Contradiction in Writings

I am only beautiful, when the lights are turned down low.
I am only staying here, just to watch you go.
I am only happy, when the smile must be fake.
I am always sad when theres a smile on my face.
I am only in the darkness, when the lights are shining bright.
I am only angry when I keep the thoughts inside.
I am only speaking when you cannot hear me scream.
I am only sick, when sick I do not seem.
I am only certain, when you lie to me.
I am always hiding, in the open for all to see.
I am only making promises, just so that I can lie.
I am only lying, so that I have a truth to deny.
I am always crying, so I can hide the pain.
I am only sinning, so that all wrong will be in vain.
I am only praying, for God to deny me.
I am only screaming, for the silence to set me free.
I am only vunerable, so I can put up these four walls.
I am only in this prison, so that I can escape from it all.
I am always giving, when I have nothing left to give.
I am only dying, in order for me to live.
I am only cutting, so I know I cannot feel.
I am only living, so you have something left to kill.
I am only breathing, just to suffocate.
I am only giving up, because I am holding on to fate.
I am always listening, to the silence when you speak.
I am always strong, so you can laugh when I am weak.
I am only changing, because I love who I am.
I am only standing still, because my spirit wants to dance.
I am always lost, when there’s no path to be found.
I am always grounded, when my head is in the clouds.
I am always cruel, when it kills me to be kind.
I am always looking, only to realize that I’m blind.
I am always laughing, yet I know no happiness.
I am always hoping, yet I have nothing left to wish.
I am only pretending, so you can see through my façade.
I am always hateful, when I put all my hope in love.
I am only unbreakable, for you to watch me fall apart.
I am only at the end, to find a brand new start.
I am only evil, when God is on my side.
I am only believing, because life is filled with lies.
I am only fading, for you to notice me.
I am only invisible, because I tried to make you see.
I am only hurting you, so you know how love feels.
I am only faking it, so you know that I am real.
I am only visible, in the shadow of your presence.
I am only here, for you to feel my absence.

Last updated June 11, 2017