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The Devil Beneath My Feet

by Terraxia33

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April 09, 2024

Like clockwork

Spring is here, so naturally I am deep, deep in the dark once again. Some good things in the past year: I found fandom, and through that fandom, I found an incredible community. I’ve made Intern...


May 08, 2023

Birthday thoughts.

It’s not my birthday, that was last month, but I have some thoughts I wanna try and pour out because I’m tired of them taking up space, festering in a dim corner of my mind. I’ve never liked my b...


February 01, 2023

Annoyed.

Work has me stressed all the way the fuck out. I’ve been planning on asking for a raise lately but procrastination has bitten me in the ass. I was recently moved into a little back office, which...


January 22, 2023

Wrung

I feel like a washcloth that’s been twisted and wrung out so tightly that it’s misshapen for life now. Had an insanely bad day yesterday. Worst in a long time, if I’m honest. So bad that I pani...


December 31, 2022

Beige

It’s been a while Again I don’t really feel like recapping Spicy brain time I just had the funny thought that, barring a meteor crashing through the window in the next few hours and boring its wa...


December 11, 2022

Still standing

Still standing and watching the first snow of the season fall outside, annoyed because I really need to clean my car out and I don’t wanna do it in the snow. Looking like I won’t have a choice, t...


December 09, 2022

Glad to be here

If you’d like an idea of how it’s going in my head, might I suggest the song, “Glad To Be Here,” by Bumblefoot. Fuck man shit is not great, I am straight up not having a good time. Every time I...


November 29, 2022

The bird.

Well it’s been a minute, let’s dive in. My coworker put in for vacation time over Thanksgiving to travel to Texas and spend the holiday with family. She didn’t wind up going. Her husband complain...


November 13, 2022

Draw.

I’m gonna draw something today. I don’t know what. Inspiration well has run dry. I might continue practicing spiders, or birds. Or maybe I’ll work on figures some more. God I miss knowing what t...


November 10, 2022

Quiet

Two entries in a day but fuck it I have more to say. That little tweet of kindness earlier really threw me for a loop and I had to vomit that outta my head asap. Anyway work was bullshit today b...


November 10, 2022

What a mess

An art account I follow on Twitter asked their followers “Post a photo of your hands and later I’ll assign a song to them and do a little sketch.” I happen to particularly adore the way this pe...


November 09, 2022

Sleep

Sleep helped? Sort of. I made it through dinner and dessert yesterday. I made it home. I think ManBeast sensed something was off, he’s been gentle in his words and actions, which I appreciate so ...


November 08, 2022

Bad.

Today is bad. Bad bad bad. It’s a real bad day. I’m so tired. I’m so fucking tired. I have to go to my dad’s shortly for his birthday. I don’t know how I’m gonna do this. Yesterday really fuck...


November 04, 2022

I’ve had worse mornings

Woke up at 5am for no reason today, imagine my surprise when Eric also woke up. I squeezed up next to him and buried my face in his chest, he smelled good. He kissed my head, I squeezed his hand....


November 02, 2022

Drums in the deep

I can hear it. Drums in the deep. It’s coming. Now would be a good time to start taking Vitamin D and really ramping up the effort to find a therapist (still haven’t tried again) but am I going t...


October 30, 2022

Cold substrate

The mist this morning was really pretty. Tis’ the season, and the smell outside is incredible. If I could bottle the smell of fresh dirt, dead leaves and mycelium I’d bathe in it. See, I can be h...


Been a minute, I’m just gonna dive in again. There’s been a lot on my mind lately, more than usual but the one thing that scares me above everything else is the realization that I might have BPD...


October 03, 2022

Interesting Reaction

Upon opening my eyes this morning I heard Bo Burnham’s voice in my head, “Big ol’ motherfuckin duffel bag o’shit.” Goooooood morneeeeeng Yesterday was interesting. I’m a very typical white girl i...


October 01, 2022

Unnecessary

Man, I haven’t written in here in years and now I’ve got an entry every day and none of them are pleasant. I sure am a barrel of fun. Today sucked, plain and simple. Started out great, my new li...


September 30, 2022

Spray Bottle Full of Piss

Today was dildos af. Work is starting to get insane, ‘Tis’ the season. Thats actually not a complaint, I continue to thrive in chaotic and erratic environments, the more things im multitasking th...


September 29, 2022

I ate a bagel today.

Didn’t even have to wolf it down in as few bites as possible, so thats something. I don’t really know if it quantifies as progress, per se, but im quantifying it as some kinda progress all the sa...


September 28, 2022

Well fuck

Well sheeeit. Been a while since I’ve written anything. Color me shocked I even remembered my password to this thing. Well whatever lets get into the shamefully needed brain dump. Trigger warning...


August 09, 2016

Promoted

Dang it’s been a long time since i wrote in here. So i got promoted. It was kind of a shock. The Service Coordinator position at my job opened up, and i went for it. It’s a hectic job, basically...


May 19, 2016

UNACCEPTABLE.

Okay, you know what? When i type “Prosebox.net” into my gat dang internet browser, the login page depicts a man with excessively hairy arms about to write in a journal and i find it disrespectful...


January 09, 2016

New car? New car.

I’ve been thinking for some good amount of time now, probably about a year actually, that it might be time to trade in the Jeep. I love my Jeep, 4wd is amazing and the cargo space is great, it’s ...


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Rambling nonsense from a mentally ill idiot