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7 days ago

new response in 2018

10:51pm I probably should not be writing right now. I’ve only had two drinks but I feel like I’ve maybe had more. haha. The guy on cops just asked the guy how much he’d had to drink tonight. I ai...

7 days ago

my own advocate in 2018

June 12 - 2:19p I had to force myself to get out of the house. I need a distraction. If I sit there not moving then I just end up worse than I already am. I think I’ve transitioned to the slightl...

June 11, 2018

lost the battle in 2018

1:55pm I feel like I’m riding a roller coaster these days. Some times I’m up and some times I’m down. Today I’m up, which is a welcome feeling, despite the fact that I went to a funeral this morn...

9:23pm Today’s thoughts: It’s been a weird day. Not pleasant. I’m in a strange mood. Ever since I woke up, but I have no idea why. I can’t pinpoint where it’s coming from. Just snappy, and snarky...

June 06, 2018

makes me laugh at least in 2018

4:56pm I don’t think I actually have a lot to say today. Sometimes I feel that way though and ramble on for hours. hah. I’m at work right now, hopefully heading home in the next hour. I had break...

June 03, 2018

makes sense in 2018

3:44pm So I’m currently sitting outside in the back enjoying the movement of our swing because it is about a hundred degrees. It’s not terrible inside but at least there’s wind out here. Much eas...

June 02, 2018

Responding in 2018

8:27pm Well, I just checked my email. No response. I’m just a little bit surprised. Not totally but a little. He used to be so quick to respond but that was more than a year ago. I have no idea w...

June 01, 2018

morning gossip in 2018

2:12pm I found something out during this morning’s neighborhood gossip session. It may or may not change things for me. So, it turns out that my neighbor is strongly considering moving. Like they...

May 31, 2018

go get it in 2018

3:11pm I am back home after the quick OR trip. It wasn’t as bad as I was anticipating. Honestly, it was completely fine. I don’t know why it always feels like such a hassle to go out there. I’ve ...

9:59pm I want to type this up tonight but I don’t know how well my motivation will hold up. So many thoughts swirling around. I am having trouble processing though. This place always tends to hel...

May 20, 2018

vanity aside in 2018

4:11pm Well let’s see what random topics I can come up with today. I need to get back into the habit of writing but I’m not in front of a computer all the time like I was at the beginning of the ...

May 18, 2018

accept what's real in 2018

6:33pm I’m sitting in the car waiting because I’ve been inside all day and figured I should at least see the outside world. Make sure it hasn’t gone up in flames or something. Today just didn’t f...

May 17, 2018

another go in 2018

8:38pm So where did we last leave off? … I guess it doesn’t matter honestly it’s probably all the same ol’ stuff anyway, right? There are plenty of updates though! I’m back from Hawaii!! And Laug...

May 04, 2018

back again in 2018

9:51pm I’m totally fine right now. Honestly, I expected to be a little bummed out after Tuesday. Down in the dumps. Hurt, sad, whatever. It wasn’t really that big of a deal. I knew he wasn’t goin...

May 01, 2018

we already knew in 2018

10:18pm He didn’t show. I know, I know we’re not surprised. And damnit I know I said I wasn’t getting my hopes up but ugh I lied alright!!! I couldn’t help myself. It just seemed like it was goi...

April 30, 2018

don't tempt me in 2018

4:15pm I’m sitting in the car waiting and I figured I might as well start an entry and see where it goes. I keep meaning to write but I’m not in front of a computer every day any more. With this ...

April 25, 2018

this isn't a sign in 2018

9:33pm I haven’t been in the mood to write lately. It’s been a while since I’ve felt that way. Not really sure what lead to it. I guess I got tired of writing about the same old stuff. Or maybe I...

April 13, 2018

flustered in 2018

9:28pm Today was a long day. As most of them have been lately. Did I say I was so ready for the season to be over with? Because I am. I’m not even sure how I’m making it through each day. Very sl...

April 12, 2018

spoke too soon in 2018

11:55am So I guess at some point yesterday I opened a new entry window to start typing and hours later I came back to find it sitting there with not even a date. Honestly I don’t even remember op...

April 10, 2018

just wait in 2018

1:11pm So tired. Must sleep. Actually I don’t even think it’s sleep I need. It’s just mental exhaustion. My sleep has been pretty good. I’m getting at least 8 hrs a night, although on average I n...

April 09, 2018

fun[ny] guy in 2018

5:45pm I feel like I’ve been avoiding writing. As I often do. Also, I was busy trying to work on that one super long entry rehashing the phone call and I stopped writing about the little every da...

April 08, 2018

loosen up in 2018

10:33pm I should be going to bed soon. I’m hoping the “deadline” means I’ll type something up quickly and not ramble on forever. ha. We’ll see. I’m doing stupid obsess-y things and I don’t want t...

April 06, 2018

mysterious laughter in 2018

12:54pm I am having such a hard time writing up this entry. I don’t know why. Like I’m happy about it, and it was good, and maybe that’s why I can’t type. It’s always the best moments that I have...

April 05, 2018

enjoy the moments in 2018

10:13am I still want to go back and rehash things that were said yesterday. Y’all know I love to go back and reread all the little conversation topics. It’s fun to reminisce sometimes. I feel lik...

April 04, 2018

always unexpected in 2018

10:13am I have so much to do today and yet here I am clicking away at the keyboard. Too many thoughts! Must get them out! I got in this morning and went through my normal routine of checking all ...

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