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Today needed two entries because today is my mother’s birthday and I can’t talk about her in an angry post. She has been gone a long time now, she never got to see my kids and see what I turned ...

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What started out as a positive up beat day turned to shit in a heart beat. One car ride with the mother in law and you whole day can go to hell. I am so angry right now I can hardly see straigh...

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I got to work this morning and went straight to work. I had an amazing day yesterday getting a ton of work accomplished and staying focused and on task for the majority of the day. I sent out t...

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Well the weekend has come and gone with little to no change in my life. I did get my flu shot which is guess is something. Still a little sore this morning. My wife kept bugging me about it so...

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I have been waking up every day at 2:30 and having a fit full sleep after that. I used to take a sleep aide but I was informed by my friend Scott that I should not be. I want to sleep through t...

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I would give just about anything for a day with no new shit thrown at me. My daughter’s LMHC called yesterday, if you ever dealt with this you know that is never good. It would appear that my d...

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I burned my foot last night. All my own fault but it still hurts. Peeled the skin right off the top. I did not wear shoes to work today and my office mate informed me that I needed to go in an...

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I am going to try to go into this week with a positive attitude and try to stay that way for as long as possible. Giggling to me self I wonder if it will even last through the day. It was a fa...

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I have just about reached a breaking point with my daughter. I live in fear of saying something to upset her in the idea implanted in my mind that after I do I will come home and find her lying ...

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I often wonder at my own self worth, what purpose do I serve and why am I here. Sure, I am a father, employee, and friend but in the grand scheme of things what purpose do I serve on this ball o...

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My daughter is backing to harming herself again. I am at a loss. The pain I feel every time I see a mark on her makes me feel like she is cutting me also. My chest tightens up and I can barely...

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So with STEPP I am supposed to write about when my stress and anxiety level become elevated so that I can get in touch with the emotions and better understand them. They are elevated right now! ...

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Okay, the last couple of days my stress level has been through the roof. I have tried to not focus on things that I can not change and only on those that I can have a direct impact on. That is ...

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Who the hell knows but I have started an self paced online therapy program for my stress and anxiety in hopes of gaining a better understanding. I’m not sure how I feel about it yet but I do be...

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