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Spring is here, so naturally I am deep, deep in the dark once again. Some good things in the past year: I found fandom, and through that fandom, I found an incredible community. I’ve made Intern...

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It’s not my birthday, that was last month, but I have some thoughts I wanna try and pour out because I’m tired of them taking up space, festering in a dim corner of my mind. I’ve never liked my b...

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Work has me stressed all the way the fuck out. I’ve been planning on asking for a raise lately but procrastination has bitten me in the ass. I was recently moved into a little back office, which...

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I feel like a washcloth that’s been twisted and wrung out so tightly that it’s misshapen for life now. Had an insanely bad day yesterday. Worst in a long time, if I’m honest. So bad that I pani...

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It’s been a while Again I don’t really feel like recapping Spicy brain time I just had the funny thought that, barring a meteor crashing through the window in the next few hours and boring its wa...

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Still standing and watching the first snow of the season fall outside, annoyed because I really need to clean my car out and I don’t wanna do it in the snow. Looking like I won’t have a choice, t...

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If you’d like an idea of how it’s going in my head, might I suggest the song, “Glad To Be Here,” by Bumblefoot. Fuck man shit is not great, I am straight up not having a good time. Every time I...

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Well it’s been a minute, let’s dive in. My coworker put in for vacation time over Thanksgiving to travel to Texas and spend the holiday with family. She didn’t wind up going. Her husband complain...

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I’m gonna draw something today. I don’t know what. Inspiration well has run dry. I might continue practicing spiders, or birds. Or maybe I’ll work on figures some more. God I miss knowing what t...

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Two entries in a day but fuck it I have more to say. That little tweet of kindness earlier really threw me for a loop and I had to vomit that outta my head asap. Anyway work was bullshit today b...

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An art account I follow on Twitter asked their followers “Post a photo of your hands and later I’ll assign a song to them and do a little sketch.” I happen to particularly adore the way this pe...

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Sleep helped? Sort of. I made it through dinner and dessert yesterday. I made it home. I think ManBeast sensed something was off, he’s been gentle in his words and actions, which I appreciate so ...

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Today is bad. Bad bad bad. It’s a real bad day. I’m so tired. I’m so fucking tired. I have to go to my dad’s shortly for his birthday. I don’t know how I’m gonna do this. Yesterday really fuck...

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Woke up at 5am for no reason today, imagine my surprise when Eric also woke up. I squeezed up next to him and buried my face in his chest, he smelled good. He kissed my head, I squeezed his hand....

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I can hear it. Drums in the deep. It’s coming. Now would be a good time to start taking Vitamin D and really ramping up the effort to find a therapist (still haven’t tried again) but am I going t...

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The mist this morning was really pretty. Tis’ the season, and the smell outside is incredible. If I could bottle the smell of fresh dirt, dead leaves and mycelium I’d bathe in it. See, I can be h...

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Been a minute, I’m just gonna dive in again. There’s been a lot on my mind lately, more than usual but the one thing that scares me above everything else is the realization that I might have BPD...

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Upon opening my eyes this morning I heard Bo Burnham’s voice in my head, “Big ol’ motherfuckin duffel bag o’shit.” Goooooood morneeeeeng Yesterday was interesting. I’m a very typical white girl i...

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Man, I haven’t written in here in years and now I’ve got an entry every day and none of them are pleasant. I sure am a barrel of fun. Today sucked, plain and simple. Started out great, my new li...

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Today was dildos af. Work is starting to get insane, ‘Tis’ the season. Thats actually not a complaint, I continue to thrive in chaotic and erratic environments, the more things im multitasking th...

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Didn’t even have to wolf it down in as few bites as possible, so thats something. I don’t really know if it quantifies as progress, per se, but im quantifying it as some kinda progress all the sa...

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Well sheeeit. Been a while since I’ve written anything. Color me shocked I even remembered my password to this thing. Well whatever lets get into the shamefully needed brain dump. Trigger warning...

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Dang it’s been a long time since i wrote in here. So i got promoted. It was kind of a shock. The Service Coordinator position at my job opened up, and i went for it. It’s a hectic job, basically...

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Okay, you know what? When i type “Prosebox.net” into my gat dang internet browser, the login page depicts a man with excessively hairy arms about to write in a journal and i find it disrespectful...

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I’ve been thinking for some good amount of time now, probably about a year actually, that it might be time to trade in the Jeep. I love my Jeep, 4wd is amazing and the cargo space is great, it’s ...

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