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"Our greatest fault is not that we set our goals too high and miss them, but that we set them too low and reach them"

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So with STEPP I am supposed to write about when my stress and anxiety level become elevated so that I can get in touch with the emotions and better understand them. They are elevated right now! ...


Okay, the last couple of days my stress level has been through the roof. I have tried to not focus on things that I can not change and only on those that I can have a direct impact on. That is ...


Who the hell knows but I have started an self paced online therapy program for my stress and anxiety in hopes of gaining a better understanding. I’m not sure how I feel about it yet but I do be...


I would love to wake up in the morning with someone standing over me beating me on the head with a stick, that way I would at least know where the pain is coming from. I am so tired of people as...


I know it is early but I have had a fairly positive day today. I’ve accomplished a lot of tasks at work and it feels like I’ve put some things behind me today. It did not start out the best wit...


October 07, 2019

Mental Health in My Thoughts

Trying to find mental health support is like pulling teeth. I have put in calls to local in-network providers and not a single one of them has called me back. I have reached out to my insurance...


October 01, 2019

Baker Act in My Thoughts

How the hell do you make it through life if you can’t talk about your problems without getting Baker Acted? They want you to talk about your feelings and what is going on and then they jump the ...


September 30, 2019

Life in My Thoughts

Which direction do I take? That is a heavy question that I never seem to know the answer to. I know that I am headed down a path of self-destruction but I can’t seem to change course. I can se...


The events of the last week has been a bit of a wake-up call for me. Am I living my life the way I should be or is it all a cover to hide behind? I realize that many aspects of it are a cover a...


February 04, 2019

A new day in My Thoughts

Good morning all, It’s the start of a new day, a new week, and a new month what more could one ask for when starting the work week? Hopefully, all will turn out positive. I started this morning ...


February 01, 2019

Just another day in My Thoughts

It’s been a rough week this week; I went from being surrounded by people all week long to being by myself in the office in that is always tough. I miss being around people being alone in the off...


A friend called me today for a suggestion about what to do with this student who is a repeat offender. This is where the problem comes in; I don’t know. What exactly is the right punishment for ...


E is driving me crazy, I don’t know what to do about her, and each day she seems to push the envelope a little more. This morning was no exception, on a day that should have been about her grand...


I’m at my first convention, and the team member who is in charge of it told me that I could be down at 6:45. She did not come down to the registration area until eight. In that time, to entertain...


You finally taste success and then they pull the rug right out from under your feet. This is the problem with working in multiple locations and trying to finish a project that impacts different ...


January 16, 2019

I have lost my patience in My Thoughts

I have lost faith. Time to start looking for a new web developer I think. I have been talking to this man about having the site done before the meeting and I just hung with him. He told me he ...


January 15, 2019

I Want it Done! in My Thoughts

UGH, I don’t like disappointing and that is what I feel is going on at the moment. With the conference only days away nothing on my end is finished. I can’t make it go faster, and I feel like i...


January 13, 2019

Memory Lane in My Thoughts

I am sitting thinking of my childhood and all of the different things that made me who I am today. It is very difficult to pinpoint a changing point in most peoples lives but I can pick mine out...


January 12, 2019

Working on things in My Thoughts

I often wonder when I write if it helps me to understand and talk about what is happing with real people. Yesterday I made the discovery that it does. I sat with my best friend and then my wife...


I awoke around 2:30 this morning and that was it for sleep. I started to think about the over bearing debt that I have accumulated and the realization that there was literally no way out of the ...


January 10, 2019

What is next at work? in My Thoughts

I’m kind of feeling lost today. I am very positive towards work this morning but just can’t get my head around what to do next. I have accomplished so much in the last couple of days that now I...


I had a very helpful talk with my friend yesterday. It did not clear up any of my problems but it did help me to put it into perspective and realize that I am not the only one out there with the...


January 08, 2019

Curl up and die in My Thoughts

I don’t think I have ever felt the level of hopelessness that I did last night and still do into today. I feel like I want to throw it all in and just go away. Leave everything I know behind an...


January 05, 2019

What a weekend in My Thoughts

What a weekend it was, it did not go anything like I thought it would. There was little rest and relaxation involved. Instead, stress and worry filled my mind. Bean had gotten sick and my wif...


January 04, 2019

Messed up dream! in My Thoughts

I woke up to the most messed up dream ever today. Had me breathing hard and trying to get my bearings. I don’t normally share dreams but I want to get this one out of my thoughts and I am think...


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