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Earth is a great place to visit, but I wouldn't want to live here.

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I guess it’s been kind of a while since I have written in here…and truth be told, the only reason I’m even back is because my friend Zane challenged me to do a journal entry tonight. I told him ...


So lately, I’ve been testing my own fences for weak spots, like the raptors in Jurassic Park, except twice as frightening. Every day is a little dance to see how close to “too far” I can go with...


“Now I have to show you some circles before you could get a good grasp on one of my full fledged spirals.” I’m starting to get to the point where I am feeling like I am strong and I don’t need a...


Is there a person in your life that can always make you smile? No. No one can actually MAKE me smile, nor do I have anyone I rely on for that particular form of mind control. I do have friends t...


How was my Thanksgiving? Hmmm. It was alright, I guess? I had tacos. I love tacos. My dad and Kari were going to Kari’s family for Thanksgiving, and I don’t have any real problems with those p...


I just created a new OkCupid account last night when I was drinking. So today I was like, “Let’s keep this shit going!” So after I got off work I just got a bunch of booze and I hopped back on O...


Be honest; name of the last person to text you? Why would I not be honest about this? You’re weird man. It was my friend, Dave Harris…he’s a really cool guy and we have really cool conversation...


November 21, 2017

Surveys to avoid reality. in Questions

I’m feeling too shitty right now to actually write an entry, but I want to write and sit here and drink this beer and feel like I am connecting to something greater than myself, so I am going to ...


November 19, 2017

So many stupid questions. in Questions

1.) What were you doing at 11 last night? I was laying on the couch, across from my dad, I was texting my friend Zane and my dad was watching some Marvel show. I was also loving on the dog. 2.) ...


The trial for my nephews murder is on a temporary hiatus for the holiday season, so my parents are back in town. I’m glad they are back…I feel like such a child, but this empty house was driving...


My family is up in Northern California right now, attending the trial of the murder of my infant nephew. It happened almost two years ago…it’s probably the most disgusting thing I can think abou...


I made it an entire week without having a drink, but then today I jammed with my buddy and now I’m drinking. waaah waaaah. I never said I was going to quit forever. It feels great to be jammin...


I finally booked my flight to SLC, only to find out that my mom and two of my sisters are going to be in another state attending to some dumb bullshit that I can’t even talk about. So I need to ...


I always get weird in the fall…the world gets darker and colder. I have strange floods, memories, they rush in and fill me up and make me cold and wet. I miss my grandparents. I miss actual se...


I’ve made a lot of changes this last week, small changes, but probably important ones. I’ve been exercising, I actually got my bike fixed. It’s not like I’m going crazy or anything, but I’ve be...


(This entry was from a few nights ago and I got cut off half way through when I lost internet connection. I didn’t know this site was going to save it. So I am going to publish this and then writ...


I’m bad at reading other peoples diaries on here…I just come here to vent and dump. Right now I’m stuck on how bad of a grandson I am. My grandpa is dying, as we speak…he’s in the hospital, the...


I saw my therapist today. We decided that I am going to start exercising and quit napping…I mean, those are mainly her ideas, but I kind of agree with them…I mean, I know exercising will be good ...


I had to change my name. I googled myself and this diary was linked on like…the third bullet point. I didn’t think I cared that much about being discreet, but it turns out I do. I had another d...


Thursday, I wake up and vomit bile. Get back in bed, shivering in a cold sweat. Get up. More bile, but this time it comes out my nose too. more cold sweats. Fever. I end up giving up my shi...


I’m not going to lie…my heart is broken into so many tiny pieces right now. I’m sure most of you know that over the last few days there has been a movement on social media…posting #meToo as a wa...


…you wouldn’t make love to me. You went fast asleep, you wouldn’t even talk to me. You say I’m so crazy coming home intoxicated…I said, “I just want to love you” (I just want to love you, baby) I...


This is my second entry today…but I’ve been jamming this song again lately, and we are going to be playing a show soon and I guess I just felt like I wanted to share this with the few of you who ...


Just like the waves in the ocean, a tiny little splash of malt liquor in the sea of drank, 40 more milligrams of Latuda through your nervous system. It’s hard to not feel separate from the rest ...


Every time I see my psychiatrist I have to lie to her about how much alcohol I drink and I fucking hate lying…so I’ve started to kind of hate going to see my psych. She’s like, “I don’t want you...