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"It has been said time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."
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January 3, 2021 part 1/2 in In My World
I’m going to write tonight’s entry in the morning because I’ll have 2 hours to kill and because I have to get up at 4:45…its 1:25.
January 2, 2021 in In My World
It took me for-fucking-ever to fall asleep last night. I think I was awake when Protector left for work. I woke up at 7:30 and could have stayed up but I let myself go back to sleep. I woke up a...
January 1, 2021 in In My World
I woke Protector up last night to watch the ball drop with my mom and brother. We were all playing Animal Crossing. There wasn’t much celebration. Just quiet conversation, as it should have been....
"Low-key Fuck 2020" in In My World
In 2017 I posted: “Fuck you 2017. You tried to kill me but I only made it through stronger. There were some of the best times and some of the worst times of my life and I am so ready for you to b...
Carry on my Wayward Son in In My World
There’ll be peace when you are done. Lay your weary head to rest, don’t you cry no more. This show saved my life more than once and I’m having a really hard time with it ending. I wasn’t expectin...
I'm pretty sure I'm disassociating again... in In My World
I’m fucking heartbroken and I have no Idea how else to feel right now. A friend of mine from high-school died and I found out yesterday morning. I haven’t figured out the right words to write abo...
Things that I got done today in no particular order in In My World
-Met my friends brother to get a thing from said friend -Went to the dollar store and got drinks -Raged about the lack of internet -Repotted 12 pots worth of plants -Gave both big dogs a bath ...
Don't read this. in In My World
If you asked me right now, I’d tell you no. I’d list all the reasons why and hurt my own feelings in the process. I need reassurance and instead all I can seem to get is more upset.
Shut Up, It's 3AM and you need to sleep. in In My World
AKA late night thoughts that I probably shouldn’t write down. I know how to solve all the damned insecurity and so fucking many of the problems I’m having with it but it isn’t up to me. Maybe it...
When is the last time you experienced nostalgia? -A few days ago. A converstion about stuffed animals triggered it What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had? -I knew I was dreaming but I was ...
Changes and Updates in In My World
Well. Kind of. I bought myself a laptop which makes writing entries at least 30x easier. I’ve always found that journaling is easiest for me when I can just brain-dump, stream-of-consciousness wh...
Dumb brain. in In My World
Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Do...
Dream baby in In My World
I had a dream the other night and it’s been fucking with me. I’ll spare most of the details but the big main thing was that I was pregnant and spotting. I remember thinking “I dont want to lose t...
Quarantine in In My World
Change is inevitable and necessary but one, huge, collective, global change…? That is a bit much to handle. But honestly? I’m loving the free time. For the first time in my 25 years, I have time...
Can't find the right music. in In My World
Can’t keep you off my mind. I have a bad feeling about tomorrow and it is making me so restless that music doesnt sound right. I cant even explain why because I’m not low or anything. I feel goo...
Dreams in In My World
I had a dream we were riding in a car or a bike maybe and we had to stop because a small airplane was going to park on the roadway. You were immediately terrified and so was everyone around us. Y...
I should sleep. in In My World
I wasn’t low today. I wasn’t low all day but now… I’m burnt out. I should be sleeping because I have to be up in less than 5 hours but I needed to write. Most of the time I’m doing well. I got us...
Sunlight heals all in In My World
There’s just something about a warm day in the winter. It feels like the start of something new, and maybe it’s just another day but today feels free. Big changes are coming and in the short-slee...
I almost don't want to talk about it in In My World
I had a bad bad bad dream last night. There was a nightmare part but overall just an awful dream. There was this creature that didn’t fit the… I guess resolution… of the dream and it scared me so...
When faced with tragedy, we come alive or come undone. in In My World
When you’re reading a book about the end of the world, it’s hard not to imagine it being your world. You put the book down and expect the world to be in chaos but it all feels so… normal. The wea...
We are, we are all innocent. in In My World
“I remember feeling low and I remember losing hope And I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped. We are, we are all innocent.” Filed under: Lost in thought on the way home.
Merry Christmas in In My World
This has been by far the least Christmas-y Christmas in my life. I believe I did a pretty good job of hiding it but I’m honestly really depressed. I miss my mom. I know she comes back tomorrow ...
My mountians are not mole hills. in In My World
I have a really bad habit of downplaying anything that is wrong with me–even when it is completely valid for me to be broked/down/hurt/angry/etc. Maybe that’s why no one believes me when I start...
Sick of being sick. in In My World
I’ve been sick for a week now with varying symptoms and I am so frustrated. It started on Monday the 21st with a sore throat that hurt too much to swallow by the time I got home. Fever of 100.5....
Yesterday in In My World
My brother and I were in Walmart today to buy the switch I’ve been saving for and some groceries and animal stuff. I had already bought the switch and a game. While we were in line checking out ...
