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February 14, 2020

When Having Hope Hurts

Sometimes holding on to a relationship that does not serve you does more harm then good. You may think having hope invested your desire to make it work is an admirable quality, because it shows p...


February 09, 2020

How To Get Out of Limbo

Are you stuck? Between a soft rock and a sweet place? Are you content, but yet you find yourself feeling unhappy? You know you have plenty of reasons to be grateful. You know you are blessed. May...


January 28, 2020

Kiss The Chains

(jan 27th 2012) Let us kill ourselves, dying every day we slave away. Let us pay our captors, and praise the very people who bind us to the facade that exists as us, covering the vision, distanci...


September 11, 2018

Worthless Paper

One man holds a piece of paper in his hands. He stops an unkempt passerby. With an excited look on his face he says to the other, “If you plow my land, I will give this to you.” He looks at it qu...


September 11, 2018

Quit The Machine

Let’s not scorn the sins we’ve built our children to commit within the walls that confine and encase our spirits the living dead the glorified fears we bow down to all the time that we exist onl...


I’m cutting the cords. Pulling out all of the heart-strings that sting and ring even a little off-key… Replacing them with new chords, putting an end to the bittersweet symphony. Instead I’ll cre...


September 25, 2012

Prelude

This is just a prelude to the strength in the end that I will gain. This is just me wasting my time, waiting for my wings. This is just the mercy that I will someday understand. This is just my...


August 19, 2012

Silently Off Key

Uncertainty pursues me like the shadow cast by the sun. Each revolution of the dial, spins webs that can’t be undone. Time is always trickling on, moments are swallowed by the past. Expanding to ...


June 20, 2012

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Along a barren road I travel alone without direction, I have been misguided, and have become lost in this abyss. The resentment that follows me is a daily dosage of the painful dagger of reality....


The distance I feel now is to great to measure with time, yet if measured in minutes would take me many miles. The lack of a heart is killing me, and the numbness can so easily crush all of the d...


February 16, 2011

Each Day As The Dagger

Let me down, each day as another dagger, straight to the soft spot, that we call our human hearts. Let me down, and each time let me fall further, until I reach the end of another day spent alone...


December 18, 2010

My Way To Peace

For the one who set has this day, and given me this mourning. For the one who wiped my tears away, when they came without fair warning. For the one who taught me pain, and has shown I must accept...


Heavy are the burdens, the haunting memories that drags me backwards. Preventing the movement of time. Standing still inside of moments, breathing only to kill time and reach an hours end. To rea...


February 02, 2009

My Eyes Speak For Me

Sometimes, I’m screaming inside, but my lips are silent.. and sometimes, my eyes speak for me, the tears rushing down my cheeks. No one can seem to hear me.. not a word that isn’t said. Not anoth...


God, I don't want to be subject to yet another chapter of pain, I want to just close this book, .. reach the final page. Forgetting all the words, I have spoken or have written, Forgetting to eve...


July 21, 2008

Dead End Blindfolded

How dangerous is this road, I ask? As the warning signs do not appeal. Making my way around the remains, spread across the ground. I realize quickly I do not recognize my surroundings. However fa...


April 12, 2008

Contradiction

I am only beautiful, when the lights are turned down low. I am only staying here, just to watch you go. I am only happy, when the smile must be fake. I am always sad when theres a smile on my fac...


December 30, 2007

We Speak In Silent Paragraphs

I can't hear a word you say, so we speak in silent paragraphs, and continue the routine of anger and love, until one of us decides we have something to say. I'm the only one who speaks, and you d...


September 18, 2007

Stitches

There's a million pieces, scattered in confusion.. I cannot decipher fact from fiction. Lost between the lines of dialog and comfort.. Between my aching heart, and my angry mind, tearing me in ei...


June 13, 2007

Anticipate The Pain

I am not wrong for being bitter, the words I say don’t cut like knives, cause what I say proves you’re the sinner, and the pain you cause is in the tears I cry. I am the heart that you are breaki...


May 21, 2007

Pieces Of The Past

A habit I cannot seem to break, And then I'm breaking my nails on your skin Digging deep a grave so shallow, All the while indulging in sin. Yesterday I knew pain, But tomorrow I do not fear I on...


January 19, 2007

Ever Broken

I’ve felt enough pain, but there’s always room for more, I shut out the world behind me, just to open another door, Pain lies hidden beneath these eyes, and it’s shown in each glistening tear. An...


September 12, 2006

Tears have Stained My Cheeks

Tired eyes, tears have stained my cheeks, Restless now, because I forgot to sleep, Forgot to fall in love, forgot to break your heart, forgot to sew my smile on, as you watch me fall apart. ... I...


July 24, 2006

A Curse In Disguise

How a blessing I thought, was a curse in disguise, and ruined me from all that I once was, tore me apart in so many ways, I was unrecognizable to myself, and to this day .. I still am. The image ...


July 16, 2006

Deep Enough To Sink

You blew out the candles, you pulled down the curtain, Now of the end I've felt, that this ending is for certain, Not another epiphany, or sequence dream at end.. Will I find myself in doubt, b...


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