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Happy Thanksgiving

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Everyone is the fakest, worst version of themselves. I hate their stupid fucking posts. I hate their pictures. I hate the dumb shit they have to say that is never original. There are people i...

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The knee jerk reaction is “No, of course not.” But let’s set emotion aside and really think about this…is there a time when suicide is actually the answer? Is there a time when murder is the an...

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I’m doing alright man. I haven’t been on here in a bit. I’ve been too busy with work…and I’m in the process of writing a book, so that is where all of my writing energy has gone to as of late. ...

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I haven’t been taking my meds lately…mostly in part to the fear that they are slowly killing me. And I was feeling fine until last week when I started purposefully making bad music and I decided ...

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I don’t really come to this site very often anymore. I don’t have the time to kill usually…and I don’t really have anything very interesting to say. But I’m alone at the office right now, waitin...

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I quite Facebook again and then kind of stopped doing all social media. But I figure this site isn’t so much social media as other sites…it can still get dramatic sometimes though, that’s for su...

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I woke up at 3:30am Sunday morning and decided I should try to create an electronic song that was upbeat and kind of positive and beautiful. I failed miserably. I definitely made the most gothi...

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My wife and I stepped outside to go get a load of laundry and our apartment manager was out talking to one of our neighbors with a bunch of police officers. She was the victim of a home invasion...

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In the summer of 2020, during the BLM marches, they burned down several buildings in my community. The tore apart the police station. They looted countless businesses. I expect more of that toni...

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Sometimes I think I love my job Sometimes I think I hate my job I guess we’ll see how I feel tomorrow when pay day comes around. Sometimes I want to write happy music (Why the fuck can’t I just ...

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It’s been in the works for a while now. I went a few weeks without a drink not even that long ago, but last weekend, with all the friends and family in town for the baby shower, I definitely had ...

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They tested me for ADHD in middle school a bunch of times…like three times. They tested me several times because the test came back and said I didn’t have it, but everyone was like, “Uh…yeah this...

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Thank you brother For teaching me about the white gloves The us VS them And why we need a poker face Thank you for teaching me about the indigo flame Thank you for teaching me about where I came...

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My wife and I watched a documentary the other day called “Out Of Shadows” or something like that…it was on Youtube. It basically stated that all of the people in Hollywood, all of the rich and po...

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I just felt like I needed to share a little update with the internet. Mostly because I have been living in San Diego for the last 6 months and have been away from all of my friends and family so ...

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I feel guilty for the way I feel…or maybe, the way I don’t feel? I feel like, maybe there’s something wrong with me, like maybe I’m not seeing something obvious. When we were in Salt Lake City,...

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Two days in a row now I’ve drawn Kushiel: Angel of Punishment, as my divination for the day. It’s not a good card I’m being called out for something…and I had a feeling I knew what it was, but I...

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So, I guess it’s been a long time since I’ve written anything in here…and I don’t really know why that is, and to be completely honest, I don’t really know why I’m writing right now. I don’t real...

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I decided that I wanted to hurt tonight, apparently…I sat down and willfully put on the album, “From A Basement On The Hill” by Elliott Smith. I’m one track in right now and I’m already feeling ...

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I haven’t been on here writing much, I don’t know why…I guess I got to a point with my own thoughts where enough was enough, I was just sick of hearing myself complaining. I got sick enough of m...

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At a movie theater, which arm rest is yours? - Every arm rest is simultaneously mine and not mine until I pick one. Why are there no “B” batteries? - Because when it comes to storing electric...

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Tonight, I was on the guest list for Saosin’s final sold out concert. It was one of the best shows I’ve been to in a long time, maybe one of the best shows I’ve ever been to. How has my life be...

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Is there a person in your life that can always make you smile? No. No one can actually MAKE me smile, nor do I have anyone I rely on for that particular form of mind control. I do have friends t...

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