renewed spirit in 2024

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Hello again!

I’ve decided to skip the lame excuses about not being able to write/procrastinating/being terrible at this and just move on. 2023 shaped up to be my lowest entry count in at least the last 10 years, perhaps longer. Life got in the way I guess.

But! there’s some huge things happening this year and I would love to make the time to document them.

One of my big projects at work has now gone away so I have much more free time at the office. Hasn’t helped me write more so far, but it might. It’s still hard to type when everyone can hear my constant clicking on the keyboard.

So, current happenings [and probably why I’m inspired to be here] is that I have officially started a new biologic medication which I am crediting with my renewed sense of self. To be honest, I’ve only been on it for three weeks, so one dose, but I feel different and can’t explain it any other way. They say real results should be between 3-4 months so I am just praying that this continues to go well.

Yesterday I was hanging around the office and I realized how much energy I felt I had. I haven’t felt like this in longer than I can remember. It continues today and I don’t know how to describe it. Like a cloud has been lifted? Like I’m not being dragged down by the weight of my disease? I don’t know, but it’s something I like.

Now, of course, this could also be the steroids I’m on. shrug I’m hoping not. Tomorrow’s my last dose and we’ll see after that.

All this health stuff changed pretty quickly at the beginning of this year. I had my three month follow up for the bilateral knee replacement which went well. He’s happy with the progress. I was still attending rehab but that’s now on hold because somewhere in there I ended up injuring my foot. Already had an appointment with my PCP, who sent me for an MRI, then to the specialist. That guy sucked and was no help at all, but my foot was swelling to the size of a softball every day and I possibly have a torn ligament. Nothing they’ll do for that but we paused rehab to not irritate it more. Been back to the rheumatologist twice. She initially chastised me for not having been in two years but dang I had a lot going on with three joint replacements. So we mutually decided to try this new drug and I’ve done two courses of steroids until it hopefully kicks in more. I have high hopes. We’ll see.

I restarted my daily gratitude journal, which had been on hold for years. I know it helps though. Gotta stop and smell the roses and all that!

Speaking of: EC and I are in the mist of planning our wedding! Never thought I’d be having one of those! Shoot, look back 10 years ago and I was probably crying about being single forever. hah. Even after we got engaged last year we strongly considered eloping. Somewhere in there we decided we’d wait to check out one specific venue we had in mind [his boss owns it] and if the deal was good, that would make our decision for us. Finally had time to tour it in January and it’s beautiful! Right in the middle of the vineyards on the mountains. We left there knowing for sure it would be out of our budget and went back to planning a courthouse wedding in San Francisco.

Well, a couple weeks later the lady got back to us with an offer we couldn’t refuse. We will never find a venue as nice as that one for anywhere near the price. So there you have it; we are throwing a wedding!

We haven’t done much for it yet, besides guest list and a date for late November. Some days I feel like I’m behind in planning but not really. It’s going to be a real relaxed chill vibe. I refuse to stress myself out over something so beautiful. I’ve never been one of those girls to have this all planned out since childhood. Just going with the flow, working together on ideas, and having fun.

I am going to start a spreadsheet and some lists here soon though because I’m that kinda girl. I don’t want to accidentally forget something until it’s too late.

And I already bought some killer boots that I am absolutely hoping will fit! fingers crossed

All in all, good times. This is definitely something I want to have written memories of so hopefully I can make that happen this year.

I’m heading to our house this weekend [been staying with mom for work] and we’ll do a little idea shopping and hanging out. Very much looking forward to it. I miss him and our house!

rose.
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