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Inertia.
I almost miss feeling anxious. At least when I was, I was motivated to avoid that active feeling. Now, I get the same feeling from staring at a wall as I do from “actual” stimulation. Haven’t b...
Stagnation.
When I joked I was replacing alcohol with chocolate, I didn’t think it would be so literal. Past few days I’ve been back to one meal a day. Ooops. And damn it. I’m still playing Left4Dead and S...
Hello Kitty.
So I was eating my pasta bean lunch at the table when I got oddly sad. I happened to have a set of Hello Kitty plates and bowls. Because I’m ridiculous like that. I know I had to have gotten th...
Humbug.
I do not understand those who can spend an inordinate amount of time searching and applying for jobs. I just spent three hours applying to one posted two days ago, AND IT’S ALREADY FILLED. I th...
Still here, still sad.
Yesterday was another: I did everything I could, everything right, and when it was 9PM, time to zone out or zone into some entertainment - I couldn’t. I got anxious for a few hours, making bedt...
Quiet.
Okay, metal is playing, whatever. Another day, still sad. Spent yesterday cleaning to distract myself. As, nothing particularly pleasant really resonated with me. In a headspace where I’m afr...
OMG TEH WEED.
Oh, please. I can’t eyeroll enough. There are people with legitimate medical needs, and then there’s this LOOK AT ME, I’M TREADY AND JUMPING ON THE WEED BANDWAGON. Some of you sound like a tee...
Everybody Dance Now.
When I changed the attribute of virginity* on my character sheet, I made sure Led Zeppelin was playing. Specifically, the B-side to Physical Graffiti. This was entirely intentional. I’m a bit ...
Recede.
Again, my right eye is failing me. This is getting very, very old. All this wonkiness started three years ago. I’m trying to remember if it was left-right-left, then right again. Tended to go...
Mah eyes.
I never developed allergies until I moved south of the Mason-Dixon Line.
Dip.
I’ve had a good two weeks. Better moods tend to correlate with a drop in writing, I have noticed. (Though, really bad moods can also correlate with a drop in writing, as well. Ah, that sweet s...
Unwritten Entries.
Don’t know about you, but I have so many. I’m the mad scientist who scribbles on pieces of paper to remind myself. Sometimes I get around to fleshing the idea out. Sometimes not. Sometimes it...
Oh, Airk.
He amuses me. Sometimes I’ll be scrolling down my Book of Faces page and see him cursing out his Senator or Congressman. Just scathing “DO YOUR JOB, YOU F** JACKOFF.” Well, sans caps. You don’t...
Want some pizza?
What. I feel like hell. Mikey is offering you some pizza. WANT SOME PIZZA.
Sleep Report, 2-9-21
Mood was probably best mid-day yesterday. A “fine” at best, which a touch of sadness. Strike that, I also felt “fine” when I went to bed. Well, not quite, either. I just wasn’t hungry all day. ...
Sleep Report, 2-8-2021
Or lack thereof. I tried staying up late to tire myself out. And as soon as my head hit the pillow, I was wide awake. No sleep aids last night, as I prefer not to take them two days in a row. S...
Move over, Spock Helmet. It's time for...
Spock Earmuffs! Set those pointed ears to warm.
Depression be like....
(I’m actually in decent spirits today, shhh. Took a plethora of sleep aids last night and phew, it’s nice to sleep.)
Correlation ≠ Causation.
Stray thought. I have noticed I write the most when I’m mentally unstable. And if it wasn’t painfully obvious like being critically fucked through a concrete wall, I’m not mentally stable right ...
Ankle Weights.
Nope, no metaphor for once. Ever try them? Definitely don’t wear them out-and-about nor to bed. But just casually at home? Your body adapts to the weight. And then when you take them off at n...
Vocal Range.
Female companions have raved at my singing. As this is text, well, you probably have no idea. My singing is on top of my ability to do “bad” accents. I feel my natural range is in line with Joh...
Let There Be Unconsciousness.
Ever since 46 became President, I’ve been sleeping better. Though, it also correlates with being a month out from my trauma. (The 21st.) If this continues, I’ll post the specific numbers, as I...
Theory of Lives.
Remember, in a two-person partnership, there are THREE lives involved. Your life, their life, and your life together. (A three-person partnership has seven, etc.)
Another fetlife comment section.
I’m seriously worrying about this girl. This Woman. I don’t think it’s funny or horny to psychologically break someone down mentally. Oh, she’s fine “now”. She’s a green “now”. What about five ye...
On Ally.
She’s a girl I made out with at Airk’s family’s Fourth of July Party. There we go, my Thesis Statement. She was friends with Airk’s little sister. And to skip to the end. She was hitting on me ...
Book Description
Off-hand thoughts which I won’t organize as well. But feel safe to share.
