I’ve moved] got at me on fb. just to see how I was. which I didn’t expect ...
oh i know. let's unintentionally trigger the girl who has PTSD.
btw I know his side of things so don’t tell me. [sorry. i’m not in good company atm]. yeah so. like a wk. ago um. I was in my room on my computer not doing much of anything. and Kenny one of the ...
something else that bothered me.
so. i’ve been talking to stephanie about stuff. which means there’s someone else in the circle I’ve been talking to. and she has good intentions but. we’re just different people. she’s a naturall...
inventory. suitcases. hiding stuff.
yeah so on...........fukin...........Mon. after the meeting Stephanie and I did the inventory. [which. I always say as ‘invent-tur-ry’ as opposed to. uhm the other way. well it’s not spelt ‘invin...
dental dr. inventory
yeah so like I put in my last entry last..........um thurs. I had a dental and dr.’s. the dental was at 1 which was weird. I’ve always had them in the mornings. so I spiked out at the dentist. c...
so here's what's happened over the past wk. a lot it seems like.
as usual i’m writing an entry that covers several things. er events. um so the last I wrote was thurs. the 11th. I had my dental and dr.’s appts. that day they were. ok. it was a long day. and th...
um so. the events of the past yr. [slightly boring]
yeah so as the title states I’ve been thinking about the events of the past yr. last yr. this month I was doing so well. I was going out and writing. recovery writing. I was taking my vitamins. [...
i don't talk about 10 yrs. ago.
I don’t talk about 10 yrs. ago. I don’t talk about the rape. I don’t talk about the accidents. in college I did. a bit. I talked to someone about the rape. actually other than here most people do...
so. how i feel. about my dad's situation.
um well shocked. as I didn’t expect it to happen - obviously - but that’s my point. it threw the whole. 2 days off. I don’t like that my dad was in the hospital I just like that he wasn’t at my ...
so physically i'm better. except for a few thingss.
emotionally i’m. not. yeah so last month I got laryngitis [again], tonsillitis, the stomach flu [yeah um that wasn’t particularly pleasant. not that it would be] and my tmj got bad. and I also ha...
chai. bus late night running jessica put out. stars.
‘o. I love chai. like a lot. except for starbucks chai. leela’s has the best chai. I mean that’s what they’re known for but it doesn’t make it any less good. it’s a 24 hr. bar/café downtown [Denv...
the concept of home. *SA*
‘oh something else about me is I’m a corrector. not..........not outloud. but in my head i’m correcting people all the time. yeah so when I got back from my mom’s late Wed. night the lady and I w...
‘yeah so. apparently my mom told Jessica that my dad had gone into the hospital for appendicitis. via email. ok so this bothers me for 2 reasons. A: I wanted to be the one to tell Jessica. I ...
so this happened last tues. 'where things stand w/ my mom'
‘Well my mom and I usually get on well. as do Jessica and I. except. on Tues. I completely forgot to make the bus appt. to go back to aurora. from my mom’s on Wed. the office closes at 5 p.m. and...
<<<< appendicitis. again not me. my correction.
er I mean I stand corrected. I meant. that my dad’ll be in the hospital until Sun. he’ll have 3 wks. recovery time at his place sorry,
appendicitis. no not me.
yeah so yesterday my dad was in the hospital for appendicitis. he’ll be there until tonight 3 wks. recovery. um. wow. [knackered as hell i’ll put more when I’ve slept. uh more].
so. um wow. physicals.
I just learned something. Apparently when people my age have a physical they have a complete physical. I never have other than when I was little. and bc of this I always thought they just stopped...
well it's fall. actually not yet.
fall in my book starts Sept. 1st. everyone’s all like ‘no it starts Sept. 21st’. um. not officially for me. Sept. isn’t a summer month it isn’t part of summer. for me. yeah I don’t like fall. it ...
it's been 3 yrs. and..... *SA*
since my 2nd sex abuse. it still doesn’t seem real. like that’s what it actually was. I mean. he pushed me into sex. he used protection and I didn’t. but if it hadn’t been real. I wouldn’t have ...
she was 30. would've been 31 end of this month.
and she. was apparently an addict. a meth addict. and she. had an addict baby. .........yeah. oh 'she' being Jared's sister. isn't that much older than me.
ya know. if it wasn't almost my 27th...... *evan news*
yeah so the last time we talked was the 9th which was um. a wk. ago this sat. I've been calling him since but he hasn't answered or called me. which he usually does. I've texted him. I've told h...
'and i can't change. even if i tried even if i wanted to'. *E*
that song it just. it makes me so happy. as does eva cassidy's cover of um. 'people get ready'. yeah so. ya know. there are certain things that people can't change about themselves. and maybe wh...
so in other happenings. things at the house and such. *E*
um........well hm........ recently my mom and I saw the movies 'tammy' & 'maleficent' [or as I call it that movie I can't say]. the end of tammy reminded me off me. we saw it w/ my sister. I...
